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The Decision to try again

beccymay

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Wow. Having had a lap band that I had put in in late 2006 and for years regretting the choice I made due to frustrations of not being able to eat foods that I felt I should eat (no not talking bout bread or red meat) I'm talking any green vegetables no matter how they were prepared and any fruit. My tiny pills I have to take every day would sit there and not go down for 4-6 hrs and the ones at night would give me terrible pains all night long. I think a lack of good support also played into it with dieticians telling me "you cant expect to lose weight like that with your thyroid and other health problems". My thoughts were why did I get this stupid thing to begin with. I had a horrible year 2013 and 2014 with more health problems and surgeons who removed mostly all the fluid from my band so I could eat normal food to then refusing to remove my gall bladder to my preferred surgeon successfully removing my gall bladder but discussing options with me of putting some fluid back into the band and giving it another go. I was reluctant and the surgeon has said that it sounds like things were not adjusted to the right level last time but I'm still feeling reluctant so I tell the surgeon I wanted to give myself the 6 months to the end of the year to see if I could maybe move some of the weight without the fluid in my band. Well it is coming up to xmas. I am probably 20kgs heavier than I was when I had my gall bladder out 6 months ago (even with losing 10kg b4 the surgery) I am looking at a xmas at the largest I have ever been with a need to lose probably 90kgs and I am at this point not able to budge the scales in the negative direction. I know more exercise would help but with my health and to be honest my size at the moment exercise really isnt an option or something I can see myself doing enough of to move the weight. I want to go back to the years in my late teens and early 20's when I knew there was something wrong because being someone who has always been a bit curvey but never obese overweight and thinking something isnt right here, im not well instead of the path I took not caring about getting worse and hoping that my health that was depleating would kill me before anyone caught on to me being sick. For the first time in my life I put on weight and boy did I put it on 60+ kgs in what seemed like 6 months. Finally my coma like state brought on attention from my oblivious parents and I was luckily diagnowed with hashimotos (an under active thyroid) dr told me I was lucky to get to it because it was on a path to killing me. Since the diagnoses in 2006 I had the lapband pretty soon after in that year and things just seemed to go downhill.

Sorry about the long post in this blog but I wanted to give you some background on me and my previous journey of the lapband 1.0 I am now making the decision to take the local surgeon (who is not the surgeon who did my lapband or took out all the fluid a year ago) to start fills again and adjust this band to a appropriate adjustment for me to lose some of this weight. I have my appointment I scheduled 6 months ago coming up in january and I am definitely leaning towards saying "yes lets give this thing I spent a lot of money on 8 years ago another try".

I will keep you posted on my journey (lapband 2.0) in this blog and am hopeful of a more successful journey this time.



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Hi beccy

Nice to read a very forthright and frank blog entry. Band 2.0 has to be better for you, in my eyes. You had the dry run first, it sounds like hell but now with take two, it's your turn to show it who is boss. 

Btw I see no need to apologise for long posts. Type away! Thanks for sharing :)

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Thanks for the comments of support. I already feel better about this time around. I am spending New Years with my best friend and even though he used to get annoyed at how slow or little I ate last time around I feel he will support my decision to try again because I am in such a better frame of mind this time to do it. I will add to this blog when my appointment comes up late jan next month.

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If your bf finishes first and bitches you aren't finished cause you are going slow, just slide food onto his plate. Then it keeps him quiet and it's less on your hips!!

 

That's what I do lol! Works a treat ;)

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Back on the wagon for me too! I stalled for a while there...

 

I also have exercise issues due to injuries [i have nooooo balance and I'm constantly spraining knees and ankles!] but there is a lot of stuff you can do sitting in a chair at home. Just google "seated work-outs" and maybe that could help you get started. I've been doing a lot of water walking/swimming in heated pools to help with joint pain and get me moving a bit more. And seating kettlebell weight or resistance band stuff that I can do without having to go to a gym.

 

Don't get me wrong - I HATE exercise. But I'm telling myself "More muscle burns more fat". Even 10 minutes is better than nothing!

 

You can absolutely do this! Don't even think about 90kgs - just think about the first 5 :)

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