Yesterday I found out my sister had been granted the sleeve operation on the public system, we both applied at the same time and I ended up with the band and was moved to a different hospital. I had been told that there was no sleeve op on the public system, I had asked for the sleeve. My sister was told yesterday that the hospital now does 70% sleeve and 30% bands. Of coarse I felt quite let down by this as her docotr also said they prefer to do the sleeve for the country patients because of the hassle of travelling back and forward for fills etc. So I was quite peeved by this. It sort of sent me into a real mood about the whole thing. Don't get me wrong, I have no issues with my band and I truly appreciate having it done on the public system.
I guess I really couldnt see how far Ive come in a short time. I've lost 20 kilos, 8 since my operation 6 weeks ago yet I just could not see how much difference it was making apart from clothes being a little less tight. Very few people have noticed my weight loss because I am so big. I only have 1 mil in a 10 mil band so I guess the best is hopefully yet to come.
In all honesty I don't know why this upset me. I know my sister would probably be a crap candidate for lapband, she has many more health issues than me and the sleeve may just be the only thing that will help her, yet I felt, I'm ashamed to say jealous!!! In reality I don't want a bigger operation with more risks and more time off work yet I allowed myself to put the sleeve on a pedestal as someone wisely said to me on these forums last night.
Anyway, after a bit of soul searching last night and this morning I decided that I have to try and get more motivated and make this band work really well for me.
Up until 6 months ago for the last three years I have swam laps and done water aerobics, In a year or so I only managed to move about 10 to 12 kilos. Then an ankle injury put a stop to it and I slowly let my membership lapse and stopped going to the pool altogether. Of course any weight I lost had returned anyway as I just could not do much and the increased weight made for more pain.
Well this morning I rejoined the aquatic centre. I walked in and slipped into the pool and it was amazing, the laps Id struggled with a few months back because I was at my heaviest now seem effortless, I swan around 20 laps! I was going to leave it at that but my past aerobics trainer saw me and said "Oh you have turned up for my tough class" !!!! What could I say, I joined in, and yes it was really tough but I finished a 45 minute workout in a class Id never attended before because I just could not keep up. I can only attribute this to the 20 kilo loss. After my trainer came up to me and said "you look as if you have lost a bit of weight" that made my day, finally someone could see it!
So I now feel quite motivated about the band, and if there are future problems with it, so be it. I will cross that bridge when it happens or if it happens. I just added up my calories for the day so far and my exercise has cancelled out everything I had to eat and given me extra for the day as well. This exercise thing is going to be a big bonus and I plan to do laps and aerobics now three days a week! I still cant get over how much difference that 20 kilo has made.