Right now I'm having strawberry. It is rather delish but a tad on the sweet side.
Vanilla I didn't enjoy, so it looks like I'll be stocking up on Chocolate, Coffee and Strawberry.
Damn this stuff is expensive. Not sure if I'll get soups because I'll be following the plan in the Knife, Fork and Band book.
Will have to get me some bars though.
Oh and today marks 3 weeks until surgery
That is the time when I am to present to the hospital for admission.
The PAC nurse told me that it's only an overnight admission? I'm a bit worried about that, something so major as having 3/4 of my stomach cut away and only staying overnight? I was hoping at least a 2 night stay just to be on the safe side.
See what happens tomorrow.
At least I can now shower in the morning so I smell nice LOL.
I'm not due to start OptiFast until 12 June, but I bought a box of the mixed pack, just so I can suss out which flavours I like.
Currently drinking chocolate. Had to chuck in a few ice cubes to make it cold. It's not too bad, but it's drinkable.
I've survived 3 months with the sleeve!
Thought it was going to be more of a struggle but I've managed. Yes I do have some bad days, but overall, I love my sleeve.
24.2kg are gone....forever. They will NEVER come back.
The countdown is really on now.
I guess I should start considering what I need to by for my bag and start packing.
Had my hair done yesterday (no more greys!! Yay). Tomorrow is the brows and pedi. Tonight my legs LOL.
If only I was going on a holiday to make the most of my grooming LOL.
Yes I have finally hit
Thought I would never get there, but I have!
My mood is much better than the other day when I was on the verge of smashing the scales.
What's been happening?
On Sunday I did Run Ballarat, but I walked the 6km track in 54m and 36s. Last year I did the same distance for Run Geelong and it took me 1h 31. What a massive improvement. I'm doing RG again this year, so now I'm on a mission to better my RB time.
My sister attends a gym and the trainer there keeps asking about me. She knows everything, so she's curious to see me. I was thinking of going to her for some PT sessions, but at $65 a lesson at I assume is a 1 hour sessions (she used to work at Fernwood and there was only 1/2 hour). I'll think about it.
Nothing much else to report unfortunately.
Don't I lead such an interesting life?!
Was discharged from hospital yesterday. Feeling great, except for a few spasms of pain, especially if I take too big a gulp of liquid. Surgeon came to see me yesterday morning and said that all going well and that I could go home. I asked him why a particular port site was hurting more than the others and he said that is where he pulled my stomach out. Nice picture in your head folks?!
Surgeon was also very pleased with how everything went so smoothly with regards to the procedure and post op progress. If I'm going to be good at one thing, may as well be a model patient LOL.
Wednesday night I asked for a sleeping tablet as I got stuff all sleep Tuesday night (despite all the drugs in my system), but woke up at 1.30am cos the old lady (yes, sharing a room with an 82 year old), woke up needing to go to the toilet....and didn't know how to speak quietly. Some people have no respect. I think I then nodded off for another 3 solid hours and then my neighbour woke me again.
Wednesday was by first 'meal' I guess you could say. I had nothing but ice chips and water until the dietician came to see how I was doing and suggested that I can have something more. So lunch arrived and it was chicken broth (quite salty IMO) and strawberry smoothie. As I couldn't fully sit up, I was sort of eating reclined, so struggled a bit with the soup. I think I managed about 6 soup spoons of the broth and I very slowly drank the smoothie and by dinner time, I still hadn't finished it. More soup and smoothie for dinner. Nurse asked how much broth I had and said most of the bowl, which she said was about 200ml. I know I didn't have it all. And smoothie wise, she could see as I had barely touched it.
I think I feel hunger pangs, but I'm not sure if they are, as they part of the stomach was cut away. Must just be my gastric juices bubbling about.
I think I'll sign off for now, as it's getting a bit sore sitting here typing.
I'll write again in a few days and update you on what's been happening.
Yay! I've hit the 1 week post surgery mark. To date I have lost 8kg in total. On the 2 weeks of Optifast, I lost 5kg and since the surgery another 3kg. Yay me!
Food is still a trial and error process. Things like water goes down without an issue, but the soup I struggle with, even blitzed until it's thin enough to eat through a straw (but not use a straw) causes pain.
I've been walking for 15 mins a day going at a slow pace. I'll slowly increase as things begin to heal inside more.
Speaking of healing, last night I thought I'd take off all the Duoderm dressings, so I waited until after I had a shower so they were a bit softer to pull off. Mum was in the bathroom to help, but I managed to pull off the top port site dressing (between the boobs). Looking down I could see it was still a bit open, so I just put a steristrip and a light gauze so there's a bit of air. One down 4 to go. On pulling off the far left dressing, I started to feel a bit dizzy and woozy and my hearing was going funny, which for me is a sign that I'm about to pass out. I had to walk out of the bathroom and sit down until it passed. Few minutes later, mum cleaned and covered that site with gauze then we proceeded onto the next one, but didn't get that far. I felt so nauseas and dizzy again that I had to sit down. My hearing once again went funny and it sounded as though everyone was in the distance and I broke out into such a sweat. I couldn't put my head between my legs as you would normally do in these instances. I had to get mum to get a bucket as I was on the verge of throwing up, but luckily that passed. The last thing I want to do is throw up on a still healing stomach. Dad took my temperature and it was 37Â°C, so I didn't have to be concerned about my stomach leaking (thank God). I went straight to bed as I still felt nauseas.
This morning I lay in bed and mum replaced the remaining 2 dressings with gauze. The port site on my far right is still a bit open, but the other 3 are just like a scratch now. The gauzes ended up coming off the other 4, so I replaced them with the only bandaids I had on hand, my nephew's Transformers one LOL. Hope I don't have to present to the ED with these bandages any time soon LOL.
Onto hallucinations. Whilst in hospital, the old lady next to me (yes, I was sharing a room with an 82 year old woman) every so often would pipe up and say something as if someone was there. She mentioned this to several of her visitors and the nurses and they put it down to possibly being her medication. I didn't think anything of it at the time, but thinking back over the last few days, I think the meds affected me slightly. I was lying in bed and I swear that the bed was shaking. I thought for a moment that Geelong was having another earthquake. Just the bed was shaking, nothing else, cos I checked if the water in my glass was also moving, but it wasn't.
OK, so I think that whilst the sun is shining, I shall go for a stroll.
Another 2.2kg gone, making it 9.8kg in total. I don't know if these little numbers (3kg one week post op and now 2.2kg) are normal or not. I know I should be grateful that it's a loss, as I'm sure I would not have been able to achieve these numbers without the surgery...in fact I know I would not have been able to.
I also have 4 weeks remaining of my leave and I'm bored. I think I couldn't returned to working from home earlier, maybe have another week off, but I made a few appointments during the time which I thought I was still off, so instead of cancelling, I just extended the leave. Might as well, I have about 45 weeks of sick leave. Gotta use it sometime, right?
I haven't even noticed any changes in my body either. Mum seems to think my stomach is a bit flatter, but I don't see it. I suppose I will in due course, just have to give it more time I guess. I'm just impatient.
Thought I'd give my old pair of size 20 jeans a go and lo and behold...they fit!!! I haven't worn these for about 3 or more years.
I've been wearing my beloved Levis to death but now they are slipping down. I bought them for $15USD each last time I was in Honolulu in 2010. I got a 22 and 24 and both fit me.
At least now I'll be able to buy Levis here in the future, albeit at an inflated price.
Yup, that is what my father asked me yesterday. Seriously? I've lost 17kg and he's asking if I've lost anything? He's not very observant, is he?
One of my cousins is on to me. My sister told me she had an inkling something was up when we went out to dinner a few weeks ago and I could only manage a small amount of food. It was confirmed on Saturday night again when I only had a slice of pizza (just a bit smaller than a slice of bread). My sister told her not to tell anyone else, so hopefully she can keep her mouth shut. In time everyone will know...just not yet.
I'm doing Run Ballarat in October and after the run, I'll be stopping by my aunts place. I think she'll be in for a bigger shock than anyone as I only see her a few times a year and she hasn't seen me since I don't know when.
Off topic, my back is absolutely killing me today. I have a Tiger Balm patch but that doesn't seem to be helping. I just have to lean forward the wrong way and it goes. Not sure if I have a pinched nerve. I also found a small pea like lump just below my left knee at the top of my calf. Not sure what is going on there either. Must get both checked out when I have a moment.
So for breakfast I'm having the delicious coffee shake. Started drinking at 8am and still have 150ml to go.
Should I be drinking this quicker?
Anywho, about half an hour ago I realised that I needed to weigh myself, so I turn them on and up I jump on the scales.
Now I have to schlep over to K-Mart so I can keep track of things.
BTW, how farking cold is it this morning?
So now that I have scales (which I now think is a bad idea), my official start weigh is 128.1kg.
My highest ever weight.
The last time I will ever be that weight.
Breakfast this morning was a black coffee as I had to go to pathology for my pre op bloods and ECG. Now I have a chocolate shake.
I've also started taking Metamucil.
Yup 2.3kg. Not the bigger number I was hoping for but it's a start. Considering I had a few bad days food wise (Sunday and the damn Belvita biscuits), back on track today, so I'll see what I can muster up before my last weight in next Tuesday morning before I head off to the hospital.
Officially over 20kg lost!!! All went well yesterday with the surgeon and he was very pleased with my progress.
One thing: he's obsessed with my boobs. After the hi's and how are you's on the way to the weigh in room, he looks at me and says "you're boobs haven't shrunk". Should I be concerned that he keeps commenting on them? I just laugh it off because I know eventually they will, just haven't quite yet (still same band and cup size dammit). I don't know how he can tell anyway because it's not like I flash them about.
He also stated that I look younger and if he didn't know me, he'd think I was in my late 20's. I said the wrinkles (following weight loss) haven't set in yet. He thought (again, before he knew my age) that I was more late 30's/early 40's. He himself is 41 and doesn't look it, but I would've said early 40's had he asked.
Anywho, don't need to see him now until 2 weeks before Christmas, which he says I should be in my 80's by then.
Last time I was in my 80's I was in Year 7.
I also happened to walk past Katies...yes Katies! I ended up buying a new top for work as I'm getting sick of the same stuff week in week out. I tried on a 20 and it fit. I'm thinking of going back and trying on 18 just in case. I never want to wear clothes in the size 20's again, so best schlep it over to Katies to exchange. If it does't fit now, it will in a few weeks. I just love the colour.
I'm house sitting for a friend who is going to Europe for 5 weeks. Jealous. I'll basically just be sleeping there as I work during the day from home. It's more to look after her half dead dog and princess of a cat LOL.
Well tis all for now. Until next time...
In total I have lost 16.5kg!!!!! Last time I lost anywhere near that much took me forever. Back in 2003/4 I did manage to lose 25kg, but that took me a year and after that program finished, it crept back on...and more.
Slowly starting to feel good about myself. Still banned from clothes shopping, although I do need to get a cheap pair of pants for work as I don't think the boss will allow me another week of jeans.
Thursday was my first day back at work after nearly 5 weeks off. All the ladies were glad to see me but I got a few curious looks. I was cornered in the kitchen by one of the ladies and she was giving me the look trying to figure out what was different with me. I just played around and said that I had my hair done etc. She wasn't satisfied with that answer LOL.
By the time morning tea came around, she came into my office and asked if I had lost weight, to which I responded 'just a bit', still not giving anything away. Eventually it came out that I had surgery, but not to say to anyone because still not everyone knows and I don't really want it to be public knowledge. I also explained the procedure to them, as they thought I had the band.
I received a lot of comments that day on how good I looked (from those who do know and don't know).
They weren't happy with me as I bought in 2 dozen cupcakes for them to enjoy .
Last night I went to the local wog club for a fundraiser dinner and it was the first time I've eaten in public (well I did have lunch at work, but that wasn't a big deal). I helped myself to a meatball and a bit of salad and my aunty saw the amount of food that was on my plate and she questioned it. She asked if I was on a diet to which I replied 'you could say that' and just left it there...for the time being.
She approached me again later and asked again (nicely, not in a nosey way) and because it was busy, I said I'd tell her later but never got around to it, but I'm sure she knows something is up. She had also noticed I looked different and she was happy for me. I'm sure the wog grapevine will be in action soon. Nothing stays quiet too long in our family ;p
I didn't know but my sister told a friend of the family about the procedure and she asked me about it. She reassured me she wasn't going to tell anyone because I told her not all the family know. She just asked how I was and how she knows someone who had the band but has had nothing but trouble with vomiting etc.
So tonight is the big test. Going out to dinner with the girls and then off to see Magic Mike. Going to a local Indian restaurant, so I've checked out the menu as to what I think could be suitable to have. Unfortunately they don't have a kids menu, so I'll just have to order off the entree.
I do have an ulcer on my throat (farken painful), so as I'm still in the soft food phase, I'll have to be careful as to what I can eat. Looks like I'll go the vegetarian option.
Taking my grand total to 18kg! Saw the dietician today and she was very pleased as to how I am progressing. Will be seeing her next in December, 6 months post op.
I went to see my GP yesterday with regards to my back and he seems to think I sprained it, so prescribed me anti-inflammatories and pain relief. My uncle suggested I see a chiro, so I went to the one he sees today and he tells me that I have a 1cm leg length discrepancy and he's surprised I haven't had issues earlier. I told him I get these pains once in a while, but not to the severity of this one, which has gone into my legs and it's painful to walk. He said that I have a pelvic tilt and that this can be fixed. I'm going to see him again tomorrow.
Who'd have thunk?! I had a feeling I may have but dismissed it. I've noticed that if I wear pants or jeans that are a tad too long, the hem on the right side tends to drag along the ground.
At least this can be fixed.
Get your minds out of the gutters, not that kind of lay LOL (maybe one day ha ha), no but in September next year, guess who's going to Hawaii?!?!?!?
With a new body...well almost.
So excited. I cannot wait.
This all came about when my sister propositioned me. I'll backtrack a little, so you know what's going on.
Last year was my sister's 50th birthday, so to mark the milestone, I surprised her with a holiday to Hong Kong. I was last there in 1988 so I've always wanted to go back and so has she, we just never got around to it. So everything was booked in January and I had kept things quiet until June when I surprised her with a very cryptic note outlining a trip overseas, weather at the destination, what kind of things to pack. Like I said, very cryptic. We weren't due to leave until September, so she had no clue as to where we were going.
I had organised everything behind her back and contacted her boss to apply for her leave. As she knew we were going overseas somewhere, I asked her to give me money so I could convert it to spending money, but I held onto this until the final destination.
Our flight didn't leave until midnight, so she was checking the board at the airport and there were 3 flights leaving around the same time, so I tricked her by walking towards the Phuket counter, only to weave out again. Walked up to Singapore Airlines counter and then it clicked...she thought we were going to Singapore. But no. I told her to wait behind whilst I went to the check in counter, explained to the clerk that my sister has no clue as to where we are going and not to say anything. She didn't, which was great. Then came the immigration card thingy. I got her to fill everything else out but leave destination blank then I filled out that part. No problem there. Phew.
Upon arrival at Changi, my sister tried to make her way to baggage claim but I told her we can't. She was a little confused. I handed over her envelope containing spending money and then it clicked.
Back on track.
So she wanted to surprise me with a trip to Port Douglas, as I have never been, going in April next year out of school holidays. But as I keep talking about Hawaii, well you get the idea LOL. She said she can't afford for flights and accommodation to Hawaii for the both of us and I told her not to worry about it, we'll just split the cost. So now we have a whole year to save up. As soon as I see cheap flights for around the time we want to go (just waiting for her to confirm dates, as her coworker is on leave in September too). We'll go for 10 days and island hop, as we've only ever been to Honolulu (this will be the 4th time).
And yeah, lost 1.4kg this week...total now is 22.1kg. Yay!
Merry Christmas and Happy Boxing Day.
Another month down and 37.1kg gone.
So what's been going on the past month? Not much.
Was in a bit of a quandry pre Christmas as one of my work break ups was at Four Points by Sheraton Geelong for a breakfast buffet. Panic mode set it. It would be the first time eating in front of these lot of co-workers. They know that I had surgery, I just felt awkward. I was sitting next to one of the doctors and she was asking questions as she'd never seen me eat LOL. I did a lap of what was on offer, but thought I'd play it safe and had an omelette made with I think a dozen eggs...or so it seemed. I ate very very slowly. I managed to get through 3/4 of the omelette. I explained to the doctor that if I ate too fast, I'd fill up too quickly and I'd feel really uncomfortable. I stopped at the point of just beginning to feel full. Waited a while before I had coffee. Everyone else at the table had helped themselves up to 5 times. I miss that a little bit, but I was content with my measly omelette LOL.
Another awkward moment that day...I was the only single person on the table. I had no idea the other staff would bring their partners.
Sucks being single.
I saw my dietitian on 12/12/12 and she was happy with how things are progressing and how I'm tolerating everything.
I also saw my surgeon for my 6 month post op check up on 19/12/12. He too was very pleased with how things are going. Still obsessed about my boobs though. I think he's just as surprised as I am that they are still, well, rather big. Still pondering whether it's normal, but I got a kiss on the cheek from him, congratulating me for being under 100kg. I'm not seeing him again until June, my one year sleeveaversary, so I'm hoping by then I'll be at goal. 23kg until I achieve that. I also said that everythings (and I mean everything) is heading south and that I've already looked into surgeons to put everything in its place. I asked him when he thought would be a good time and he suggested I wait a year after goal to let things settle in case I continue to lose weight...so by 2014, I'll have a normal looking body. Boobs will be perky and where they should be, my 'apron' will no longer exist, thighs will be slim and the arms won't look like bat wings.
I actually went on to try a bra in Bras n Things (haven't set foot in there EVER) and tried on a 16E. It fit but the style wasn't very flattering. I've gone from a 20DD/E to possibly a 16E. I really do need to get measured properly. It's been years since I have physically bought a bra instore as previously I have bought online from Lane Bryant as they're so much prettier...and sometimes cheaper even with shipping.
Christmas Day was going to be a big test for me food wise, as pigging out is no longer an option for me. If I do, I'll feel really sick. I actually put together a little plate for myself with about a mouthful of everything that I had prepared, bar the cakes. I actually did alright and although I didn't finish everything on said plate, I felt really comfortable without feeling that I overdid it.
My sister now says that she eats like a pig compared to me, because I eat so little.
I was going to update my photos today and add the 6 months front and side profiles along with the pre op and 3 month comparisons, but our plans to go out tonight have fallen through, as I was going to take a pic of me looking half decent for once (the only time you'll likely see me wearing a dress LOL). I might take one tomorrow morning before I leave for work. Depends on my mood.
Hope all is well with everyone and you all got spoilt for Christmas. As I may not post prior to New Years (most likely no), hope everyone has a good one and stays safe.
So today I get a phone call from my surgeons rooms.
My surgery will have to be postponed until 26 June (original date 12 June), as my surgeon is going away on yet another conference.
A bit disappointed and a bit relieved.
I just hope I don't get another phone call telling me the date will have to be changed again.
Up. Yes you read correctly. Up. Don't know what the hell is going on here, but I've gained. I'm eating the same amount as I have been (barely anything), yet I've gained.
My period is overdue a week (no, I am not pregnant), so that might have something to do with it. I hope it does.
Seeing my surgeon on Monday for a check up, so hopefully I will have lost it by then, at least on my scales. His scales seem to show less of a loss.
I went to my doctor last week about my back (I had such severe pain that I could barely walk and was feeling very nauseas and on the verge of passing out at home). The receptionist there kind of did a double take as she didn't realise it was me. I work there, but on weekends, so we rarely see each other. He prescribed be anti-inflammatories and pain relief.
When I got home, my uncle was there and he recommended I go see a chiropractor, so I went the following day as I couldn't get in that day.
Anywho, he diagnosed me as having a leg length discrepancy of 1.5cm on the right and dodgy right sided back muscles. He said he was surprised that I didn't have issues earlier. I told him I have, but not to the extent that I struggled to walk. I remember when I was in the US with my cousin 2 years ago, I was sitting on a bench and went to pick up the multitude of shopping bags off the ground and I couldn't straighten up again. I had to remain like that for a few minutes until the spasm resolved.
Been seeing him now for about a week and slowly things are improving. Not cheap at $50 a visit, bit if it helps, then I'm all for it.