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Here i go again...

All was going very well with my band. I had lost 41kg. I had thrown out most of my fat clothes. I was feeling fantastic. Pretty close to the green zone. Tuesday 13 August 2013 - I've got the flu. Coughing and spluttering and feeling like crap. Keep coughing up flem. Yuck... Thursday 15 August 2013 - 3 days of cold and flu capsules and I'm not feeling any better. My throat feels really puffy and swollen. Looking forward to having Friday off to attend a friends wedding. Got my outfit all sorted. I'm looking pretty good too. I'm down to 107.6kg. I’ll just dose up on cold and flu capsules. Friday 16 August 2013 - I've been up almost all night. I couldn't sleep laying down because I'd throw up. Ended up on the couch, trying to sleep upright, but from 12pm onwards if I drank any water, even a sip, I would fall asleep and wake up shortly after throwing the water straight back up. Not able to keep any fluid down all night. Feeling pretty lousy. Once my surgeon opened I rang up and got an appointment straight away. I need some fill taken out. ASAP. Went in and saw Dr Treacy. He attempted to remove some fluid from my band. No luck after numerous tries, in different positions, with different size needles. He thinks I may have a kink in my port line. He even puts a little more fluid in the band, hoping it may unkink it and then he can suck some fluid back out. It doesn't work. At this stage I've only keep down a few tiny tiny sips of water since last night. I go and get an xray, so he can see where the kink is in the port. The xray shows a kink up close to the port, so Dr Treacy says he'll give me a local anaesthetic, a small quick cut and unkink the port line. All good. Wheeled into the theatre, surgeon ready to go. Local anaesthetic given. Now comes the quick cut. He seems to be having trouble sorting out the kink. He says he can’t see the kink where the xray showed it would be, so he’ll open the cut a little more and search a bit further along the tube. Ok. Can’t feel anything. Just looking forward to a drink. Hurry up and finish. He gives more local anaesthetic, apologizing for not being able to find the kink. This is taking a while now. More tugging, pushing and pulling. Dr Treacy is getting pretty rough now. I can feel pulling and pushing and starting to be in pain. This is hell. Feels like he’s trying to rip my intestines out. Bad pain. I’m swearing at him. Surgery stops. They clean me my and I’m wheeled out into recovery. I don’t think he stitched me. Feeling pretty crappy now. I get more pain relief through the drip and normal saline drip to rehydrate me. A few minutes later I’m feeling good. Ok, get to this wedding. Dr Treacy comes and informs me that he was not able to find the kink. It was not where the xray said and after lots of looking he is concerned. I’m feeling really good (must have been the drugs) and am like, yep, that’s cool. When can I go home? I’ve got a wedding to go to. He’s says no, you have to have a general anaesthetic. We’ve got to fix this. It will all be covered by the original cost as it is a compilation, so no out for pocket for me. Cool, I don’t really care. He informs me that I am in serious danger. I NEED to have major surgery today. I’m crying and a bit of a mess. The wedding is for the daughter of a really good friend’s daughter who I have known since birth and I HAVE to be there. I ring my husband who knew I was going in for a fill and tell him the local procedure didn’t work. He’s like, do you want me to come and get you. I’m like yes, I have to go to the wedding, even if I’m in a wheelchair, doped up, I can’t miss it. Apparently I need surgery, but I can’t miss this wedding. He’d ready to come and get me. Dr Treacy comes back, someone must have overheard my conversation. I’m informed that I’m going in for surgery NOW. I will miss the wedding. I’m a blubbering mess. I’m wheeled back to the operating theatre. Going under, I’m devastated. I wake up in recovery. Lots of cool drugs. I feel great, just a little discomfort around my stomach. Sometime later when I’m fully conscious and in my own room, Dr Treacy comes to see me. He explains that the problem with my kinked port line was a complication that he had never even heard of. Scar tissue had grown over my port line, kinking it completely, so that no fluid could get through. He found a kink, unkinked it and then tested to see if he could get any fluid into the port. Nothing. He searched further down the port line and at the very bottom where it connects to the band, he found another section of scar tissue completely kinking the port line. He decided that the band must be faulty and removes the entire thing and replaces it with a new one. Luckily, he didn’t have to restitch my stomach at all and was able to thread the new band straight through the hole from the old band. OK, all fixed. I ask how long I’ll need off work and am told 2 weeks. I don’t really understand why I need that long and want to get back to work on Monday. No, major surgery requires major rest. The recovery will be faster than the original surgery but I have had major surgery. Man these drugs are good. Tell my boss, who just knew I was having the day off to go to a wedding. Sorry, major surgery today. A surprise for everyone involved. I’m home 2 days later. All good. I have 4 incisions like the original surgery, but this time my stomach is deep purple with bruising and fairly tender. The realisation of what has happened has still not really hit me. It is only a few days later when I’m speaking to my mum that I realised what a bad situation I was in. Holy crap. It takes about a month for the bruising to go away. But I feel fine and am back at work 2 weeks later like Dr Treacy said. Dr Treacy was fantastic the entire way throughout my experience. He tried his absolute best to fix my band, doing everything he knew how. He was an absolute professional, so much so that I never fully understood the danger I was in because he and all the staff stayed so calm! In the end I was just a one in a million. Damn it! I can’t thank Dr Treacy enough for the way he looked after me. And I told him so, first follow up after the surgery. So because I have a new band, and with all the swelling, there is no fluid in the band and I have to start from scratch to get to the green zone. Once I’m recovered from surgery and back on solids, I have a huge appetite compared to what I had. I eat copious amounts of food. My weight creeps higher. Not creeps, just steps. Leaps. I get regular fills but Dr Treacy is careful to make sure I don’t get over full. By Christmas I’ve put on 20kgs. By February I’ve gained 28kg. I feel terrible. None of my clothes fit, except the few fat clothes that I kept. I have to go shopping for a new fat wardrobe. Very depressing. 28 April 2014 – We have a new staff member at work. A really big girl who wear baggy clothes. She mentions that she has lost 38kgs. I ask how, lap band, Dr Treacy. I realise how far I’ve fallen in the past few months and come on Banding Together. I actually remembered my password. And now here I am. I’m getting another fill next week, hoping to get to the green zone. I suppose some people might think that I’ve wasted the last 2 ½ years weight loss wise. I’ve lost more 41kg and put 28kgs back on. I’m a failure as a bandit. But I would still do it all again in a heartbeat. I don’t ever regret getting my band. I just have to get back on board, get back to following the golden rules of banding and remember, that I’ve done it once, so I can do it all again. Loose this weight and get even healthier than I was before. Even get to my surgeons goal weight of 99kg. So here I go….
 

Binging , stuck and purging, Catch 22....

I have been banded for almost 14 months now. I have lost 40kg all up but put a couple back on in the past few weeks due to stress. My last fill was in April, which was a bit tight but I did ok. The first couple off weeks after that fill I had to start sleeping o my side and not eating anything late at night or I would get night reflux. But I figured I could live with the tightness as it really controlled my eating. The last month or so I have been really struggling. Overeating, getting stuck and then having to vomit to clear the blockage. I would overeat knowing that I could then vomit and go to bed with any empty stomach. The reflux was starting to get worse and I have taken to sleeping on the couch to stop the night time reflux. But then 2 weeks ago it got worse. I had a bad day food wise and stuck/vomit wise and had to sleep on the couch. I was waking every 30 to 40 minutes and vomiting up my saliva. Nothing would stay down. So in the end I just waited until the morning, and then the vomiting/reflux stopped. I had a huge sports drink and got a few hours sleep. Saturday night was a bit better but not great. So I arranged to get some fill taken out on Tuesday. When I lay down on the table in the surgery, I couldn’t lay for very long because the saliva was backing up. The dr took out ¾ ml and said that it should take a week or so to settle down. So, then to celebrate??? I started eating more and now am back to where I was 2 weeks ago. I am overeating, then purging and now my throat feels swollen and I know I won’t get much sleep tonight either. I started off today on just liquids hoping to fix the issue but caved into food when I got home from work. I need people’s suggestions as to what I should do. I have been super stressed which is why I am over eating, but I seem stuck in a rut at the moment. Do I go back onto fluids only for a few days and hope the swelling goes down or should I go see the dr and get more fill taken out, knowing that I will probably start eating even more and then start putting weight on? Any ideas and all honesty appreciated. Thanks

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

Too tight or just right???

I had another fill last Monday so am now at 10.25ml in my band. The previous 2 months I hadn't been able to get into get a fill and had stopped losing weight. Since my latest fill I am a lot more restricted in what I can eat. I PB’d after lunch for the first 4 days but I think I have adjusted now to how much I can eat. I do get a bit of reflux at night though, but have found that if I don’t eat after dinner time, that I have almost none. I am losing lots of weight so will wait another week or so to see how it goes and if I need to get some fill taken out. It’s sort of annoying not being able to eat very much. Only about 2 tablespoons per meal but my weight is finally moving down so I am sort of tempted to put up with it for now. It’s nice to see the scales finally moving down again.

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

New clothes again...

Well, at my place I have this great big plastic tub full of clothes. They range in size and many have been given to me by friends who have previously lost a lot of weight. Their old fat clothes. When I was given them, I was waaaaaay to big to even bother trying them on. Since I’ve lost 24kgs, I’m finding that a lot of my clothes are too loose, so on Monday night, I pulled out the tub (well 2 actually) and tried on the clothes. Some still have labels on them from when I bought them in previous weight loss attempts and many I never ever even tried on. Well, I tried on every single item and found to my delight that most of my friends old fat clothes now fit me. As a result I now have about another 5 or 6 pairs of shorts and pants. The shorts that I wore at my heaviest, and could only just fit, were put away a long time ago. Now I’m ready to get rid of some of my other clothes that have also gotten too big for me. For the first time in my life, my clothes are getting too big for me instead of the other way around. Prior to banding, all my clothes had elasticised waist bands to allow for maximum stretch. So today, I’m wearing a pair of pants that are actually a bit loose but I’m finding this a problem. Because they don’t have an elasticised waist band and they don’t stretch more and more as the day progresses. So they actually feel tight after sitting down all morning. The upside is that my band feels tighter, so I’m in turn eating less. So I’m pretty happy that I can now wear clothes without elastic in the waist band. Another minor victory but one that feels pretty cool. I’ve washed all the clothes that only just fit, so that as I loose more weight, I’ll have progressively more things to wear. Hubby watched me try on all those different clothes on Monday and I can tell he is really chuffed by how well I am doing. He has started to compliment me more and I’m really enjoying this! I know I'm rambling, but it great to be feeling more confident.

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

6 months Bandiversary

Was just playing with an app on my phone and realised that today is my 6 months bandiversary. Wow that went quick!! So what have I achieved in 6 months?? I’ve lost 24kgs, dropped 2 knicker sizes.
I can now fit into heaps of clothes that didn’t use to fit me. I’ve had to stop wearing a couple of pairs of pants because they are too baggy, and after looking in the mirror at the end of the day, realised that some of my baggy tops also have to go now. I’m quite enjoying that they are feeling loose on, but they are actually too big and really look it.
Having to wear a belt cos my pants keep falling down.
I STOPPED SNORING!!
I can now go up and down the 2 flights of stairs at work without losing my breathe.
My daughters think I look skinny, (all 125kgs of me!!).
I feel more energised basically because I’m not carrying around another 24kg and I'm sleeping better at night.
All the clothes that I have grown out of during the last decade are starting to fit again. Some are a tad out of style, but I currently have about 10 bras to wear instead of the old one or two, cos my boobies have shrunk! A good thing!
I feel happy most of the time opposed to hardly ever.
My new implanon isn’t working properly because4 I’ve lost too much weight!!!! I’ve had lots of spotting. I’ll give it another month and then go back to the pill.
I now experience food going off in my fridge. Prebanding, I would have eaten ALL the leftovers myself.
I’m more aware of what I put in my mouth. My food intake has dropped to ¼ of what I used to eat.
I can have food in the pantry and I actually forget it’s there because I’m not constantly looking for something to eat.
People say things like â€Are you shrinking?†or “Wow, you look really good!†I haven’t heard that in years.
I caught a plane last week and didn’t need a seat belt extender!!!! My next goal is to get the tray table the whole way down without it sitting on my belly.
My husband finally believes that I CAN loose weight, after watching me try every diet known to man over the past 18 years. And is very proud of me.
I’m more confident now and will do what I want, not what I imagine other people might think it is appropriate for a fat chick to do.
I walk faster, so my kids have to tell me to slow down.
So would I do it again?? In a heartbeat!! The journey hasn’t been as easy as I thought it might be. To quote another bandit. “Being overweight is hard and loosing weight is hard. Choose your hard.†I choose to loose weight. Thanks for everyone’s support and for your words of wisdom. I’m really looking forward to where I will be in another 6 months. 100kg here I come!

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

NSV!!!!

Last night as we were going to bed, my husband turned to me and told me that I no longer snore. Apparently I snort ?!?!?!!? like the snort in the kids book “Are you my Mother?†but I’m' not snoring anymore. I must admit I have been feeling more energetic the last few days and was wondering why. Well, now I know it's because I'm sleeping better. Now I just have to wait for the snorting to go away.....

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

Soooo nervous!

Tomorrow morning I fly to Alice for the weekend. I will be staying with my mother-in-law. She knows all about my band and actually lent me the $3000 to pay for it. I'm so very very scared she will be disappointed with what she sees. In fact I’ve been so stressed that I’ve been eating badly all week. Thanks to the band, I haven’t put on any weight. But arrgghhh!!!! She always speaks her mind. And is never polite. Just so nervous.

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

I LOVE Sushi

I really love sushi. Prior to banding, I could eat 5 or 6 plates of sushi for a meal and only stopped because my stack of plates was getting so high and I thought people might stare at me. For lunch today I had one prawn and avocado roll. And it took me 20mins to eat. I love my band!!!!

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

Finally loosing weight again!!!

I've been on holidays for 2 weeks and when we got home, our computer wouldn't work so couldn't update you all. Finally sorted that beast out! A week before we went away, I had my second fill, up to 8ml in my band. I found that I could no longer eat bread and had enough restriction to eat more like a bandit. Then we went away. I had heard that your band could get tight after flying. So to prepare for the first flight I didn’t eat anything, just in case I reacted badly. All went well except on landing when I had a little involuntary regurgitation. I had been sucking on butterscotch lollies, so luckily it didn’t taste gross. Just weird. After the flight, my band felt tighter so I was extra careful about what I ate and found that I could only eat small amounts. Like a real bandit!! My band stayed fairly tight for almost the whole time we were away. Then return flight, it got tighter. So back to eating super small potions. When I got home I jumped on the scales and discover that I had lost 3kgs in 2 weeks. OVER THE MOON!! Prior to this I hadn’t lost much weight at all in the weeks following surgery. I went and saw my surgeon on Monday and he was very happy with my loss. But he seems pretty gun ho (which I like!!) and suggested another 1ml fill. I talked him up to 1.5ml, totalling 9.5ml in my band. It took him 2 goes to get my port, which normally he gets first go, but all went well. So now I am back to feeling the satiety I did following my first flight, which is fairly similar to how I felt post surgery. I can only eat 1 cup absolute max. I love it!! I’m really looking forward to seeing the scales go down further!! So just when I was starting t get really frustrated with my band and ffeling like it hadn’t really made a difference, I AM LOVING MY BAND!!

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

The new love of my life....

I have been banded for 8 weeks now. I got my second fill on Monday. Prior to this fill I could eat anything as long as I chewed really well. But it still took a lot to fill me up. Not as much as it used to, but still too much. I haven’t lost any weight since my surgery! Arggggghhh… I was starting to feel a bit annoyed with my band and wondering how long it would take to get some results. Well, now I have 8mls in my band. I am the first to admit that I am not making fantastic food choices yet, but I am really feeling satiety now and LOVING it. Today I have eaten – Morning tea - 85 g chocolate (damn that fundraising chocolate!!!), steamed dim sim Lunch – a small serving of steamed vegies with Chinese noodles. Afternoon tea - bite size mini mars bar and a lolly pop while putting together party bags for my daughter’s birthday. Just now, 5 Brazil nuts. I feel comfortably full (must be satiety) and think I will most likely not eat anything else tonight. Even though my food choices have been really, really bad today, I feel full and I am under 1200 calories for the day. Imagaine what I can do on a good day!! If this keeps up I’ll be dropping weight in no time. So now that it is working, I LOVE MY BAND!!!

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

1 month post op

Well, I've made it to one month post op. The time has gone so fast and I can't believe that only a month ago I was in recovery, in pain, feeling hot and wanting to rip my clothes off in the post anaesthetic haze. Thankfully, the nurses wouldn’t let me!!!! Now I’m feeling good. Had my 4 week appointment on Thursday and my surgeon was so impressed with my recovery that he gave me 5ml fill. I had been feeling a bit down because I wasn’t loosing any weight and was battling to not regain it. Dr Treacy was wonderful. He said that the stage I’m at is the most frustrating because I don’t have much restriction yet. And that it is normal to not be loosing weight at the moment. He said it normally takes between 7 and 9mls to hit the green zone and doesn’t like to muck around, so fills you up pretty quick so that you can keep loosing weight again. Yay!!! He totally understood where I was at. Since the fill, I have felt more restriction and definitely need to chew chew chew everything otherwise it gets stuck. If it gets stuck, I can normally wash the stuck bit away, but in the meantime it really hurts. So as long as I chew properly I am ok. I have focused today on eating really healthy and have done well except when I got home from work I had a handful of jelly snakes. The upside is that I have been thirsty since but as soon as I drink I am full again, so haven’t eaten any dinner. My plan for tomorrow is to eat healthy ALL day. My two kids have noticed that I have lost weight and a few people I know who don’t know about the band have said that I’m looking really well at the moment. I haven’t told many people, unless I know they will be supportive. So far, so good. Looking forward to the scales moving downwards again. I have a wedding to go to in mid November and am really hoping that I can get to 125kg by then. I don’t know if it is achievable or not, so I’ll see how I go. As long as my weight has moved downwards I’ll be happy. Thanks once again for everyone’s support on the forum. The forum really helps.

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

7 days post op.

And feeling fantastic. The first couple of days were a bit rough. But as I’m healing up I feel heaps better. I can now sleep on on\\my side again, which is the only way I sleep for long and I’m looking forward to being able to sleep on my LHS some time soon. I had 2 really rough nights after having some super runny yogurt during the day. The gas pains where horrific!! I've always been a bit lactose intolerant and it seems the band is even more intolerant. Needless to say, no more yoghurt for a fair while. The last two mornings I have woken up feeling rested and like I could go back to work. I’m not, as I’ve got the full 2 weeks off, but it is great to feel so good already. I’m down 14kg and love it. My clothes have gone from almost bursting off me, to feeling quite comfortable. I’m looking forward to fitting into a few of my smaller clothes as I loose weight. I know I stop snoring at about 124kg so think this is my next major goal. Not that I’m really even making any, not like normal. Normally I work out ½ kilo weight loss and give myself dates and everything and get super sad when I don’t reach then\m. This time, I’m just playing it by ear, and enjoying any downwards movement on the scales. Thanks to everyone on the board, you’ve made my journey a lot easier already. Thanks

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

Major wake up call

I am very lucky and have not yet suffered from any weight related health problems. And with a BMI of 49, apart from being extremely unfit, I have been healthy but I know that soon the problems will start to kick in. When my husband came home last night, he mentioned that an acquaintance of ours had been ill. This person is similar in size to me and often ill with weight related problems so this was no surprise. His "illness�?? 2 minor heart attacks!! Holy crap!! And he is a year YOUNGER that me!!! After having a crappy evening with food, and feeling sorry for myself, this was just the news I needed to spur me on to stick with the pre op diet and ensure that I will never be in that situation. Ever. I now have exactly 2 weeks until my op and I am nervous but also extremely excited for the new life it will give me. I know it will be hard work, but soooo worth it, when I can finally stop snoring, and run around with my children. I only have 14 days to go. I can do this and I must do this. It is not an option. So here I go

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

Carb intollerant

I’ve been thinking for a while now, that I must be carb intolerant because if I have carbs for breakfast, I always get super sleepy mid morning. Since being on Kicstart and having shakes for breakfast, I have not had the mid morning tiredness. Last night we had people over for tea and I made cannelloni. It is super yum and one of my favourite meals. I started off well, eating heaps of salad and just having one tube of cannelloni but ended up eating way too much of it around bedtime. And guess what, mid morning tiredness it back with a vengeance today. I can hardly keep my eyes open at work. And I just want to eat, eat, and eat. I’m being strong so far but can’t believe how super tired I am. I keep nodding off sitting in front of the computer. So I’ll go for a walk to the loo to try and wake up, and then have an extra shake when I get back and hopefully then I won’t embarrass myself by falling asleep at work!!

princess_mercedes

princess_mercedes

 

The start

Hi everyone. I am now on day 8 of my pre op diet and not finding it too bad. A bit nervous about whether I am loosing enough weight or not, so will go to the dietician this afternoon and weigh myself on his super cool scales. I’ve not done a blog before so will probably use it to record my thoughts and feelings as a record for myself. If you, the reader happen to get anything out of it, then that is an added bonus. Only 21 days until surgery now and am actually looking forward to starting the next phase of my life. I thought I'd better add my stats somewhere to remind me how well I am going. 14/07/2011 - Started pre op diet - 148.8kg 17/08/2011 - SURGERY DAY - Dr Treacy - 138.8kg 24/08/2011 - 134.7kg

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