Well, I am sitting here a full 4 days after becoming an official bandit, and I still can't believe its true. The whole process for me was amazingly fast...from gp consult for referral to op was only between 3 and 4 weeks.
My partner had taken our daughter to his parents farm for a few days for me to have full recovery time (without an 18 month old climbing up constantly lol) and I was starting to feel a bit sorry for myself, maybe it was the loneliness or the recovery process itself??
But today my girl came home... and I was just astounded at the way in which she made me forget all my troubles (the pain, the thought of a 4 week liquid diet etc lol) and for the first time in 4 days I laughed and smiled the way I had before the op.
Now our children love us unconditionally, well I hope they do but I just can't wait for the day when I can give my little girl a better life by being the fun playful mum she deserves, and not the "sideline" mum who has no energy and has to miss out on the fun stuff.
I am certainly ready for what I know is going to be an emotional rollercoaster. And I know at the end of it, when I can dance to a whole wiggles dvd without collapsing on the couch, that it will have all been worth it.
well...at the start of this journey the idea of a 4 week liquid diet felt like it would drag on forever and here I am about to head into my 4th week already!! All in all it has been easier than I thought, and I think that is purely because of my lack of hunger and general disinterst in food, perhaps in a weeks time when I know I can partake in some mashed vegies (never craved vegetables in my life but starting to salivate at the thought of them writing this ) it will all come back to me....
I have lost about 7.2 kgs so far, which sounds pretty good but I got a bit disheartened due to the fact that 6 of those kg's were lost in the first week.
I have been doing alot of thinking lately and I have created a plan of attack on how I want to live my banded life. My main objective, after hearing lots of stories on people who use the band in the wrong way, is to allow the band to help me change my thinking and my mindset towards food. Working towards changing the way I eat not just physically restricting the amount I eat.
That is my mission.....and I choose to accept it lol