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Eeeeek can't eat :-(

So I've been reticent to admit it... but I think my band has too much fill in it :-( I've been avoiding the issue, because I don't want to have a loose band, and then visit hunger city again... But I've really been kidding myself for a week. Had a top up a week ago, at which time the surgeon said he thought I was 'close' to the sweet spot... But because I'd still been waking up hungry and looking for food every 2 hours, then he agreed to top me up. But just like Milton the Monster... Ooops! Too much! Seems like I got the six drops of essence of terror, as I didn't even consider that my aching left shoulder and ear was related. Hmmmm seems it is. The (point)five drops of sinister sauce has meant I wake up unable to eat anything at all until midday. Not too shabby I thought, as I can deal with coffee and nice warm drinks til lunch every day... but then today, nada! Couldn't keep down baked beans, cottage cheese, banana (my morning staples) and even the tub of yogurt I ate at 11:30 was dodgy. Have been PBing tons of slimey mucosa, which is doing wonders for the stainless steel, but hurting my insides. So back I go... Not really wanting them to take much out at all, but best I get myself back to Horror Hill for a touch of tenderness before it's too late and I fade away... yeah right.

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

5 Weeks Today Since Surgery & Life Is Great!

5 weeks today since surgery and I feel great! I have now lost 15.3kgs and am now walking 5 kms every day!! 3 in the morning and 2 in the arvo and I am extremely proud of myself for that!!! I am really looking forward to getting my first fill next Monday as I am so bloody hungry some days but other than a few hot chips i stole from hubby on Sunday night I have been making the right food choices, who knew I would ever do that!!!! So all in all I feel great, and I know I keep saying it but I am happy!!! Had family visit over the weekend and they told me I havent looked so happy and relaxed for years!!! Spent the weekend eating out and gee I am a cheap date now when it comes to food!!! Life is good!!!!! And why did I not do this years ago ?

JoMac

JoMac

 

3rd fill

Okies here we go, third fill today and now I'm up to 6mls because honestly I haven't felt a lot of restriction up til now. I know I need to do some major head work on what i'm eating and how much but I'm really hoping that the band will start to make things a bit easier from here on in. Crossing fingers and toes. My mum went into Ashford the other week for an unrelated ops nothing to do with weight loss, I had to be so careful not to give away that I'd been there too (she doesn't know about my WLS). Then she comes out complaining that even after eating almost nothing for a week she put on 2kgs and is now 48kg *gasp shock* oh you poor f*ckin baby. I have to bite my tongue, its not fair that she's always been slim and never had a problem with over eating. Meanwhile I told her to relax it was just swelling from the op and it will go away soon.

kerr

kerr

 

No Motivation. Help!!

So my whole new lifestyle only lasted a week. And all because I didn't see any results. Which is a huge problem for me, I need to see results to continue what I'm doing and yeah I know it was about changing my whole life to fit in a better diet and exercise but the no results thing played on my mind. Even tried to kick start in again on Monday but set myself up to fail as I was having my grandparents over for dinner on Tuesday and would be preparing a great meal I wanted to enjoy with them. I don't think I have gotten over my emotional eating and I know that its my fault as I buy the junk and put it in my house. I could even have just only had a meal 30 mins ago and I would be straight into the chocolate covered pretzel's or popcorn and eat pretty much the whole package in front of the TV without thinking. Which makes me think I have defiantly stretched my sleeve and also makes me think I will put on the 52kg's I have dropped. What's bought this on is I only lost 5cm off my body this month which it nothing compared to the 10-20cms I have lost in previous months. As for weight loss it has only be minimal at just .2kg I haven't been going to the gym, or trying to eat healthy. I make excuses for not going to the gym like I just finished work, or I can't get to the gym, or I will just go tomorrow. Terrible to know and I'm only just setting myself up to fail but I just have NO motivation. I know I want to get into double digits before I see the dr for a check up in September but with the way its going I will be lucky enough to lose another kg ( and that will be thanks to when the moon men come/ Aunt Flow ) I NEED someone who will push me, even my husband who wants to get fit can't push himself so why should I get him to push me. We can't afford personal trainers or to go to special classes we know we will enjoy thanks to our builder who screwed us royally out of $12,000 and out of our trip to Bali we were supposed to take at the end of the month so money is tight recovering the money lost and paying back the people we borrowed from which we haven't done yet and we are due to have 2 weeks holiday's which we are now taking for no reason as we have no money to do anything. So I guess there's more excuses for why I can't jump on the bandwagon again, stress. God I love stress. Not~! So with no motivation, eating my feelings and the general stresses of life I would have to say I'm a big fat Failure right now. GO ME~!. Sorry for the rant

Mandy_Moo

Mandy_Moo

 

Band Detached at Port

Hi all Just wanting to let People know that it is not so rare that your Band can Break (Detach),I am having My Band taken out on 5/08/14 After having it in for just over a Year 11/07/13 to be Exact,I have gained all my weight back 15 - 20kg that I had lost,It all started about 5 - 6 Months ago Horrible stabbing pains in my Left side going down into my Left Groin area,so I went and seen my GP not knowing that it had anything to do with My Band,She said it was probably nothing to worry about but sent me for an Ultrasound just to make sure,When the results came back they had not found anything so my GP just put it down to Gas pains so I just went on with Life and the Pain,I Knew I was putting Weight back on so thought it was time to go back for another Fill,This time with a New Dr but at the same Clinic I have always gone to,I changed DR's for my fills because I did not feel that my original DR was listening to me and He would just put My weight gain down to me being Female,Hormonal or not eating enough Protein,This was so Friggin Frustrating,My New DR Listened to Me,She Weighed me and I nearly cried but I kept it together as usual,She then got me to Lay down as She wanted to check My Fill,I had 5.75 Mills in My Band or so I thought,It took Her several attemps to remove what fill She could which in the end was only about 1ml,Then She found it Impossible to put back in,So off for a Scan I go a Week later,Sorry I can't remember the name of it but they put Dye in your Port to see if will flow through your Tube freely but they didn't get that far with Me,When the DR positioned the Scanner over My Stomach and turned it on there it was as clear as Day,My Band had Detached from the Port and is now hanging down in My Left Groin,I was so Happy at that moment but so Angry at the same time,I have Recently been back to see My Surgeon and I am Booked in to have My Band Removed and Revised to Sleeve within the next Couple of Months Hopefully

**DRAGONFLY**

**DRAGONFLY**

 

The devil inside me ..

Hi all , My journey has been a long one that has left me lost and disappointed in myself.. I had my lap band put in in May 2010 i weighed 113 kilo's and within 12 months i was at 83 kilo's and happy . After having an MRI done i found out i had ostio-arthritis in my right hip and lower back and that the two lower disc were now non exsistant bone on bone and i also had fluid on the hip . My doctor told me no more hiking no more gym and no more bike riding . If i was to walk only on even ground and not for long distant as i now have very brittle bones . I was only 47 yrs old then this year the arthritis struck in my knee and i had to have a partial knee reconstruction which now seems to have failed . I am determined to get back into weight loss and become healthy i know it will be a battle but i will get there i just have to get myself in the right head space and control this head hunger it is my down fall ! So wish me good luck because i really do need it ....

steribag

steribag

 

Slowly slowly

Well I'm not so sure I'll be making that goal of 5.1 kg for the month, but I will keep trying. It's taken me 3 weeks to lose about half of that [2.4 kg], so I'm sure I'll be pushing it uphill to lose the rest in the remaining 9 days of July... I'm a bit surprised that my weight loss has been so slow really, after all the changes I've made. I'm limiting myself to 1050 kCals per day now, and eating good healthy food, with limited carbs, fats and dairy... increasing protein and healthy options 95% of the time. I have no clue how many calories I'd have eaten pre-banding, but it must have been somewhere in the vicinity of 3000 per day, and most of it coming from carbs and fat.... hence my confusion over why the weight is not coming off a bit quicker when I've done a complete overhaul of my diet, and really do eat like a bird now!! :-/

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Struggling :(

So it's been a while since I've done an entry, and I'm in need of a vent so here I am. It's been 18months or so since I had my lapband put in. Around January/Feb this year, I was down to 74.5kg. My lowest weight since...I cant even remember being that weight. Down from 108kg. I had 70kg within my sights, I was doing quite well, getting prepared to walk down the aisle. My wedding was early April and since then I think I have put on about 5kg, maybe 6.5? I have been so slack and I really just can't find the motivation to get back on the wagon. I've been avoiding the scales, haven't been to see my doctor, and I'm not exercising. When I see myself say these things, I KNOW where the problem is. I need to go see my doctor, maybe get a fill, I need to start recording my weight again, and I need to get off my butt. I know that. But I just can't get my head around it at the moment. Winter isn't helping, I just want carbs and heat, and I don't know how to go back to the beginning at the moment. It seems so much harder right now. I can see myself gaining weight. the jeans that were too loose before, fit again, and I'm not happy about it. My suit that I bought for job interviews is getting just a little bit snug. Not happy. I can see those creases and rolls developing on my back and middle again. And I'm REALLY not happy about it. This should be motivation enough but I just don't know how to do it again. The worst part is that I don't think I actually need a fill. If I try to binge or scoff something too quickly, I can feel the restriction, or feel something get stuck, which tells me that I have enough fill, I'm just eating the wrong foods, and snacking when I shouldn't be. I'm starting to think that maybe I need to see somebody about my mindset with food and with my own self-image. Now that I'm not planning my wedding, and can't get work, I'm feeling a bit down about who I am and what I'm doing with my life. I know I'm a great mum but I feel like I've lost ME a bit. I'm tired of being at home all day, i miss my husband who works away, and I miss my friends and family who don't live here.

FreshStart2

FreshStart2

 

frustrated

I had my lap band put on just over 12 months ago........immediately lost 19 kgs, probably due to the initial liquid diet and swelling for a few months. Have had a hard time with non stop blockages, vomiting and trying to work out what I can and cant eat. There seems to be nothing that will determine when I can eat something, and when I cant. At times I can eat breakfast in morning with no issues, and then in afternoon or evenings, cant eat. I'm now finding that I'm going back to my old habits of eating junk foods as these go down ok, without any issues. Eg: potato chips, sweet and dry biscuits. I'm so over it, and just dont know what to do. I keep going back to the surgeon/ and fill doctor, but neither seem to be able to help me. I am booked in for hypnosis in few weeks, to see if this might help. Any one else having similar problems or any suggestions would be appreciated?

Aisha

Aisha

 

last visit

I had my last visit with Doctor the other day to have final chat about my banding. All systems go I am feeling a little anxious but excited three weeks to go op on the 6th of August

wheelies55

wheelies55

 

Curious about WLS plus 'organised' diet plan

I know most people hate the dreaded D word...and I did post this is an old thread... But I'm putting it in here, as I'd like to get some rational input, without being berated for using the word Diet !!?! Mostly though, when I posted into that old thread, I think I was talking to 'ghosts', as it seems the people who had posted into the thread earlier (years before) have all moved along... Anyhoo... I am curious to know if anyone has had WLS and THEN gone on to try losing weight via a "diet plan"?? I'm not thinking anything like following the instructions of the dietitian, but more rigid and organised commercial type plans. I'd read a bit about Cohens, Atkins, Paleo etc before I was banded, but never did the plans/programs. I understand that the company push is non sustainable, so I'm not looking for opinions on the various "diets" out there... but has anyone with a lapband then done Cohens for example? I'm curious to know, if the major stumbling block with these commercial diets is hunger/deprivation, then would a 'bandit in the green zone' be able to do it 'easier'?? Anyone done this or gone this path?? Ta - Just curious :-D

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Ang vs Scales

When I set myself my goal for the June 2014 Challenge, I bit off more than I could chew (figuratively speaking of course *wink*) of 10kgs and I only reached a loss of 6kg. For this month, I lowered the bar and aimed for 5kg and what the hell, it seems someone told my body I had hit Goal Weight and my body went into maintaining mode and it's sat at 122 kg for two weeks. Seriously, I am not going to sit here and get sad and not acknowledge that since starting this process, I have lost 26kg and I am proud of that and all the achievements that go with that. Yay me! However I am slightly discouraged and a bit bamboozled at this 122 kg stand off between the scales and I. I also add in a bit of an allowance for the monthlies, so I don't stress in my head when it fluctuates. (let's say add 10 kgs lol! jk 2-3kg). Food intake very similar, exercise same, sleep great (no more apnea) and despite stress levels perhaps a tiny bit higher, I do feel pretty good. Granted the iron running low is a bummer, as I feel real depleted by mid arvo and a nap lasting till next week would do wonders, but an hour is helping for the moment. Since my Surgeon decided to have a life and take holidays, I've been anxiously awaiting his return for a fill and check up. I believe I have read, watched and listened too all I can at this point as to why my weight could be stagnant. So unless food stops finding it's way into my mouth before a fill, I guess I shall be remaining in the low 120's. And yes, my tickers say 123kg, because as I just decided to do my late weigh-in now while writing this, the backstabbing SOB of a scale has decided to add a kg. Yes, I shall see your 1 kg and raise you.......... well remove your batteries for a few days. Ang - 1 vs Scales - 1

Angel Butterfly

Angel Butterfly

 

Stats - month by month changes

Been a bit slack recording these, but good to have a look at them... Start: 15/5, 16/6, 16/7, 16/8 , 30/9 Bust: 118.5, 113.5, 110, 108, 103 Waist: 110, 102, 95, 92, 86 Hips: 124, 116, 110, 109, 102 [R] arm: 35, 34, 33, 32.5, 30 [L] arm: 34, 33.5, 33, 33, 29 [R] thigh: 64.5, 62.5, 58.5, 58.5, 56 [L] thigh: 65, 63, 58.5, 58.5, 55 [R] calf: 42, 40, 40, 40, 39 [L] calf: 42, 40.5, 40, 40, 39 Neck: 39.5, 38, 37, 36.5, 36

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

3 Weeks Post - Op and Happy but Hungry!!!!!!

WOW!! 3 weeks today since my surgery and life is great!!!! Incisions are pretty much healed and I am still quite bloated and constipated ( despite huge amounts of benefibre and prune juice, so have resorted to laxettes every 4 days) sorry probably TMI!! but other than that, no real issues!! Today I am 12.2 kgs lighter than when I start my pre-op 2 weeks of Optifast and I am happy with that, of course I secretly wish it it was 22 kgs but don't we all!!! I am now walking for 35 minutes each morning and amazingly 20 minutes each afternoon, and so bloody amazed that I am doing this each day with no excuses -so unlike me!! How much walking/exercise do others do??? And what is the best calorie intake to be consuming??? ( i am having between 700-900 a day but have no idea if this is right or wrong or what!?!?! ) Starting to get as hungry as hell some days so hanging out for my first fill on the 4th August. Loving the mushie stage after the liquids and looking forward to moving onto soft foods this Friday... Woo Hoo!! Going out for dinner for first time next weekend with family, any suggestions on what to order or not????? So all is I think going well, and I know I keep saying it BUT!! I am happy, I know its early days and I still have a long road ahead of me, but I really dont think I have been this happy for years :-). Xx

JoMac

JoMac

 

MAINTENANCE

I am 54, two years banded and getting it removed next month, you can follow my posts to understand my journey. People have had great success with the band on here and continue to do so but as more people get bands the success rate is going down. It is a tool that has to be maintained, everyone banded should apparently have a barium swallow every year as part of maintenance, to look for pouching, erosion, and adhesions, this is something I was never told until seeing this new Dr. I believe this maintenance should and hopefully will be protocol in the future and this is why some Drs choose not to band anymore. I have friends that have had successful weight loss and very happy with their band but also weren’t aware of this maintenance issue but are going to ask for it in future. It’s like a car, in order for it to run at its maximum, it has to be maintained and it make sense being a foreign object inside of you. I am putting this BLOG on here not to scare anyone but to inform you of something I was not aware of and I believe information empowers you Sunflower x

sunflower2012

sunflower2012

 

Post op week 2&3

Surgery day Start weight:126kgs:-( Current weight: 117.6kgs Loss for the 2 wks:1.8 kgs:-) Total loss: 8.4kgs :-) Sorry for not reporting last week! Didn't miss much for the second week. My pain pretty much went at the 2 wk mark. And I was back with full duties at home:-( It's now the end of week 3 and I still haven't started with exercise. I really want to but i just keep pully excuses out if my arse. Def in the yellow zone at the moment which is 'normal', I find myself snacking nearly every 2 hrs. The other day it was that bad I was eating biscuits (not many) and a couple small caramelo koalas which did take away my sweet craving and now I just eat jelly when I need something sweet.. Which brings me onto my next subject.... SUPPORT!????? My partner isn't at a healthy weight and def needs to concentrate on himself, like I'm trying to. I do the grocery shopping on a Thursday/Friday that way I know there will be ZERO junk food (ice cream, soft drink, chocolates, Lollies, chips biscuits etc) in the household. Fri/sat comes around and he's been to IGA and gotten all the junk food he wants. I'm left struggling all throughout the wk, no matter how much I end up saying stuff to him he just doesn't stop and it's really starting to get to me. I didn't spend $10,500 just to go back to my old ways. Last week I attended a Nutrional seminar for the band at the avenue hospital. It was a lot of info I already knew but it did answer why the band is tighter in the morning (because as your laying flat all night, your bodily fluids are evening out throughout your body and therefore makes your band tighter until you start moving around) and you are allowed to drink while your eating ( you just have to wait after the 1 minute after swallowing food). I don't feel any different yet, other then my Lobito is slowly coming back.. :-Dsorry tmi... Oh! One of my insicions were infected.. I felt a lot of tightness around my top Insicions and there was no redness and it wasn't inflammed it just stung whenever I touched it I just knew it was infected so I squeezed it a little and a little puss came out, I cleaned it up put savlon on it and it's been all good ever since. My insicions are healing very well, fading away nicely. I'm not a breaky person so I've been having the energized up and gos lunch time I have chicken/turkey/ tuna with cheese and saladas different every day, dinner whatever is going.. At the seminar the dietician said Meal 1= 1-2 serves carbs Meal 2= 0-1 serves carbs Meal 3= 0-1 serves carbs So this is what I'm trying to follow. I have my first fill tomorrow so excited Anyways that's all I can think of ATM Goals this week are walk 3/7 days Keep smiling :-D

AnnieE

AnnieE

 

A busy week coming up

So I didn't post last week and I won't get to post tomorrow. I have been going up slowly for the last couple of weeks and expect the trend will continue tomorrow. I'm ready for the fill I'll be getting on Wednesday only the second post op (but technically the third as I had fill added during surgery). Just wanted to touch base and let you know that I have everything crossed that next week will see the numbers falling again.

Rlar

Rlar

 

Lets start at the very beginning

Yesterday I had my first appointment at the BMI clinic in Joondalup with Dr. Kathi, for what I thought was going to be Gastric Band surgery. I came out knowing I was going to have to go and research the Gastric Sleeve. Dr. Kathi suggested a Gastric Sleeve because of my age and lifestyle. It would seem that this is the way forward after perusing so many web pages etc. So, let me give you a bit of history; I am married to Phil and have been for 32 years next week! We have been together for 38 years. We have 4 adult sons and 2 grandsons. We are good male breeders!! I work at a bible college as the Academic Dean and have been there for 16 years. Yes in some respects I am very boring and don't like change but prefer to work through issues for a good result. In all areas accept me and my weight! I remember when I was 15 standing on the scales at the royal show and I was 8 st. 13oz. Pretty normal I guess back then but on the heavy side. My friends were skinny I was "fat". And so began my yo yo weight life of diet eat diet eat diet eat. Pretty sure I've lost a whole lot more than my weight in my lifetime... Moving along I remember when I met Phil when I was 22. I weighed in at 57 kilos or 9 stone. I had been on a diet again but this time was staying put and quite happy. As I have big boobs I was always a size 14/16 and frankly don't ever remember anything less. Then I became pregnant and used that as an excuse to eat. Boy I wish someone had told me that I shouldn't do that. After the last son was born I weighed in at around 80 kilos. He is 24 this year! In September 2010 I was diagnosed with an Ovarian tumour and I had a radical hysterectomy 3 days later. My doctor said to me "it is cancer until proven otherwise". Not the words you want to hear. The tumour was the size of a baby's head but fortunately it was benign. At that time I was 107 kilos. About a year after I hit the scales at my heaviest. I was 117 kilos. It was then I drew a line in the sand and said enough! I realised I was killing myself and made some changes. I reduced and have almost removed gluten from my diet. I drink 1 coffee a day with milk otherwise no Lactose. I rarely eat sugar, but I do like a nice red with a meal on the odd occasion. If I don't see all the ingredients I don't eat it, which means I don't eat packaged food at all anymore. In all of those changes though I only managed to lose 18 kilos and must say whilst Im still obese at 5'2" and 99 kilos I feel so much better than I ever did. But all the overeating has given me insulin issues. I dont have Diabetes but I am insulin resistant, Syndrome X they call it I think. I have been 99 kilos for a year and without Metformin I cant lose any more. Hence the Gastric Band journey because I knew that any diabetes issues were removed. So now Im thinking the sleeve and agree with what the Doctor spoke to me of yesterday. My hubby is FIFO at the moment and when he is home we like to go out and have a meal. This was worrying me because at 60 this year I want to be able to do the things that we can enjoy together and eating is one of them. Oh yeah have a mentioned he's like stick figure! So I wont be able to eat so much but I can eat anything with a GS so the doc said. On a Wednesday the local pub does a steak night and we go with the kids and hubby when he's home. All I could think of as I was driving to my appointment yesterday was that I could go to steak night but I would not be having the steak!! I would have to watch the rest of the family eating steak which I was told is pretty much a no can do with a GB. Whilst I wont ever be able to eat a whole steak again with a GS I will be able to eat a couple of mouthfuls which will make me happy. The negatives; 1. The skin issue. I already have lose skin so adding more is going to freak me out. I know better to be healthy but my head isn't quite there yet. 2. The hair issue. I have fine long hair, and I'll freak out if I lose it. Again better to be healthy... The Positives; 1. Pretty sure the pre diabetes issues will go 2. My biological age will reduce. Its 74 as of yesterday. 3. My metabolism might kick in which would be nice My Goal; "To have 20 good healthy years with Phil" Let's see how we go

Jenniwren

Jenniwren

 

Fill #3... Happier today.

So, it's 3 weeks 'til my birthday; I'll be 32 and some months (many many months) LOL... and I have it in mind that I will be at 75kg by then (2/8). That's 3.8kg in 22 days. Pretty sure I can do it. Went in for fill no.3 today - at my own request. Have basically felt hungry since last fill was done on 25/6. Been grazing and snacking, despite doing all 'the right things' with meals. So my surgeon's associate agreed that I hadn't lost enough weight, especially after 2 previous fills, so another 0.5ml went in today... taking me up to a total of 5ml now. Feels ok for now, after I've had some cottage cheese with banana and then some low fat custard for lunch. Though I am experiencing some nausea and feel VERY tired today after this fill... not something I've experienced after a fill previously. Am still loving MyFitnessPal app. which keeps me accountable, most of the time. This is such a learning experience, and my head is slowly coming around. I'm loving the new found interest that I have in my body and what it is telling me. It's amazing how I ignored its cries for help for so long. Just a measly 100g until I can proudly say, "I've lost 10kgs"... to myself anyway (secret bandit)!! But am starting my new exercise plan on Sunday morning... it's pretty simple, and I'm borrowing Michelle Bridges' moniker to get me going: "JFDI". No, not some weird Star Wars themed acronym... It stands for: JUST F#€*NG DO IT !! Really needs to be my theme for life. So, JFDI !

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

2 Weeks today since Surgery & YAY!! on to mushies!!!!!!! :-D

Week 2 now done and dusted and feeling well....bloody fantastic!!! Saw dietician this morning got my info for next 2 weeks and starting tonight I am having mushies!! (mashed potato, pumpkin with an egg mixed through it and I cant bloody wait!!!) And will spend time later tonight going thru this site to checkout everyones favourite mushie recipes !! This past week has been good still a little shoulder tip pain occasionally, and so happy that I can at least sleep on my side at night, incisions are healing well and although still a little sore nothing dramatic. I am walking each day 25-30 minutes around my neighboured so am happy with myself for that, only complaint I have is that I still cant pick my grandkids up, and that is driving me insane!!lol I am also finding writing this blog each Wednesday is a great way for me to document the road to the new me, although I am sure it is a rather boring read to others!! Lol

JoMac

JoMac

 

What No One Told Me About Losing a Tonne of Weight

To celebrate becoming overweight yesterday (obese again today of course. I'll be bouncing around for a while before I become permanently "overweight".) I thought I'd write a new blog. I'll say it straight up for those with more sensitive sensibilities ... this will have a LOT of TMI. If that's not for you, just look at the pictures and move on. For those a little more robust, read on. So ... I knew when I began this adventure that I'd go through a lot of exciting changes. I knew I'd get fitter and stronger and healthier. I knew I'd become smaller and that my shape would change. I knew my skin would get saggy and I'd start to develop wrinkles. I knew people would treat me differently. I knew I'd be able to shop in the 'normal' stores for clothing. I knew I'd eventually only take up one seat on public transport. All these things I expected but there have been things happen to me that were totally unexpected. Some of them pleasant, like being able to cross my legs and paint my own toenails again. My feet shrunk enabling me to buy a wider variety of shoes. (Even so, I tend to wear only two pairs of shoes day in and day out.) Some things were just surprising. Like, I just stopped eating rice, pasta and potatoes and quit soft drink, AND, haven't missed them. I only eat bread when I'm out ... I don't buy it for home. (I buy mountain bread for wraps.) I've developed new food obsessions like dates, prunes, spinach, seafood and ricotta. Plain greek yogurt tastes like delicious sweet cream to me. I get cravings for hot chips. Some of the changes haven't been so welcome however. They range from mildly annoying, like friends avoiding me because they've become the fat friend and don't like it, and a bloke I'd been seeing for a while beginning to see me less and less the smaller I got. Clearly he was only into big girls. I'd expected my boobs to shrink and had been looking forward to being able to buy regular sized bras. No such luck. I went from a 24F to a 16I. It's so far been impossible to find a bra in that size so I'm making do with 16H's. I'd expected my back pain to decrease as I lost weight but no such luck there either. It's actually gotten worse. My theory is it's because my boobs haven't shrunk in proportion to the rest of my body so I'm now carrying around comparatively larger boobs on a smaller frame. Now ... here's a few very unpleasant things no one told me would happen when I lost a massive amount of weight: When I get in the bath now, whilst it's awfully lovely that my hips don't touch the sides, and it's somewhat amusing poking at my floating saggy skin, it's absolutely NOT pleasant that I don't have enough padding on my butt anymore so to sit up in the bath, rather than lay down, is really quite painful on my tailbone.
I sleep in just undies as I find any other clothing too restrictive. Now, because my boobs are so unbelievably saggy, when I roll over I have to physically pick up my boobs and pull them out from under my body. If I keep losing weight I'm sure I'll be able to actually wrap my boobs around my body like a belt. Also, before losing weight, when I put on a bra it was a simple matter of just lifting each boob into place. Now I have to lift each boob into the bra, pull in my side boobs and then FOLD my boobs out from the centre. Ridiculous ! (But at least now I have separation between my boobs instead of that bloody awful squished together cleavage which was really just one more place to accumulate sweat.)
Oh, speaking of separation ... no one told me I'd have to wear 3 bras to the gym. One regular underwire bra, then a pancake sports bra, then a crop top. I do this because if I don't separate these babies (with the underwire) and then squish them (with the pancake sports bra) when I do any kind of cardio my boobs slap together. LOUDLY. It's terribly embarrassing trying to pretend I can't hear that loud slapping noise and pretending to myself that no one else can hear it either ... from 4 suburbs away. Even so, I still get a bit of a swing and bounce going on. At least it's all visual now with no accompanying sound track.
Another saggy skin issue ... I've had to modify my moves in the bedroom to avoid the distracting slapping of my belly against my thighs/the blokes belly and my arms flapping against my sides.
I have a thigh gap. Yay huh ? Well, yes and no. Sure there's a gap at the top of my thighs and it's seriously fantastic that my thighs, for the first time in my life, don't rub together BUT, cause I've lost so much weight the skin on my thighs has drooped. So now instead of my thighs rubbing together, the insides of my knees bump together because that's where the skin has fallen to.
Slowly slowly as I lost more and more weight, my map of Tassie began to reappear. That was nice. What wasn't so nice was noticing that with the combination of visible map of Tassie and thigh gap, I can now see my arse sagging down ... from the front. No one wants to see that.
Whilst we're on the subject of my saggy arse, when I sit on a hard surface ... I don't even know how to describe it ... my butt cheeks fold up ... like, fold in on themselves vertically. It's uncomfortable, sometimes painful, and let's be honest ... a bit creepy.
Finally, speaking of 'cheeks', it brings me to perhaps the most frikking awful and humiliating thing that's happened to me, and thank goodness it only lasted a few months and has now cleared up on it's own as I've lost more weight because I felt like I was going to literally lose my mind over it because it was so disgusting. I think it must have been a temporary transitioning issue. *big sigh*. I began to have problems with my weeing department. Apart from the fact that because I've lost so much fat which means my bladder isn't supported how it used to be (or some mumbo jumbo) I now occasionally have trouble weeing (I have to push it out sometimes and other times can only manage a slow trickle), I went through a period of a few eternally looooong months where ... man, I don't even know how to put this ... I'll just say it straight out ... I lost so much weight that EVERYTHING has become saggy to some degree and my (as my family politely refers to them) vagina cheeks, lost some of their once fullness and temporarily became somewhat saggy to the point where every.single.time I wee'd they interrupted the flow in a way that made me spray urine all over the tops of my inner thighs. I tried sitting different ways, I tried holding my thighs up out of the way of the spray, leaning forward, leaning back ... I was disgusted and extremely upset because I thought it was a permanent problem. Thankfully it cleared up on it's own and I can wee like a normal person once again but for those few months it was so awful.
Despite a few less than desirable changes as I've lost weight I wouldn't change a thing. Well ... I might change that spraying wee over the tops of my thighs thing if it were at all possible, or just have future me tell past me that it was only temporary and not forever. It would have made it infinitely easier to deal with. I've no doubt I still have more surprises in store as I continue my adventure. Hopefully predominantly good surprises. Anyways ... here's some photos I took yesterday to celebrate and commemorate becoming "overweight". As my son would say, "Feels good man."

tishtish

tishtish

 

Band Tightness

After the Nuclear Medicine appts behind me, I was keen to get on with the business of enjoying the new 5mls in my band from days prior. The addition of 1ml at the time didn't seem like much, but as the days went on, the tightness felt almost restrictive and not in a good way as I first thought. I'd recalled reading posts from others about warning signs of over tightened bands/chest discomfort and what can possibily happen if your band is too tight. But like most people, I'd had a smooth ride with my band feeling quite loose since the start, so when I DID feel the firmness, I just assumed the easy ride was over and it was time to buckle down. On Thursday I called the Dr on duty at my Surgeons office who advised me to come in as she felt it was too tight. Lovely lady she was and after more discussion, yep, 0.5ml came out and it was almost like instant relief. The middle of my back pain was gone, chest pain gone and the recurring hiccups after things I drank was gone during the day. Phew... I learned that the band "settles" after a few days of adjustment. Mine had definitely gotten tighter. If anything, I would've thought it would get looser, you know, like a pair of jeans can get after a few wears? lol But nope, it was really restrictive and took me by surprise. I've not PB'ed since having my band put in and I am doing my best not too. But I was close I reckon. I'm glad I called when I did, as who knows how uncomfy I would of been over the weekend had I left it until Monday. Also the blood work from last week showed I am very depleted in Iron (shocker) and I need to have more fish (yuck). I've also been recommended to have almonds and avocados. Time to look into another Iron transfusion, over two years have passed since the last one, and I was told I need 325 mg of elemental fe a day now. Crazy! New week starts tomorrow, back on the roller coaster that is having a lap band

Angel Butterfly

Angel Butterfly

 

Post-Op Update

Well it is now 17 days since the operation. There have been ups and downs but hopefully things will get better. I came out of hospital on Day 4, having been told my hospital stay would be 5-7 days but I was doing so well and taking enough fluids that I could go home. I still had a fair bit of pain on my left side where the major incision was and where there were stiches to reconnect muscles together not just skin. (The surgery was done laparoscopically with six incisions including the drainage hole) This means I have to lay on my right side and be very careful when rolling as I get shooting pain on my left. The fluid diet was in place until the end of week 1, when I was able to start on puréed food. The good thing was that I had lost a stone (about 7-8kg) in weight from my pre-optifast weight by the end of this first week. However after 1 day on puréed food, I was in incredible pain and after a call to the surgeon, hubby rushed me to the emergency of Knox Private. The put me on some morphine to dull the pain and sent me off for a ct scan, unfortunately in trying to get from the trolley bed to the ct scan platform I hurt my left side incision, which even the morphine didn't dull. After the scan I then had to get back onto the trolley bed. The tried to roll me but (obviously not knowing the pain that would cause me). The noise I emitted was loud enough for my husband to come running. I'm sure they heard me in the next suburb! Fortunately hubby was allowed to help and managed to get me up without me rolling and hurting myself more. The outcome of the ct scan was that I had a bowel obstruction at the point where the bypass tube enters the upper intestine. Apparently maximum inflammation occurs between day 7-10 post-op so there was not enough room for puréed food to pass, hence the obstruction. (My comment on this is perhaps it would be advisable for patients to stay on fluids until day 10 rather than day 7!) They admitted me to hospital and put me on fluids and hydrocortisone to relieve the inflammation for 3 days until the obstruction had passed. I came home and found out I had put on half a stone! (From the hydrocortisone I guess). I was also back on fluids for another couple of days. I restarted on puréed foods 3 days after leaving hospital for the second time (day 13 post-op). Since then I have had no problems with food and when I saw the dietician she said I could go onto solids...ie edible food rather they purée mush! Yay. I was very happy. Also eating real food means I can eat some prunes to help with no 2s as I really dislike Actlax that I was taking before. However, not all was good. My left side was healing nicely and was much less painful, until yesterday when the pain came back. I'm not sure why, maybe I have pulled something, maybe I bent over to pick something up. Anyway what it means I am again having to hold my side when I stand up and be very careful what I do. (This is a word of warning to everyone else: be very careful what you do, no lifting anything and be careful about bending over) I have also found my back is a bit sore because I struggle to stand straight and am a bit hunched over because of the pain in my left side. I am now onto Day 17 and am really pleased that I have now lost 1.5 stone (about 11kgs) and more importantly my blood sugar levels are between 4.9 and 7.8 without any medication!

Klara

Klara

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