in 9 months time I will be lap banded. I am so excited. So my consult seemed to go fairly well, I liked Dr Dolan. So did my mum. He seemed fine, he asked me questions and weighed me and got my height, apparently I've grown a cm and put on 3 kgs since I started looking at getting banded.
So I paid for my surgery. It was kind of funny the chick in reception was like, we don't really like you to pay for it today, we like to give you 24 hours to mull it over, I was like I don't need 24 hours. Then she was like well paying for it now won't get you in any sooner, and I said I didn't care. I'd saved it up and I wanted it gone so I didn't have to worry about it. She goes to me, oh you're keen as mustard!! I was like yes I am! I have to say I was extremely deflated when I was told the EARLIEST I could get in was the 3rd of November as I'd been told on the phone September and sort of had my heart set on it, you know. Anyway, atleast it's happening and I can count down to it. I've never wished away time so badly before!! Hopefully this year fly's by! 9 months is quite a wait!
So heres to the 3rd of November and the life changes it brings with it, the good and the bad! Can't wait!
Peace, love & latte's,
well, i am officially a bandit. I wasn't too nervous and everything went well. Woke up in recovery thinking i was having a heart attack but it was just gas pain. I have to admit the sorest part of me for a while there was my lower back, me and hospital beds aren't friends! The only pain i have is wound soreness. I've had a few constrictions in the chest and i burp and it goes away. I never want to do a contrast swallow ever again!! It was SO foul, i dry reached. Of course. One of my nurses was naughty and gave me oral panadol in tablet form twice before i had my swallow, she was new. I said to her are you sure? And shes like yeah, your due some pain relief so i was like okayy... I looked at her and said i was scared and she looked at me blankly and said theres nothing to be scared of!! Thank god they went down perfectly! I was discharged sometime after 11 and have slept alot. Don't like getting up and down, it sucks!
So i'm glad it's over, i can start looking forward to losing my weight!
Anyway i'm feeling abit bleh so i'll leave it here. Good luck to people getting banded tomorrow. You'll be fine!
Peace, love & apple juice,
Well I didn't get a chance to tell my mum yesterday and it's really driving me nuts! I talk to her about everything and not being able to get this off my chest is UGH! Annoying! You are the only ones that know and that brings me some comfort! atleast. The problem is that I can't get her alone. She worked yesterday and everytime it was quiet and I worked up the courage more customers came in. I was like how dare you!! Anyway that's reason number 1, reason number 2 is because we've had a family friend move into our home and so I can't get my mum on her own for long enough!! If I weren't working tonight it would be the perfect chance because our friend is working late so there'd be about an hour and a half but I'm working. Tomorrow night however, I might be in with a chance!!
One good thing is.... I made an appointment with my GP today So on the 25th of Jan, my journey may really start to begin!!
I'm very excited and I've written lists to help convince my doctor if she needs it! I've written a list of diets I've done and how many times I've done them each. 13 years is a long time to diet and especially at my age. I hope to God she gives me a referal, I need this so much. All I can see is the end of the tunnel where I'm healthy and happy and SKINNY - for the first time in my life! I wrote two pages on what losing weight will do for me as a person, and I wrote a mere half a page of what it will mean if I don't lose weight. I don't like that page as it scares me but it's true!
So, I think I have decided to go with the surgeon Kevin Dolan as everyone sings his praises. I haven't yet been able to ask the two friends of mine who've been banded who their surgeon was, but I'd probably use theirs, who may even turn out to be Kevin, who knows!
Anyways, I'm feeling happy that I've taken the plunge and made the appointment to see my GP. May it all get better from here on in!
Well, today is the 3rd day since banding and I have to say it's been okay, not like I expected though. I wasn't nervous before my op but I'm nervous for all the things that can go wrong from here on in!! Port flippage, band slippage, sack stretching OMG!!! Seriously!! I think people who know you've had it done and know someone else who has had it done, get pleasure out of telling you their friend of a friends horror stories!! Haha
So yesterday we drove home from Perth and added an hour onto our trip from the stupid fire blocking the coastal route. I woke up feeling really good, I'd found a best friend in our couch in the hotel. It was the only place I could get comfortable due to my back. I have to say the worst pain I've had is back pain. Lower back pain is not my friend. I'm naturally a side/pookoo sleeper and my back is very disapproving of me sleeping on it! Since the op I've woken at about 12am with an incredibly sore back, so I walk around for abit and then settle on the couch. Panadol doesn't really help it though which sucks.
I don't think the pain of this operation is something that people should be desperately nervous or scared about. I mean there are holes in your stomach and yeah they hurt, but only when you move! I didn't have any shoulder tip pain so I can't comment on that one. I guess the scariest part of it all is the unknown. The whole process is relatively easy though I don't know whether I have a high pain threshold or if it just wasn't that painful but seriously, the worst pain I have had is my back.
I'm looking forward to my mum going shopping today so I can have stuff other than juice in my diet. Yesterday I should mention was quite a horrible day. I started out feeling amazing but after our 5 hour trip I was just wrecked, really, really uncomfortable. But this morning I'm good again.
So I can't wait until the day when I can sleep comfortably on my side and pookoo again! That's all I care about haha is sleeping comfortably!! I love sleeping
Anyhoo, today I'm going to aim for more water because I think last night I was actually a little dehydrated.
Oh and thanks for all the well wishes peeps esp, you Faye
Peace, love & sutures,
Well, it's one week down today since I started Optifast. I've lost 4 kgs and quite a few cms all over. I'm pretty happy with this effort, mind you I believe I could have done sooo much better if I had have exercised more. I only went for 1 walk during this week, only because I've been so tired. I wake up in the morning and I just can't get out of bed, so I go back to sleep.
Not to worry, this week I am going to make more of an effort to hopefully lose abit more. I would be happy with another 4 but that might be being abit optimistic. Seeing as it's my birthday tomorrow and as a treat I'm going to have an ice cream cake with my family and then on Friday I'm going to go to dinner with my friends. One last shot of Gnocchi just incase I can never eat it again!! Yum!!!! I probably won't get to enjoy much of it, but I was thinking I might bring it home and freeze it and then blend it up when I'm into the Mushies!!! We'll see!
So life has been even more hectic, I have no just secured a 3rd job. I'll be looking after a little boy 3 days a week, then my job at the day care centre plus my job at video ezy AND tafe. So I'm going to be a busy girl, I hope I can fit it all in and still have a life. I've pretty much kissed the idea of getting a boyfriend goodbye. With all my committments I don't think I'll have time for one! A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.
I'm turning 25 tomorrow and I'm quite sad about it. 2 years until my school 10 year reunion. 5 years until I'm 30! ARRRGGGHHHH!!! Scary!! Haha!!
So now that my surgery is a week away, I'm starting to get nervous. It's happening. I need to embrace the new life that I will have.
Anyway thats enough from me now,
Well, as of today the 25th of January could not come quicker!! I can't wait to see my doctor and get this ball rolling. I spoke to my friend who has had awesome success with her lap banding (Starting weight 150kgs, Current weight 94kgs!!) I think she got it done last year or late the year before. I wish I could remember but I had alot on my plate at the time.
Anyway she answered some of my questions and helped me alot. She really encouraged me. I have since told ONE person about my lap banding and that's a friend and fellow "big girl" that I work with. I just couldn't keep it to myself anymore, I don't know if I trust her 100% to not tell anyone but meh, if people want to judge let them, I'll be the one with the last laugh!
I am in this for the long haul, I have been inspired so much by people around me and people in the forums, I am going to do everything I can to lose this weight and be a healthy person. I love weight training but hate walking nowhere on treadmills, so I think once I'm "done" I'll join a gym for weight training to keep toned up. My arms are a problem though, I bulk up so easily! Last time I did weight training some guys even commented on my arms, so other than swimming and keeping them hopefully "bingo wing free" I'm not going to work on them as much in fear that I will get huge biceps and look like one of those man-ladies who do body building (eww).
I have been obsessing over lap banding and everything that goes with it, by obsessing I mean thinking about pretty constantly and I was thinking about clothes. I have clothes ranging from size 16-24 and I'm worried that I'll be needing to buy new clothes all the time, which I sooooo cannot afford! I suppose I could go to OP shops and the like. I gave away a heap of my clothes to my friend that I mentioned above when she had lost some weight, so maybe she'll return the favour hehe Oh and my sister steals all my clothes so now I will be able to steal hers! HAHA She said it's my turn to be the skinny one now that she is getting chunky! I will LOVE that more than she will ever know. She's always called me " fatty" to hurt me and it did always hurt me. I won't do the same but I will relish the fact that I will be skinnier than her!!
Anyhoooo been rambling abit today. I'm living alone at the moment and I'm a chatter box who doesn't like talking on the phone so this blog is copping the brunt of me not having anyone to talk to!!
I can't wait to lose my "back boobs" and my "verandah"
I'm telling my mum today!!!!
6 days until GP!!