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Back to the Doctor, back to the gym

Hi All, Just keeping up appearances (for myself more than anyone else). Yesterday I finally went back to my band GP for a fill. Whilst  have (generally) been doing well on Optifast again, after a bad week last week, I realise that when I am "bad", I am eating way too much for somebody with a band, as well as getting those hunger pangs between meals. So I bit the bullet and decided I need to be utilising my resources like I did in the beginning of my journey, and start seeing my band doctor regularly again for accountability. He put in about 0.75ml - to make an even 6ml. I didnt look at my weight as I only weigh once a month now and it's not weigh day! But I WILL be going back in a month's time to show him the progress I have made, and perhaps get another half a mil put in. Gym-wise - I took a naked selfie (from the back) after the gym the other day and realised I should be focussing more on my weight training than cardio - particularly on toning those areas that bother me. My stomach bothers me and I know I need to build my core strength with planks etc to help reduce that, but for now my focus is on my back! I genuinely HATE those rolls under the bra strap. In my limited 45minute gym time each day, I'm now focussing on the leg press (squats for my bum and lower back muscles), kettlebell deadlifts (lower back muscles), and lat pulldowns/support row machine (for my upper/side back muscles). If I focus for now on those areas that both me the most and see results in a few weeks (months), I can then move on to other problem areas such as my stomach and inner thighs. Has anybody  ever used a waist trainer and had any joy with it? I'm tempted to try it to train in but feel like it might just bee another money-making weight loss gimmick that you dont actually need. Might provide some back support though if I am to focus on those exercises.....
 

Starting Over

Hi All,  I haven't actually logged onto this site for god knows how long. Years. Once upon a time...I was 112kg at my heaviest. Size 18..almost 20 if I'm 100% honest. It was 12months after my first child was born, and I was heavier than when I was pregnant with him! I underwent the gastric banding in Nov 2012. I stuck to the rules, ate the right foods, in the right portions, and did the right exercise. I managed to shed 37kg over the next 18months, to my lowest ever weight of 75kg (size 12), and I couldn't have been happier. I couldn't seem to get under that to reach my goal weight of 65kg but I was happy anyway. Unfortunately when I went back to fulltime work, an admin role, the weight started to creep back up. Juggling working fulltime as a FIFO mum was exhausting and I was become much less active. Sitting at a desk all day, indulging in the staff birthday cakes or treat lunches. I became complacent and put on about 10kg the first year I was there. Fast forward to Oct 2016 - I gave birth to my second child, and began a year-long battle with severe post-natal depression. Unfortuntely this resulted in the breakdown of my marriage as well, another reason for me to comfort-eat and not wanting to get out of bed. Between my depressive symptoms, having fill taken out (and not put back in) for my pregnancy, and various medications I was on, I piled the weight back on and I've found myself more or less back where I started. It's been a really rough 12 months. My youngest is now 18months old. Unfortunately I am separated (although not giving up hope), and I'm learning how to put myself first for a change. I joined a gym close to work late last year, and I go (amlmost) every lunchbreak for an hour during the week.
I joined ParkRun - a 5km run (or walk) every Saturday morning, and I want to start learning how to run! My goal is to just beat my time every week, even if it's only by a minute.
I applied and enrolled into university, something I never got to do after highschool, and come July, I will be starting a bachelor degree in Psychology. I'm so excited about this and see it as an investment in my future.
I also am considering moving back to my home-state (WA) to be with my family again, after 7 years of living in Adelaide with my husband. I am hoping we will work things out and he'll come with me, but I'm preparing to go on my own (with the kids) if he won't. All of the above sounds like a lot to handle at once but I'm determined to make it happen. It's going to be the year of ME, and I'm trying to find myself again. I'm following my heart, feeding my mind and trying my hardest to regain my fitness. I'm starting over today on Optifast, 3x a day for 12 weeks for that kickstart I so desperately need. I'm also planning to make an appointment and reconnect with my banding doctor, have a bit more fill put in and work with him to lose the weight again. Most importantly, I've rejoined this community to find the support and encouragement I've been missing he last few years as I struggled to control my weight on my own. This is Day 1....107kg, size 18

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Over 50% lost, a bit excited

Well im just writing this on my phone in bed so i'll make it short and sweet. - im past the 50% mark - my wedding plans are well underway, even have my dress picked and ordered. - ive lost 10kg since the doc saw me last so he was very pleased at my appointment. - after about a month hovering near 85kg, im down to 82kg. - i'm attributing that so being very unwell with infected wisdom teeth mixed with tonsilitis. When you live of liquids, antibiotics and painkilkers, i guess you're bound to lose weight. - i met my goal of losing the 6kg i wanted gone before Easter - if I can get those 2kg off I will be on the home stretch with 20kg to go (i wanted to lose 48kg in total). - 4 more and I'll have lost 30kg!!

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Lifestyle Changes

So I'm just sitting here with a hot cuppa. I've just taken my toddler to swimming lessons and he is now conked out in bed. Last night I went to Zumba, and the last 3 mornings I have been working out with some weights and doing my best on the exercise bike I had been neglecting. My muscles are sore. My hair is wet. But I feel amazing. I'm sitting here thinking about the changes I have made in my life over the last 3/4 months. I finally got serious about my weightloss and lifestyle changes at the beginning of October when I got back from a family holiday in Brisbane. It was fun going to White Water World at 108kg, but let's face it, it would have been MUCH more fun for me if I was 60kg...or even the 88kg I am currently. Since I returned, I knew that my surgery was approaching and I had to make some changes. So here are the ways in which I have changed, that I can think of.............. Diet: - obviously my portions are much smaller than i used to eat. and i don't snack between meals anymore. - I dont eat carbs (usually) after 1pm. Pasta and rice, once staples of my diet, are now rare treats. - I cut any fat off meat before eating it. I no longer eat the skin off a roast chicken. - I stick to fish, chicken tenderloins, turkey and kangaroo. Occasional steak (half the portion obviously). I have completely gone off sausages, pork chops and other meats that look and taste fatty. - We don't have takeaway. Like ever. The only "takeaway" that I still crave on occasion is pizza, and I make it myself with fresh vegies, we never buy it. - I actually ENJOY coming up with new salad combinations and experimenting with vegetable recipes. - I use Natvia/stevia in my tea/coffee only. Skim milk only. - Always try to buy the "lite" or 99% fat free version. Or try to swap, e.g. evaporated milk instead of cream. - I don't drink juice (very often) or soft drink anymore. - We don't have dessert after dinner (unless we have friends over for tea. We dont buy icecream, pudding, anything. Dessert for me now is a cuppa and a sugarfree biccie. Or a Zuper Dooper on a really hot night. - I can say NO. I can say no when offered soft drink at my inlaws. No to cream on my dessert when we were entertaining last week. NO to free tastings at the shops. NO to tasting a cake pop my SIL made (her first try). - I've stopped baking. I love making cakes, slices, desserts...but they were just too much temptation and I had nobody to give them to, so it was just easier to stop. Lifestyle: - I no longer circle the carpark looking for one closest to the door. I am happy to walk a bit further. - I was walking once, sometimes twice daily (I'm currently giving my exercise bike some love every day instead). - I began doing Zumba once a week and i LOVE it. Would really like to do it twice a week if I can find a babysitter for Monday nights. - I just bought a dumbbell set and every morning/midday I am doing exercises to help tone my arms and build muscle. - I weigh myself. I have avoided the scales for SO long because I was afraid of the number. Now I am excited to see how much I weigh, or how much I have lost anyway. I see now how important it is to weigh yourself, look in the mirror, take pictures of yourself to monitor your weight. when you avoid these things, you never realise how big you have actually become and it gets out of control! - I've put my toddler back in swimming lessons (weather was warmer for him) its good exercise for me too! - My sex life has improved. Not that it wasnt great before (I am still 22 after all) but I am feeling much more confident and healthy? I guess. Not sure how else to describe that. - My fiance has started eating healthier and going to the gym at work. He is slimming down a bit too and trying to (keep up) I am so proud of him, not for keeping up but for realising that he too could use the exercise to stay healthy. - I'm looking forward to buying new clothes. In particular, DRESSES. I am getting really excited to go and try on wedding dresses. I dont think my legs are THAT bad anymore and I would like to start wearing shorts and dresses. - I actually want to take more care of my appearance, in ways I havent tried before. They include having a professional body massage, get a bikini wax, have my eyebrows shaped, and getting a spray tan. 3 out of 4 require some clothing removal. - I'm no longer so shy in the changeroom at the pool. I cant be bothered hiding beneath my towel, struggling to get changed so nobody can see. Today I just walked in, whipped off my clothes, quickly dried and dressed, turned around so I couldnt see if anybody was looking. And it only took me 10mins instead of my usual 30! I'm sure there are other things that I cant think of right now.

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Stuck on Plateau/Clothes

Hello people. I'm stuck on 90kg. Plateaued. BUT, I'm pretty sure I know why. - havent been on my daily walks - have been skipping meals or not eating the right thing. And by that I mean for dinner last night instead of my usual salad and chicken tenderloin I had two small sausages. Today I have only had a coffee and two sushi handrolls. And not two in one sitting, I had one for lunch and having one now lol. So when my hubby gets home Wednesday, I'm going back to walking in the morning, (i know i always say that), and going back to more salad. Im not eating junk, just have stopped eating the salads/vegies i was before. BUT, even thought the scales arent moving I had to do something to lift my spirits, so I went to BIG W and had a look through their pathetically small clothing range. I grabbed a pair of the $9 Emerson jeans i always wear, in a size 14....yes, not the 16 that I'm currently wearing. I then went to the bras and found a pretty one in a 16C (not the 18/20C I was the last time I bought a bra). THEY FITTTTT!!! I didnt buy them, I had no money lol, but I just wanted to see for next time. So I've gone from the size 18 Emerson jeans to the 14 (even if my fat does look worse spilled over the side), and gone down in bra size as well. I'm thankful for that. Next time I buy bras I will be happy to look for the 16. Its great to see a loss on the scale but nothing compares to being able to go to the shops and find something that fits (that you WANT to wear) in a smaller size. I still can't wait for the day when I can buy a size 12 top. My top has always been bigger than my bottom so my goal is to be wearing size 12 tops. Until then, I can smile a bit more today.

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2nd Fill - 8 weeks on

8 weeks banded Highest Weight: 108kg Current Weight: 90.5kg Current Fill: 6ml in 10ml band Total Loss: 18.3kg Highest BMI: 44.5 Current BMI: 36 Clothing Size: 16-18 and getting loose! Hello! So I had my second fill today. Dr Sabine was very happy with my progress, having lost 10kg since my surgery day (in 7.5 weeks) and 18kg altogether. Since I have done well and didnt really feel like i needed one, he only put in 1ml. I've only sipped on water and up'n'go so far, but so far, so good. I'm really hoping that this will be my "sweet spot" since I felt great and not hungry before, but felt I was able to eat a little too quickly. I don't WANT a stuck or PB moment, but I feel like if it happens, it might help make me remember to slow down, and also to not let my portions size increase any, i think they have slowly been creeping up, even if it is just salad. I couldn't be happier with my progress at the moment and I finally feel like I have found a tool to help me lose and KEEP OFF the weight. I think I've found what "works" for me, at least for now. I spoke to Dr Sabine about the rules and whether or not I should always have breakfast or only eat when I'm hungry, and he basically said he could tell me about lots of things that work for other people but at the end of the day, I have to find out what works for ME. And what's working for me is not having carbs (bread, pasta, rice, usually potato) after lunchtime. I also have the odd treat here and there, mostly leftover Christmas chocolate, and I'm still losing, so I'm happy. I know at some point I will plateau, but right now I have high hopes of reaching my goal weight before the end of the year. Or certainly before my wedding next year. I just really REALLY need to get a job so I can help pay for our wedding, and hopefully be able to put some away to have the arm skin removed later this year. But we'll see I guess. One step at a time! For now I'll just be happy to get to 88kg by the end of the month. That will get me to my mini goal of 20KG LOST! I'm going to reward myself by getting my hair done.

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"Bad Taste" New Years Eve Party

6-7 weeks post op Highest Weight: 108kg Current Weight: 92kg Total Loss: 16kg Highest BMI: 44.5 Current BMI: 37 Clothing Size: 16-18 and getting loose! Happy New Year everybody!! Well I just had the best New Year I've ever had. (Except the one when I met my fiance and lost my virginity...sssh!). We spent two nights down in Victor Harbour with friends who were visiting from Darwin and Perth. They have a pool, hot tub, sauna and tennis court at their place, so lets just say a fun time was had by all. There was cheese platters BBQs and LOTS of alcohol. Since I was fairly "good" over Christmas, I decided to let myself go for NYE, being good during the day (I had a pumpkin and feta salad for lunch), I indulged in the cheese and crackers, creamy pina coladas and a couple of handfuls of jelly shots! We left our son with his grandparents for the night so we could relax and have our first real night off as parents. We all dressed up in a "Bad Taste" theme, scouring the op shops for some terrible outfits. Had a lot of fun taking the piss and snapping funny photos. At some point during the evening we all ended up in the pool, I was so proud to wear my bathers this year, I'm a long way from a bikini body, but I didnt feel too self-conscious (may have been the alchohol) and my board shorts are way too big, they almost came off in the pool. We managed to squeeze 7 of us (two girls and 5 guys) into the small hot tub....and there were lots of roaming hands, which made for a laugh (nothing dirty). At some point during the evening, people were taking photos of the tower of jelly shots i had balanced between my boobs. So anyway, I really enjoyed myself. Probably a little too much. I'm avoiding the scales for a week, but I was 92kg yesterday morning, so I'm sticking with that for now. I had another pumpkin and feta salad for dinner last night, and baked beans this morning. Back on the bandwagon immediately and hopefully I can get off whatever I put on NYE in the next week before I weigh again. My next two mini goals: Crack the 80's in 3 weeks.
Lose 4kg by the end of Jan so I can tick off 20kg lost.
I am getting a fill to help me achieve this next Tuesday (as I realised exactly how much i CAN eat if I choose to). I think another ml or 2 could help. I'm going to get back to my morning walks, and try my hardest to be active during the day. I'd like to buy the dumbbells ive been wanting for weeks and start toning exercises for my arms. And Zumba start up again next week, which I'm really looking forward to. I also have to make appointments with employment agencies and hope that they can help me get a job ASAP. We have a wedding to plan this year and want to get our deposit together and start building our house. Busy year ahead. Goodluck everybody! xx Photo: Me and my fiance dressed up in our bad taste outfits.

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Setting small goals

I have finally reached the 15kg (30%) lost mark and I'm keen to lose the next 5. I'm going to set myself the goal of losing that 5kg by the end of January. That is 6 weeks, so I think it is a healthy and achievable goal. If i reach the goal, I'm going to reward myself by booking myself in for either a full body massage, or my first bikini wax! lol. I'll also take some progress photos and post. If I don't reach it, I'll get it done anyway. I'm going to try to ensure i get my 30mins of exercise a day, which I often put off due to weather, I don't like taking my son out in the pram if it's too hot or raining obviously. I want to try and use our exercise bike more often, though I find it easier to go for a walk. The bike gets the burning in my legs going long before i can build up my heart rate, and im forced to stop much quicker than I would like. I can managed 5mins at a time before needing a break, where I can walk for 45mins on flat, uphill and downhill terrain. I'm thinking about investing in Zumba DVDS, that i can do at home whilst the baby is asleep. I love Zumba and would love to do it more than once a week. Wondering if anybody else has reached a milestone and would like to share their next mini goal?

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1 month post op

1 month post op Highest Weight: 108kg Current Weight: 95kg Total Loss: 13kg Highest BMI: 44.5 Current BMI: 39 Still stuck. Haven't lost anything in the last week or so. Very disappointed. If anything, I have put only 500g or so. Can only eat right and exercise (when it's not 38 degrees outside!) and hope that it will shift eventually. If I can't move at LEAST another kilo by Christmas I'll be really upset. Just 2 more kilos, I just want to move 2 kg by the end of the year, and I will be happy. At the moment I'm panicking a little on the inside, thinking that I'm going to fail at this. Maybe I'll just be one of those slow losers, or one that has to do 3 hours a day of excercise (god i hope not).

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Rules Rules Rules

3.5 weeks post op. Okay, So I've been having a couple of issues lately, so I'm going to write them down...again. After my 5ml fill on Thursday, I was supposed to go back to liquids for two days, mushies on the 3rd day, and solid food on The 4th day. I got a bit impatient and sick of liquids (i was only into my 1st week of mushies when he gave me the fill), so I skipped to mushies a day early. I have been eating normal food combined with mushies, and my weight has stalled. Still stuck on 95kg. I know that I am eating too few calories. I know it should be over 800 a day, and the last few days I have been lucky to make 500 a day. At the moment, I already feel like I am in this elusive "green zone". I'm satisfied with small portions and not hungry between meals. The doctor's "rules" state to eat three meals a day and not snack between. They also say to stop eating when satisfied. These rules are stuck in my head, and whilst it is great that I'm remembering and living them....I find it impossible to achieve the required calorie intake when I follow these rules. On top of this, I have resumed my exercise routine, which is no doubt burning the precious calories i am consuming. Somebody pointed out that I have not been chewing much (owing to the mushies and liquids i have bee non since surgery). So I am going to make a point to make sure I avoid the sliders that have been my friends for the past month. My Goals: - Eat protein with every meal. - Make sure meals require lots of chewing...eg meat, firm vegetables, salad. - Avoid liquid calories. I know that its normal for weight to stall once you get off the liquids and onto mushies, but its just frustrating when you feel like you're doing the wrong thing, even though its what you have been told by the doctor and dietician, and also what your body is telling you to do. At the end of the day my body is telling me that I dont want/need any more food than I am eating. it is everybody else telling me I need those 800 calories a day. Not sure what to do. Will have to try and get in to see my dietician in early Jan, to see if she can help me work it out and maybe come up with a meal plan for me to follow.

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3 weeks Post Op - Healed and Happy

3 weeks post op Highest Weight: 108kg Current Weight: 94.5kg Total Loss: 13.5kg Highest BMI: 44.5 Current BMI: 39 Hello, Just a bit of an update. I'm down to just under 95kg which I am SO happy about. I would really like to lose that 4.5kg in the next few weeks and begin the New Year at 90kg. I may have to start my exercise again. I have been lacking in energy lately, so adding my exercise back in, should help perk me up. I'm taking the Band Buddy Nutrichews morning and night, although I did have to set reminders on my phone, because I kept forgetting. My incisions have healed nicely but still have some sticky bandages on. Will leave them off next time they fall off. My port gets a bit tender still if i lay the wrong way or do too much lifting during the day...but I have a 1 year old so that unavoidable sometimes. And it still (hurts?) feels funny when I hiccough. But other than that, I have no pain at all. My tops and jacket are much loser and more comfortable, I'm down to a size 16 in Emerson (BIG W) jeans, and even they are starting to become lose, will have to get my belt out again. People are commenting on my weight loss, although they are aware of how much I've lost, because I announce it on facebook every couple of kilos lol. I'm just saying I'm continuing with Optifast, nobody knows about the band. I don't like talking about how I'm doing it because I feel a little dishonest saying I'm just dieting. I think my sister, who is also trying to lose weight, and doing a great job, is a little bit puzzled as to how I've lost more weight than her in a shorter time-frame. She is in the low 70s, so she doesn't have to worry about me catching up for a while, but I know when I do, she is going to get really nervous lol. I can't wait. I am due to get my first fill tomorrow, although he didn't say how much he was going to put in. My hunger during the day is almost nothing, and I'm still only eating just over half a cup at mealtimes, so I don't actually feel like I need a fill? I don't want him to put it in just for the sake of it. Having said that, sometimes I feel like I COULD eat more, but I'm listening to my body and stopping when I feel satisfied, like I never have done before. I'm learning it's okay and also sometimes NECESSARY to leave food on your plate. And now I have my dog back, I don't feel so bad about wastage, cuz he eats the leftovers. The only time I really struggle with head hunger is around 8-9pm when my little one is in bed, my hubby is away at work, and I'm just bored watching TV. Last night I struggled knowing that I had my famous homemade shortbread in the house. I ate two pieces yesterday. I'm not craving them this morning but I know tonight I will want one. Ive put them out of my immediate sight. Tonight if I feel like one, I'm going to make myself a cup of tea, maybe a low fat chai latte for that sweetness, and then see if I still want one. If I still want one, I'll turn off the TV and go and read my book. This usually works because I get so involved in the story that I forget about everything else, including sleep! lol. I refuse to throw them out or give them away because I want to train myself to resist temptation. There is also a bar of chocolate in the fridge that I admit, I haven't been that interested in, so I think its just the novelty of having these biscuits in the house, that I only make once a year. They are special and represent Christmas to me. I think another reason why we become addicted to some foods, is that they hold a special place in our hearts because they hold memories. Whether its the memory of Christmas as a child, or helping your mum in the kitchen, I think we all have special family recipes or foods that are hard to let go of. We just have to let go of the quantity and frequency, which is equally as hard. Alright well I'm going to go and get dressed, put the baby in the pram and go for a walk!! Get outside people! xxx EDITED: So I got 5mls put in, which seemed like a lot to me. But so, far I'm not having any problems. it was back to liquids for a day and a bit, I'm supposed to be on purees, but after some apple puree went down fine yesterday, I've tried some cottage cheese and chilli tuna and it seems to be fine as well Definately can feel the restriction as I filled up quite quickly, but remember to stop when I thought I should, even though there were only 2-3 baby spoonfuls left. So far things are going quite smoothly, and I can only hope it continues when I make it onto normal solid food tomorrow. I'm looking forward to real food again. Healthy food mind you, but real food

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MUSHIES!!!

Hello! I'm sitting on 96kg 2 week after surgery. I was 100.7kg on surgery day so I have lost 4.5kg in the last 2 weeks on my liquid phase. I'm a little bit nervous about starting mushies as I know my weight loss with stall for a while, so I might start my walking tomorrow (didnt make it yesterday or today). Hopefully that will keep things moving a bit. Trouble is it's been so HOT the last week or so and I hate being outside in the sun, I burn so easily. I'm going to have to get up super early and go whilst it'll still a bit cool. For my first mushy meal i took the stick blender to some left over Spag Bol, and it is HEAVENLY! I have been waiting for this for 4 weeks! haha. I remembered to have a drink before hand, and I am eating out of a toddler bowl, with a teaspoon and putting it down between (small) mouthfuls. I measured out just over half a cup which I have a feeling will be more than plenty as I am filling up quickly with each spoonful. Tonight as my hubby is coming home I'm making pan-fried fish, with soft pumpkin and cauliflower/broccoli cheese. All soft enough for me to eat as well

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Progress Report - 12 days post op

12 days post op Highest Weight: 108kg Current Weight: 96.5kg Highest BMI: 44.5 Current BMI: 39 Hello, Just checking in So its only a few more days til I reach the 2 week mark. My weight fluctuates slightly every time I check, but I'm approaching 96kg! Probably 96.5, really need to get digital scales so I can see the grams and stop guessing. My BMI is now under 40, yay! and I am now OBESE and not MORBIDLY OBESE. Double yay! Never thought I would be so happy to be called obese lol. The size 16 jeans I bought just last week are even becoming a little loose around the legs, although I have been wearing them for a few days now so maybe they are just stretched and need a wash to shrink them back I love my 3/4 jeans. I'm going to go back to Big W and get some more. I'm surviving just fine on the liquid phase, a normal menu for me at the moment would be: - Breakfast: cup of tea, then Optifast or Up'N'Go about an hour later - Lunch: Optifast, or Up'N'Go (alternating what I had for breakfast) - Dinner: 1/2 cup soup (this satisfies me just fine. I'm not needing more at this stage. - Snack: "Go Ghurt". Home-made icy pole from diet cordial or V8 juice. - Drinks: sipping water frequently. sometimes a diet cordial or cup of tea with skim milk and no sugar. It's a little bit weird to only be eating half cups at a time, but i'm using my toddler's bowls, so it looks like a normal serve I'm am looking forward to starting mushies in a couple of days, I'm going to make some Tuna Mornay for Wednesday night. I know what head hunger is now. Whenever I feel myself thinking about a sandwich or pasta for dinner, I make myself listen really hard to my body to see if the craving is coming from my tummy or my head. If I am genuinely feeling hungry between meals at the moment, a cup of tea or a little bit of yoghurt is satisfying enough, and all cravings disappear. I can also usually ignore them buy keeping busy, doing chores, reading a book etc. I was going to begin my walking again this morning, although as my son is in daycare, I've decided to take advantage of the quiet and clean house, and just relax with my book today. It feel really good. I think I'll go to Zumba this week, but just take it easy, maybe skip a few of the more taxing moves. Just to get back into things. I don't want to overdo it but I feel the sooner I get back into a bit of exercise the better WARNING, TMI: I still have my period, one that has lasted since I began the pre-op Optifast diet. Nearing its fourth week. Its really annoying, wish it would just disappear. I'm attributing it to the body shock and sudden weightloss. Hopefully it will sort itself out soon, otherwise I may take a trip to the GP to discuss it. I forgot to mention it at my 1 week checkup, but he's a man...just don't feel comfortable.

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Let's talk dehydration...

I learnt my first lesson today about how important it is to sip water constantly throughout the day, particularly during the recovery immediately after surgery. The last two days i hadnt been feeling great, not really hungry or interested in having drinks, not even a cup of tea or diet cordial. My energy level today has just been so low, i had to go back to bed when my son went down for a nap. This afternoon i just started feeling dizzy, i picked up my son which i shouldnt have any, and i had to put him down immediately. I felt queasy, my face started to tingle and i knew that the blood was draining from my face. I was going to pass out, my stepmum told me id gone pale and she got me a cold flannel for my face and made me lay down on the couch. I spent the next hour eating hydrolyte icy poles and sipping water. The nurse who discharged me at the hospital warned me I'd be back if I didnt drink enough water and I finally believe her. Please, please, please, carry a water bottle with you always, and DRINK!

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A week later....

1 week post op Highest Weight: 108kg Current Weight: 98kg Highest BMI: 44.5 Current BMI: 40 Hello! So it's one week since my gastric banding surgery. I saw the clinic GP this afternoon and weighed in at 98kg. So I have lost 10kg since 1st October, 8kg since the beginning of Optifast (in the last 3 weeks). Happy with that! Today was the first morning that didnt hurt to get out of bed or bend down for something, so I'm healing well. The GP took out the staples from the incisions, and they are a tiny bit itchy, but it didnt really hurt, it feels like plucking hair out. I didnt get to look at them or take a photo before he put the sticky dressings back on. I've still got a pretty impressive bruise from when I was knocked out and in theatre. Jealous? Not doing too bad on liquids, not drinking NEARLY as much water as I should be. Have been drinking an optifast for one meal a day, an up'n'go for one meal, and I usually have soup for dinner. In between I'll have V8 juice, some drinking yoghurt or a small milo custard. Soooo looking forward to mushies, but the first week of liquids goes very quickly, and to be honest the first couple days you're so uncomfortable, you aren't that interested in food anyway. Well I wasnt. I've had vegetable and lentil soup, my cajun vegetable soup, homemade pumpkin soup, and tomorrow I'm making the potato and leek soup from the "Knife, Fork & Band" book.

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5 days Post op

My poor step-mum who flew over from Perth to help out after surgery has been up all night vomiting. I think she has the gastro that's been going around and I am really praying and crossing everything that I don't get it as well! I'm so paranoid. As soon as the Chemist opens this morning I'm going to go and stock up on whatever I can get for it, and I might get some red cordial for me and my son to drink in our feeble attempt to avoid getting the tummy bug. I know if I get it a week after surgery, it's not going to be good, and I'll make sure I go to hospital if I start getting sick. So paranoid and worried now... On a high note, I'm not taking pain killers anymore. Tummy is still tender obviously but I think all I need now is the occasional De Gas. Going to try to drink a lot more water today, I didnt manage much at all yesterday. I had some delicious pumpkin soup for dinner last night, although it was either just a TAD too thick, or maybe I ate a little bit too much, because I was just a little bit uncomfortable after. Last night was a big eye opener for me, as I watched my fiance and step-mum devour huge plates of food, which I would have quite comfortably gotten down pre-band, as well as the entre bowl of soup they had with me beforehand. They did admit though, that the meal was larger than they expected and would have liked, but still, I only managed a couple of spoonfuls of soup before I wasn't interested anymore. It was a surprise. But I guess that's the whole point of the band isn't it! i really think the next few weeks will be interesting and show me just how much I was eating unnecessarily before. Thursday is my Post-Op appointment with Dr Anderson, so I'm looking forward to seeing my weight on his scales, and getting a good look at my incision scars. If nature can see fit to let my skin bounce back and not be saggy, I promise not to care at all about the scars! Even the stretch marks! Fingers crossed.

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Day 4, Post op

I snuck onto the scales this morning before getting in the shower and I'm under 100! Only just, but just under is better than Just over. So to date my weight loss is: 108kg: Final Surgeon appointment. 106kg: Start of Optifast 100.9kg: Surgery Day I'm not really scale-watching right now, I'm just focussing on healing anyway, but I am glad to have cracked the double digits! The pain isnt too bad today. I didn't need any pain meds before bed last night, and the only reason I took them this morning is because we were going to walk around a little at the shops, so I took my prodeine fort and de gas. The gas pain has decreased considerably, but it still hurts to laugh a lot, cough or sneeze, so I usually try to hold my tummy during that. ive been able to sleep a little on my side too, instead of just my back, so thats a good sign. My son is at daycare today so my step-mum and I went to the shops and we had "deluxe paraffin pedicures" so for an hour we sat in massage chairs and had some pampering It was quite nice to relax. And I bought some size 16 (yay!) three-quarter jeans, and a new singlet and shorts for bed. Still can't really lift anything too heavy, or push a trolley, but I have about a week before I need to. I'm not really loving the liquid diet whilst everybody is eating yummy food, I'll be happy to get onto mushies, but at least its not just optifast.

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Day 3, the wtf moments

So its the third day after the operation and my pain is becoming more manageable, I learnt quickly to keep taking my drugs. I have 2xprodeine fort and 2 de gas tablets at breakfast, lunch and before bed. They seem to help a lot with the gas pain during the day. Been able to more a bit more. The incisions are becoming a little itchy which is a good sign that they are healing. I'm running out of prodeine fort, however, so i will soon have to get onto the packet of Endone they also gave me. I'd been avoiding it because some people said it made them feel sick. But if I need it, I need it. I still can't tell whether I am starving hungry, or just have the gas pain? They are quite similar feelings. I'm also having some of those "what the hell have I done" moments. I have fleeting moments where I wonder if this is going to be one of ways I fail to lose weight again, but mostly I'm just sitting looking at the leftover spaghetti bolognese or lamb shanks my family is eating, and look to my up'n'go, and can't help thinking i got the raw end of the deal lol. I am currently sucking on a roast carrot from my hubby's plate, which i will spit into the bin when im done with it haha. All in all, I think I am recovering quicker than I expected, although I HATE feeling and being treated like a person who can't do anything. They wont let me lift or push or pull anything heavier than a bottle of water lol. I guess I just need to learn to relax and let them do it for now, because its not often I get to sit on my butt and do nothing.

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Recovering

Day 2, Post Op. My incision wounds are still a bit tender, particularly when laying or sitting down. I'm having trouble distinguishing the difference between hunger pain and gas pain. The gas pain is quite bad at times, moving does help a little. My hubby has been pretty impressed and appalled at all the burping and farting trying to get the gas out lol. I had an optifast shake for breakfast, sipping half at a time. Ive also had a V8 juice. Finding it hard to sip water continuously throughout the day though. But I know I need to. Ive got a bit of a sore throat too, which I was told to expect. We went and did some food shopping (not for me obviously) and I felt totally useless. I couldnt push the trolley or even get my son in or out of the car. Couldnt even help pack the shopping bags into the boot. My Fiance has been amaxing, hes Being doing everything, dishes, washing, getting up to our son last night (which ive always done), even cleaned the bathroom. What would i do without him. My stepmum is flying in today for a week to help out so I will be able to relax a bit more looking forward to some girly shopping time!

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Officially a Bandit :) My hospital experience.

So yesterday was the big day. Sorry if my account is a little hazy or short. Thursday night I had my "last supper" with my fiance which was slow cooked herb and garlic lamb shanks, with mashed potato and steamed green vegetables. It was absolutely divine, especially after two weeks of Optifast! We had a beautiful night together and then set the dreaded alarm for the following morning. Got up around 5:30 yesterday morning, showered and got the little one ready to get in the car. We got to the Ashford hospital around 6:30am, so glad we were early because after we were done being admitted, the line suddenly got very long and busy at 7. The admissions lady gave me forms to sign, I paid my excess fee of $250, and I was given two wrist-bands with my name and DOB on them. We were then taken into a small interview room to speak with the Anesthetist, who discussed what was going to happen, where I would be going, what could possibly go wrong etc. Then a nurse came to collect me, and my fiance, who was still with me at this stage. The nurse got me changed into the sexy gown and painted my tummy with this pink stuff. Fiance was quite pleased that I had to strip naked and walk around nudie under my gown, the pervert Kept trying to poke me in the bum when she wasnt looking. She weighed me, took my vitals, and asked me a lot of medical questions. At this point our son was getting restless so my fiance went home to get him ready for a day at childcare, whilst I waited in a waiting room with a few other ladies, also waiting in sexy gowns. Finally it was my turn to be called. A nurse collected my bags from me, and put tags onto them so they didnt get lost. I was walked down a few corridors and was asked to climb into a bed where they rugged me up, put a surgery hat over my hair and asked me two more series of medical questions. They checked all my arm-bands and paper work and my surgeon and assisting doctor came over to say hello and explain would was going to happen. Then they left and the Anesthetist came over for another chat and place some needles into my arms. They wheeled me away into a lift and down lots of corridors and into a room where I was given an injection of some kind. The "gin and tonic" as he called it. The room started going fuzzy and I don't remember anything after that. To be honest, I don't even really remember waking up. I remember I was in recovery ward to begin with because they were waiting on a bed. I think it was almost lunchtime when I woke up. A few nurses came to check on me and talk to me, although what was said is a little hazy. Somebody then turned up to take me to the "high dependency unit" with a bunch of other people who were recovering from surgery. The nurses there showed me how to adjust the bed, call for them with the red button and access the things I needed. I remember asking one of them to call my fiance and let him know I was out and awake, although just as she was asking for his number, he came around the corner anyway It was about 1:30? I think. He didnt stay long as I was pretty groggy and very tired. My eyelids kept dropping as we were talking and finally he told me to get some sleep and he would come back with our son later so I could say goodnight. I went to sleep for a couple of hours. Instead of the compression stockings on my legs, I had these wrap things that would inflate and massage my legs. It was incredibly hot and itchy under there! and I asked to have a bit of a break from them for 10minutes around tea time. I was on a drip, on morphine as well and didnt have much pain at all. I didnt have any shoulder tip pain or nausea. After a bit of a nap, I sat up in bed and read my book for a while til my fiance got back. He came and went, and I went back to reading my book. During this time the nurses brought me water, soup, tea and this special protein juice to sip on. I got up to go to the toilet on my own and changed into my own clothes. I also had jelly at diner time but my son ate it, then vomited it up in my bed lol. Glad I didnt eat it! I wasnt all that interested in the fluids to be honest. I was starving most of the day, then had a couple sips of juice and soup and wasnt hungry anymore. The nurses kept asking how i was going, checking my vitals. I was given this breathing tool with plastic balls that i was supposed to make rise 6 times an hour. The first time I was asking to suck the air in, I started coughing and it was quite painful. It was supposed to inflate my lungs, and doing so caused a bit of strain on my wounds. They kept commenting how low my blood pressure was throughout the day and night, and at some point mentioned if it stayed so low they would think about doing a blood transfusion. I was ready for bed about 8pm, I shut my book and went to sleep. I have to say that I wasnt in a great deal of pain unless trying to sit up. They kept me topped up with the good drugs. I remember waking at about 10:30 to people running past my bed, I thought somebody might have needed urgent attention and went back to sleep. An hour later I heard the nurses changing shift, telling each other that "number 6 was gone". When my nurse came in to check my bloody pressure and offer me more morphine, I asked if somebody had passed away and she confirmed it. That freaked me out a little bit because it reminded me where I was. In a high dependency ward, post surgery, with low blood pressure. I'd be lying if I said I wasnt a little bit scared after that, and made sure I did the exercises on the breathing thing to inflate my lungs. The nurses woke me up about every hour during the night to check my blood pressure, at once point saying I need to put the oxygen back on as my stats were dropping. That scared me a little bit too. I think it was about 4:30 when they were happy my blood pressure was rising to a more normal rate. I think I woke up at about 6:30 this morning. I called the nurse to unhook me from everything so i could go to the toilet and get changed. I was offered a shower but decided to wait and do it at home. I drank my breakfast juice and sipped water whilst sitting up on my bed and reading my book until my fiance came to get me and it was time to be discharged. I spoke with the surgeon who said everything went very well, my liver was fine, he didnt mention anything about any hernia repairs. He also checked my wounds and was pleased that there is very little bruising. He told me to speak to the dietician before leaving, which i did. she basically just re-told me all about the liquid and mushy stages, then i picked up my discharge medications (Endone and Prodeine Fort, and Nutrichew multivitamins) and off home I went! As I said, is a lot I dont remember. Besides the pressure in my chest from the gas build up, the pain was and still is quite managable. I went in and out of surgery with no tears. Home now, ive been sipping on V8 vegetable juice, has a small bowl of runny soup for lunch and am trying to sip as much water as I can to keep my fluids up. All in all, the surgery for me was a bit of a breeze and I'm looking forward to recovering properly and getting into a regular meal-plan tomorrow. Its hard because I feel like I'm just drinking ALLLLL DAY! Well thats all, I guess Happy to answer any questions if anybody has any. Goodluck to those heading into surgery soon!

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Scarlett Fever

So we had a rough couple of days. My 14month old has either Scarlett Fever (says doctor), or Hand, Foot & Mouth (went around last week at his daycare). So he's been a very upset and cranky little person, not sleeping, not really eating and crying basically all day. He seems much better today, except for the spots and rash, seem to still have spread a bit further. But I'm just hoping, now PRAYING that I'm not going to come down with any symptoms in the next few days. I'm so close to getting my band, its all paid for. If they postpone it now, I will be devastated. I'll have to wait til January because I'm not prepared to have it done any sooner to Christmas.

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Halfway through. Surgery in 1 week.

Okay I'm halfway through Optifast and I'm finding it okay so far. It hasn't been the nightmare that I was expecting from hearing other people's comments. I dont mind the chocolate or vanilla shakes my surgeon gave me, I'm not feeling sick or getting headaches, although I do get a bit dizzy when I stand up too quickly. I'm using the toilet enough, plenty of number 1s cuz I'm drinking SO MUCH LIQUID lol. Its like being pregnant all over again. (sorry TMI). Cravings. Yes I've been having them. But I know I only have them when I'm bored, like in the evenings after I've had my vegetable dinner and my son has gone to bed. They have been easy to ignore because I just dont have any high calorie food in the house. But I must confess to having a tiny lick of the peanut butter on my sons cruskits, or half a baby spoonful of his mashed pumpkin. Tomorrow I'm checking in with the clinic GP to pay for surgery and weigh in, make sure I'm sticking to Optifast etc. I'm going to ask him about whether or not I can have a "last supper" the night before my surgery, as sort of a celebration for getting through two weeks on shakes and veggies, and maybe have a couple things I might not be able to have post-band, like a bread roll. Now I don't intend to pig out, I'll stick to my small plate, but it would be nice to eat a real meal with my hubby before starting another 2 weeks of just liquids. I'm thinking of a roast dinner I don't think some lamb and vegetables would totally ruin my liver for surgery. As I mentioned in another post I'm really looking forward to getting this over with and losing the weight, but I'm a little afraid of what it could be like to be "slim". I don't know how to BE a slim person. I've always been the funny, fat girl, the friend but not the girlfriend, and dressed for comfort, not fashion. Obviously being engaged now, I don't have to worry about being the friend anymore But how to dress? As a young mum, I don't feel like I can wear what other 22 year old may be wearing right now. I'd love to be able to wear a miniskirt or some short shorts in summer, but I don't want to look like a tarty mum. But then I also want to feel young and happy and healthy and dress my age. Its a tricky one. I guess only I can make the decision to try and pick clothes that feel comfortable AND look good. I'm also a little scared of how other people might treat me because I've lost weight. If they treat me with jealousy and disrespect because I've used a band to lose weight, it will piss me off. If they treat me better, then I think I will be annoyed or upset that they couldn't appreciate me for who I was even when I was big. What I get some male attention? Ive never had it before, and I love my fiance with all my heart, but I would be lying if I said it wouldn't be nice if guys thought I was attractive. I'm not looking to meet anybody of course but it would be nice to get hit on occasionally to boost my self-confidence. I just hope my fiance could take it as a compliment to his good taste, and not as a threat. I guess this whole journey is a bit of an emotional mine-field, and with my surgery date drawing closer, I'm having to deal with my feeling about the future, the possibilities. Maybe I'm worrying that I'll have a bit of an identity crisis. Or maybe I'll just be the healthiest, happiest version of myself that I've ever been. Who knows. I probably should have hunted down a psychologist to discuss these thoughts with, but my surgeon only required a dietician visit and I didnt think I'd need one. I'll keep it in mind post-op if I'm having any difficulties. At least I can put my thoughts into my blog and get it out that way.

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My Optifast Diary

I'm going to be using this blog entry to document these two weeks prior to my surgery. I'll update or "edit" it every day to record my food, feelings, or weigh in if I want to. Its easy than having a new blog entry for every day. This is just for me so ignore it if you want to, but I thought it might also help people on Opti come up with some ideas for their evening meals instead of plain steamed vegies, which are no fun START WEIGHT : 108kg BEGINNING OF OPTI : 106kg Day 1: Breakfast: vanilla shake, 200ml water, 1/3 cup mixed frozen berries. Lunch: vanilla shake, 200ml skim milk, 1/2 banana. Dinner: small bowl of stir-fry veggies with curry powder for flavour. Exercise: 45mins beginner Zumba. Feeling: very hungry between meals and cant even watch food ads on tv for fear of chewing husbands leg off. Trying to drink 1.5l water throughout day. Feeling a bit on edge by bedtime. Day 2: Breakfast: choc shake, 200ml skim milk, spoonful dissolved instant coffee. Lunch: choc shake, 200ml skim milk. Arvo Tea: 1 whole, fresh tomato. Dinner: making a tomato and grated vegetable sauce with garlic and herbs, to put over grated and cooked cauliflower. "Pretend spag bol". Exercise: None, but very busy day. Feeling: very tired and flat. Still hungry but managing to ignore it, even when cooking for hubby. Not ready to weigh in yet. Felt great after Zumba last night, finding exercise really effective in distracting myself from my rumbling hungry tummy. About to have a nap (its 3:30pm). Slight inkling of a headache coming on. Day 3: Breakfast: choc shake, 200ml skim milk, half banana. Lunch: Vanilla shake, 200ml skim milk, 1/3 cup frozen mixed berries Dinner: leftover tomato/grated veggie sauce over pan fried Barramundi. Weigh In: 104.5kg Exercise: 35mins walk, uphill, downhill and flat. Brisk walk (with pram). Feeling: Incredibly happy that I've dropped 1.5kg in 2 days! Considering it took a whole month for me to lose 2kg with just healthy eating and daily exercise. Feeling less hungry this morning than previous two days. Hubby reckons I've got the ketosis breath though, so may have to get some sugar free gum or mints to keep that at bay between brushes. Day 4: Breakfast: vanilla shake, 200ml almond milk, half banana. Lunch: choc shake, 200ml almond milk. Dinner: grilled fish and vegetable kabobs, cooked on the BBQ. (Having company tonight). Exercise: 35mins walk, uphill, downhill and flat. Brisk walk (with pram). Feeling: Pretty good this morning despite the hot weather. No headaches. Only a little hungry. Trying not to weigh myself everyday, only every 3 days...Wondering if I should find some different optifast flavours or get some bars to have for lunch, just for something different. May buy some next week. Day 5: Breakfast: choc shake, 200ml water. Lunch: vanilla shake, 200ml almond milk. Dinner: garden salad on a small side plate. Big glass of diet cordial. Exercise: none today because weather was stormy. Walked around the shops a bit and did some vigorous cleaning. Feeling: Pretty good, had a tiny sneak peek at the scales last night (after eating my dinner and drinking lots of water) and they haven't budged too much, so I'm going back to making my shakes with water instead of milk, and not adding any fruit to them, at least til I can shift a couple more kilos. I'm also going to go back to just having vegies for dinner, no fish for a while either. I wasn't even that hungry this morning when I made bacon and eggs for my fiance. Fiance thinks he can start seeing some loss around my middle and had a few comments last night from a friend we haven't seen in a few weeks. Winning! Day 6: Breakfast: vanilla shake, 200ml water, half banana. Lunch: choc shake, 200ml water. Dinner: Cajun Vegetable Soup (recipe in pre-op recipe section). Weigh In: 104kg Exercise: 35mins walk, uphill, downhill and flat. Brisk walk (with pram). 6.5mins on exercise bike. Feeling: a little disheartened. was hoping to lose a little bit more by now. Will be ramping up the exercise but other than that I may as well try to enjoy the next week 10 days by having my allowed fruit in my shakes. Not feeling hungry at all between meals now, as long as I'm drinking tea and water. Only "cheating" was a couple of pineapple cubes the other day. One of the good things about Optifast is that you learn to recognise real hunger and head hunger. If I'm really hungry I will go for my shake (if its time), and if I'm just sitting thinking about a slice of pizza, or a steak, I know its just head hunger. Day 7: Breakfast: choc shake, 200ml water, half banana. Lunch: vanilla shake, 200ml water, 1/3 cup frozen blackberries Dinner: Exercise: just spring cleaning so far today. Feeling: Frustrated. Scales still haven't moved. I need to stop weighing myself. Have a pre-op appointment with surgeon tomorrow to weigh in, check in and pay for the surgery next week. Started cleaning the house in preparation. Starting to feel my collarbones again Been lucky I haven't had any headaches or felt ill from Opti so far. I think hydration is the key. Might try to go for my walk this arvo since I didnt go this morning. Day 8: Breakfast: choc shake, 200ml water, half banana. Lunch: vanilla shake, 200ml water, half banana. Dinner: small piece pan fried chicken breast, cup stirfry vegetables. Weigh In: 102.5kg Exercise: Feeling: a little better now I can see the scales moving again. IF I can get down to 101kg by next Thursday, I will be happy. But after a little perspective, I'm realising that even though I'm not losing as much as I would like on Optifast, I've already lost nearly 6kg since my last visit with the surgeon and thats something to be proud of too I'm 10% of the way to my goal weight, so there's something to smile about. Day 9: Breakfast: Choc shake, 200ml water, 1/4 cup frozen mixed berries Lunch: vanilla shake, 200ml water, half banana. Dinner: small piece of Basa fish with paprika, pan fried. Cup of stirfried vegetables. Cup diet jelly for dessert. Exercise: Feeling: having a hard day, food wise. having lots of cravings today, so close to cheating and eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich! Day 10: Breakfast: choc shake, 200ml water, half banana. Lunch: Vanilla shake, 200ml water. Dinner: small piece pan fried chicken breast, cup stir-fry vegetables. Weigh In: 101kg Exercise: Feeling: so happy that in total, I have lost 7kg! Was hoping to get to 100kg before Thursday, being that its only Saturday, I'm now hoping I can lose another 2kg and get to 99! Day 11: Breakfast: vanilla shake, 200ml water, half banana. Lunch: choc shake, 200ml water, 1/4 cup frozen mixed berries. Dinner: small (palm sized) piece of Basa fish, pan fried. Cup of stirfried vegetables with tiny dash of sweet chilli sauce. Exercise: stopped exercising for now because I think I was burning too many calories to sustain weight loss. Feeling: Feeling great. Not much to report. Feeling a bit blocked up (sorry) so I might throw some Benefibre into my lunch shake.Okay I have cheated a tiny bit today..oops. I had a couple bites of lasagne at lunch and I added a tiny dash of sweet chilli sauce to my evening vegetables. Feel a bit guilty, but I'm only human. I wish I could see more of the weight loss in the mirror. But it's there on the scales so I'm hoping for a nice healthy looking liver come Thursday. Only 4 days to go! Yikes! Day 12: Breakfast: Choc shake, 200ml water, nutmeg and cinnamon Lunch: vanilla shake, 200ml water, handful of dried dates (softened in boiling water). Dinner: pan fried chicken with "roast chicken" spice mix. cup of veggies. Exercise: Feeling: getting sick of waiting now. Just want the next couple of days to go really quick, but they seem to be dragging on and on. Day 13: Breakfast: vanilla shake, 200ml water, handful strawberry halves, stick of benefibre. Lunch: (woops, forgot to have lunch!) Dinner: pan fried fish with paprika, cup stir-fry vegetables Exercise: Feeling: it's my last night on full Optifast. Tomorrow I will be having the shakes for breakfast and lunch, and then I get to have my "last supper" before fasting for surgery the next day I'm getting excited! and nervous. I guess I should pack a bag huh? Day 14: (LAST DAY OF OPTI, WOOO) Breakfast: choc shake, 200ml water, half banana. Lunch: Vanilla shake, 200ml water. Dinner: slow cooked lamb shank, mashed potato and green vegetables. Weigh In: 101kg, hasnt changed according to my scales at home. Exercise: Feeling: Feeling incredibly excited to be done with Optifast, getting a little bit nervous about the surgery tomorrow. I've already had a phone call from admissions reminding me to be there at the hospital at 7. I'm really looking forward to my fiance coming home tonight and having my last supper, how I have missed food, carbs! I haven't even packed a bag, I'll have to do that later. I've got my lamb shanks in the slow cooker and vegetable & lentil soup on the stove, but despite all the beautiful smells wafting around the house, I'm not really hungry. I'm trying to stay really well hydrated today and tonight to prepare for surgery tomorrow.

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Last Night of Freedom

Hello, My hubby comes home from work tonight, and it's my last night before starting Optifast in the morning. I'm also seeing the dietician tomorrow so I guess its kind of a celebration, about my fresh start So we're going to have yummy San Choi Bow for dinner, put the little one to bed, get drunk on rum while we put on a movie and not watch it

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Optifast Approaching...

Hello All, I start Optifast next Thursday so I have been enjoying getting in the kitchen and cooking the last few days. Now I havent been scoffing down maccas and chocolate. But I have made a yummy vegetable pizza, and tonight a yummy vegie quiche. I even treated myself to some stickydate pudding and custard the other night. I guess these are my last meals. Not that I cant have them later, but...well...we'll see i s'pose. I've started stocking up on things I'll need post-op. I got some V8 juice boxes, some benefibre and some up'n'go vive (thanks to whoever told me about the lower calorie version). I'm going to start making soup during week two of Opti and freeze them. I still have to buy some de-gas and a chewable vitamin. and maybe some liquid nurofen. I've got enough Opti for the two weeks (i think) but i guess I should get some more for after the surgery. Anything else I need? One thing I do need is to send in my hospital forms!! I will fill them out tonight and send them tomorrow! I will, I will. I am getting incredibly excited. Its nearly here. I'm not really looking forward to the actual Optifast, but more so about the period of weightloss from then until....well for the foreseeable future. I found some size 16 black jeans that I bought and never fit into, so I'm hoping to be able to fit them by christmas. I'm an 18 now so I dont think thats too much to ask. I'm also really looking forward to buying some new underwear, ive noticed mine getting looser lately. Bring on the new wardrobe! EDITED: I forgot to mention I took some selfies in the mirror last night, wearing my underwear. Front and side views, I cant do back and I dont want my hubby to take them lol. I don't know how much weight I'll have to lose before I'm happy with look at my body like that, but I know a few areas that particularly annoy me. The fat rolls underneath my bra. My lovehandles and tummy, and my upper arms. Now obviously everything could shrink a little bit, but these are my problem areas. I think I'll be reasonable happy with my legs and bum after about 15-20kg lost To be honest there isnt much bum there, so I wouldnt mind learning some exercises to help shape that a bit.

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