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On my way to finding me again...

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8 months down the track...

Plateau city here. Have been AWOL for some time because I haven't felt there was anything to say or add. Nothing very interesting in no movement at all. Was 67kg at my 6 month Bandiversary in mid November, and have merely jumped up and down and up and down again... the same 2kg coming and going ever since. I've lost 20+ kg, but still have about 10kg to go to get to goal. I thought I'd be there by Feb. But it's looking more likely that I will make it my 12 month goal now (Mother's day)... and not my Valentine's Day goal as it was initially. I realise there's no time limit, but being stagnant is just boring.

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

24 weeks post banding. 68% toward goal.

Just another update... Date: 15/5, 16/6, 16/7, 16/8 , 30/9, 3/11 Bust: 118.5, 113.5, 110, 108, 103, 102 Waist: 110, 102, 95, 92, 86, 84 Hips: 124, 116, 110, 109, 102, 100 [R] arm: 35, 34, 33, 32.5, 30, 29 [L] arm: 34, 33.5, 33, 33, 29, 29 [R] thigh: 64.5, 62.5, 58.5, 58.5, 56, 53 [L] thigh: 65, 63, 58.5, 58.5, 55, 53 [R] calf: 42, 40, 40, 40, 39, 39 [L] calf: 42, 40.5, 40, 40, 39, 39 Neck: 39.5, 38, 37, 36.5, 36, 35

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

20 weeks down (almost) - 56% of excess weight lost so far.

Been a bit slack recording these, but good to have a look at them. Just updating... Date: 15/5, 16/6, 16/7, 16/8 , 30/9 Bust: 118.5, 113.5, 110, 108, 103 Waist: 110, 102, 95, 92, 86 Hips: 124, 116, 110, 109, 102 [R] arm: 35, 34, 33, 32.5, 30 [L] arm: 34, 33.5, 33, 33, 29 [R] thigh: 64.5, 62.5, 58.5, 58.5, 56 [L] thigh: 65, 63, 58.5, 58.5, 55 [R] calf: 42, 40, 40, 40, 39 [L] calf: 42, 40.5, 40, 40, 39 Neck: 39.5, 38, 37, 36.5, 36

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

17 weeks post-op, 53% to goal

Another visit back to the Clinic today; only (a bit over) a two week break, thanks to my 'not losing quickly enough' last visit with the GP there... Apparently 1.9kg in the previous 4 weeks was not kosher, and I was given a slap over the wrist. Well, today she was loving me! I lost 3kg in 16 days; so I'm now a champion loser. Don't go all postal on me now, but it may have something to do with limiting my calories to 1000-1050/day. Sorry if all the naysayers wish to advise that it's 'too low' or will 'slow my metabolism' blah blah. Guess what?! It's working for me. The GP believes that 1200 is MY maintenance intake level! and that if I'd like to continue to lose weight, then 1000-1050 is the right number FOR ME. So, am sitting at 72 flat; and after 17 weeks that means a loss of 16.7kg (53% to goal). I will continue to aim for a kg per week, as am finding this is the right pace for me. Still on track this way to meet my second goal, of losing 20.5kg by 15/10 (5 months post-op). Now have 5.7ml in my band too. Just keep going...

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

40% there... but still feeling frumpy

So I'm having a bit of a down day today... Have been looking at old photos, and recent shots too... though there are not too many of the recent variety, as I've preferred to stay behind the camera for a while... for obvious reasons. I've loaded a couple of comparison shots in my gallery... the worst before pic (at heaviest) I could find, and one where I set the camera up to do an update recently. I know I've lost 13kg, but I still look at this recent pic, and think UGH. How did it get so bad? I know comparatively I am a lot smaller than many, but it's all relative, and when I've spent the better part of my life size 8-10... to look at this pics is downright confronting (I refuse to let it be depressing). I also know it's just a matter of keeping on track, following the guidelines, and aiming for between a 0.5-1kg loss each week... and the rest will happen, but I dunno what's up today. Perhaps I'm getting a bit bored. I'm certainly impatient. I just wish it would all happen a bit quicker. Have been doing some word rhyming too... frumpy, dumpy, lumpy, bumpy :-(

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Eeeeek can't eat :-(

So I've been reticent to admit it... but I think my band has too much fill in it :-( I've been avoiding the issue, because I don't want to have a loose band, and then visit hunger city again... But I've really been kidding myself for a week. Had a top up a week ago, at which time the surgeon said he thought I was 'close' to the sweet spot... But because I'd still been waking up hungry and looking for food every 2 hours, then he agreed to top me up. But just like Milton the Monster... Ooops! Too much! Seems like I got the six drops of essence of terror, as I didn't even consider that my aching left shoulder and ear was related. Hmmmm seems it is. The (point)five drops of sinister sauce has meant I wake up unable to eat anything at all until midday. Not too shabby I thought, as I can deal with coffee and nice warm drinks til lunch every day... but then today, nada! Couldn't keep down baked beans, cottage cheese, banana (my morning staples) and even the tub of yogurt I ate at 11:30 was dodgy. Have been PBing tons of slimey mucosa, which is doing wonders for the stainless steel, but hurting my insides. So back I go... Not really wanting them to take much out at all, but best I get myself back to Horror Hill for a touch of tenderness before it's too late and I fade away... yeah right.

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Slowly slowly

Well I'm not so sure I'll be making that goal of 5.1 kg for the month, but I will keep trying. It's taken me 3 weeks to lose about half of that [2.4 kg], so I'm sure I'll be pushing it uphill to lose the rest in the remaining 9 days of July... I'm a bit surprised that my weight loss has been so slow really, after all the changes I've made. I'm limiting myself to 1050 kCals per day now, and eating good healthy food, with limited carbs, fats and dairy... increasing protein and healthy options 95% of the time. I have no clue how many calories I'd have eaten pre-banding, but it must have been somewhere in the vicinity of 3000 per day, and most of it coming from carbs and fat.... hence my confusion over why the weight is not coming off a bit quicker when I've done a complete overhaul of my diet, and really do eat like a bird now!! :-/

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Curious about WLS plus 'organised' diet plan

I know most people hate the dreaded D word...and I did post this is an old thread... But I'm putting it in here, as I'd like to get some rational input, without being berated for using the word Diet !!?! Mostly though, when I posted into that old thread, I think I was talking to 'ghosts', as it seems the people who had posted into the thread earlier (years before) have all moved along... Anyhoo... I am curious to know if anyone has had WLS and THEN gone on to try losing weight via a "diet plan"?? I'm not thinking anything like following the instructions of the dietitian, but more rigid and organised commercial type plans. I'd read a bit about Cohens, Atkins, Paleo etc before I was banded, but never did the plans/programs. I understand that the company push is non sustainable, so I'm not looking for opinions on the various "diets" out there... but has anyone with a lapband then done Cohens for example? I'm curious to know, if the major stumbling block with these commercial diets is hunger/deprivation, then would a 'bandit in the green zone' be able to do it 'easier'?? Anyone done this or gone this path?? Ta - Just curious :-D

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Stats - month by month changes

Been a bit slack recording these, but good to have a look at them... Start: 15/5, 16/6, 16/7, 16/8 , 30/9 Bust: 118.5, 113.5, 110, 108, 103 Waist: 110, 102, 95, 92, 86 Hips: 124, 116, 110, 109, 102 [R] arm: 35, 34, 33, 32.5, 30 [L] arm: 34, 33.5, 33, 33, 29 [R] thigh: 64.5, 62.5, 58.5, 58.5, 56 [L] thigh: 65, 63, 58.5, 58.5, 55 [R] calf: 42, 40, 40, 40, 39 [L] calf: 42, 40.5, 40, 40, 39 Neck: 39.5, 38, 37, 36.5, 36

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Fill #3... Happier today.

So, it's 3 weeks 'til my birthday; I'll be 32 and some months (many many months) LOL... and I have it in mind that I will be at 75kg by then (2/8). That's 3.8kg in 22 days. Pretty sure I can do it. Went in for fill no.3 today - at my own request. Have basically felt hungry since last fill was done on 25/6. Been grazing and snacking, despite doing all 'the right things' with meals. So my surgeon's associate agreed that I hadn't lost enough weight, especially after 2 previous fills, so another 0.5ml went in today... taking me up to a total of 5ml now. Feels ok for now, after I've had some cottage cheese with banana and then some low fat custard for lunch. Though I am experiencing some nausea and feel VERY tired today after this fill... not something I've experienced after a fill previously. Am still loving MyFitnessPal app. which keeps me accountable, most of the time. This is such a learning experience, and my head is slowly coming around. I'm loving the new found interest that I have in my body and what it is telling me. It's amazing how I ignored its cries for help for so long. Just a measly 100g until I can proudly say, "I've lost 10kgs"... to myself anyway (secret bandit)!! But am starting my new exercise plan on Sunday morning... it's pretty simple, and I'm borrowing Michelle Bridges' moniker to get me going: "JFDI". No, not some weird Star Wars themed acronym... It stands for: JUST F#€*NG DO IT !! Really needs to be my theme for life. So, JFDI !

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Falling short on protein...

High Protein, Low Carb & Low Fat snacks... Does anyone have any suggestions how I can boost my protein intake (needing to get up to about 80g per day), without having to drink protein drinks ?? I am also gluten intolerant, so can't add oatmeal etc to my meals or eat a lot of those chemical laced 'chocolate' bars... I had a look at the protein snacks (low carb, low fat) in the health foods section at Coles and didn't think that they looked band-kosher i.e. some of them were very 'fibrous' looking! Any suggestions, apart from baked beans would be appreciated. ** Also, please don't simply tell me to search through old posts, as I have done this, and there is nothing regarding snacks... I guess as most banders are told not to snack. Thanks

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

The little piggy who broke her cherry !! LOL

OK. This is obviously not something to be proud of at all... and apologies to those who find the title of this blog a little 'crass' !! But yesterday saw me experience what I suppose was my first 'stuck' moment. Not great news or anything very interesting for anyone else, but as this is my journey... it was certainly a learning experience for me after being banded for only 5 weeks. So the offending food item (which shall remain anonymous) was heartily scoffed, as I went into "anxious eating mode"... Usually precipitated by certain company (also to remain anonymous). Yep, stuck and stucker. I simply did not chew enough or eat slowly enough.... Scoff scoff scoff = stuck stuck stuck. Trouble was, I couldn't shift it. So the incident occurred at about 5pm, and I was still in pain at bedtime. Now it's tomorrow already, and there is still some referred nerve pain up into my chest and upper oesophagus area. Quite sure there's nothing there now, as I've been able to get through a bottle of water in that time, and also went back to Optifast this morning without any problems or PBing. So am guessing I have some residual swelling of sorts, thanks to being a little nervous piggy and forgetting myself for a moment. Time to go back to liquids for a day or two, and hope the sensation of something being stuck in my throat dissipates. I have a follow up with surgeon booked for this Wed anyway, so a chat and an examination is on the cards there too. Clearly it takes a while for little piggies to get their heads right! :-P

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Little arms, big soul

My beautiful little bundle of fun (7 yo DD) put her arms around me tonight to say goodnight, and linked her fingers together. She remarked, "look Mummy, I can get my arms all the way around you. Wow". Have never kissed her so much!!! Must now remember to take my measurements, and see how things are changing. Hunger still reduced thanks to Friday's fill... can see now, that I will look forward to getting this whole process moving along with extra fills. It actually works !!!

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

First fill - 4 weeks post-op

I think it was safe to say that I was quietly sh!tting myself this morning, as I headed off to see the surgeon for my first 'fill'. I am still quietly miffed that he keeps referring to me as one of his "skinny ones"; I know what he means, but my BMI was 36 & I am still about 25kgs overweight (and still considered obese). So, I asked him politely not to call me skinny again until I was 60kgs. He was happy with the loss of 6.9kgs in 4 weeks (so am I)... But now need to really try! Ha! Like I've not been ?!?! Anyhoo, With an added 1ml. in the band (now 4ml. total) I will try try try try to not snack, and ensure that my daughter's snacks are kept away from me on the school pick-up drive home. That's where I've realised a LOT of sneaky calories do get "past" me !! it's simply mindless eating in the car! I considered it innocuous for such a long time, as I was simply eating up her leftovers and scraps right?? uh ahhhh No, it's snacking, no matter what the geography or simple rationalisation. So, now armed with 4 mls. I am back to being a gas bag, having had a cup of tea for brekky only, and a bowl of plain chicken broth for lunch. What is it with all this GAS ?!?!? So, fluids for the rest of the day, then a weekend of mushies, then back to 'normal' on Monday - all going well. Have developed a chesty cough this week too, so walking around the river first thing in the morning is off the menu for me, until that passes. Unfortunately, with a compromised immune system, I just can't risk getting pneumonia. Oh well, off to have a choc'o'lait... My little choc indulgence once per day! Onward and downward...

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Solid Gold

Day 17... A weekend of eating some 'solids', and up goes the weight by 1kg! Just may have to give my friend Coloxyl Senna a call; not in a weird, obsessive Bulimic kind of way, but in that old, I feel like an over-inflated balloon kind of way. Winter has arrived, and has it what in Melbourne! It is Cold, wet and yuck! A perfect day to cook up some healthy, chunky soups for the coming weeks. I'm pumped for a big month, after I had got down by 6.2kgs this time last week... and then put that 1kg back on :-( Thought as JoanneJ reminded me, the cm's will go some weeks, even if the kgs don't. I did catch myself in the mirror this morning and thought that exact thing. The area around my ribs is getting smaller! However, I know that I need to stop snacking, as I'm finding I can pretty well eat what I want right now.... Soooo back to basics this month and to revisit my mental state to slow everything down again; then I can look forward to a BIG June effort. I have one dinner and another 'outing' during the month, but with most of my pain now gone and incision sites all healed, I'm going to add some exercise in there too! Eeek!!! I will aim for a conservative 4.5kg loss for the month of June, but would be happier with 6kg. We'll see... Most likely will receive the first band fill adjustment on June 13th as well (currently holding 3ml.) Starting weight for this month's June challenge: 83.5 kg Onward and downward.

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Ups and downs

So have decided I need to STOP weighing myself daily. The daily variations are killing me... Down 800g, up 600g, down 1kg, up 500g. New resolution: weigh in once per week only! Going well with cooking and eating smaller meals, sourcing all sorts of healthy comfort foods, if there is such a thing. Made a fabulous chick pea and sweet potato Moroccan tangine yday, which was nom nom nom. Weight Watchers winter warmer recipe if anyone is interested. Still feeling a little hungry in between meals and after dinner, but getting through by finding non-food related activities... organising photos, craft, painting, giant clothes chucking! Sounds like some new quantum theory, but no, just good common sense. Where has mine been for the last 6 years?! Yes, went through WIR and threw out everything, bar 3 winter tops, which were labelled size 16 or above. So now there is no turning back, and nowhere to hide! Had to laugh this morning after a visit to the dentist; she suggested I spend the rest of the day eating soft foods, just until the teeth settle! LOL no problemo!! Day 13 and doing ok.

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

Graduated to soft & mushy

Ahhhh never thought I'd be happy to see baked beans! But there you go! Am following the recommended 2 weeks of mushies 'diet'.... So Started the day with scrambled eggs (2) which weighed about 160g. total when cooked up... In the end I only managed 125g. before feeling completely stuffed! I guess the recommended serving size of 1/2 cup or 125g. has been worked out for a reason! Then the same with lunch (baked beans) & dinner (home made low-fat veggie lasagne)... I dished up 150g. for myself, and left a few spoonsful in the bowl... Only to be gobbled up by my 7yr old DD - who promptly complained it was cold! Well yes goldilocks! That's what happens when you're nibbling away for 20-30 minutes.... All in all, the fear of eating I have had for a few days has resolved... And now I can ditch the coloxyl senna Sooooo much better.

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

 

One week down...

One week and a day post-op, and feeling like I can do this today! Have had doubts and the obligatory WTF have I done? moment (at about day 5)... But doing ok. Also buoyed by the fact that the scales tell me I'm 5kgs lighter. Yes, fluid, I realise. But I'll still take it! Am a little scared to transition off the liquids tomorrow... but planning ahead with meals ought to help. Felt like I od'd a bit on liquids last night, and felt really bloated :-(. That old 'over eaten' feeling is something I want to avoid from here on. Seems as though I have turned into a 'feeder' though!! Have cooked fried rice, lasagne and a pie (for the family of course) over the last 3 days! They are loving the fact that I appear to be living vicariously through them, for now anyway. Hmmm. Currently baking a cauliflower 'bread' substitute that is totally carb free, low fat, high protein and with lactose free, low fat cheese. Will have to see how that goes down tomorrow... soft foods fun to come! Onwards and downwards...

Little_Birdie

Little_Birdie

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