So, I weighed myself today and was 119kgs. I am so upset with myself because I was 112kg last year and the year before even thinner. I just keep gaining weight and even though I have my surgery in 6 days (January 7th 2013) I can't help but feel like I will never look "good" because even if I lose the weight I will have horrible loose skin. I really am afraid of surgery and removing loose skin is something I don't know if I could go through. I am just praying my body will bounce back and I won't have the problem.
My goal weight is 57kgs ( I am short 157cms) but I'd be happy to be 70kgs by December 2013 and lose the remaining kgs a bit slower.
Anyways, I feel so crap because I let myself gain so much. I just couldn't say no to my sweet tooth or it seems I have a mouth full of sweet teeth. I guess I am writing this because I feel utterly hopeless, like I am in a lose - lose situation.
Trying to remain positive but I can't help but think of this crap. arrg