Where to begin? This is my second blog for today and I promise I'm not obsessed and I did have human contact today so I shouldn't need to ramble as much as I did this morning BUT, I just wanted to write about my experience in telling my mum about the banding before I forget all the key details!
So, usually when I have something big to tell her I obsess over it for a while, we are close but thinking about what her reaction might be to this news was actually scaring me! So I went around there and it took me probably about an hour and a half to get it out! I had no idea what to say... Hey mum, I'm getting lap banding! (no beating around the bush) I'm going under the knife!! (too dramatic!) I made an appointment to see the doctor about lap banding? (too long!!) None of it sounded right, so I figured now or never when I realised time was running out before our house mate arrived home. So I said. Um... So I've been like researching.... and she's like oh yeah what? And I'm like ummmm lap banding? and she's like "oh" * insert projectile word vomit* " It won't work for you. You can't say no to food!" Just like that, BANG shot down in burning flames!!!!!!!
I was gutted. It was SO not the answer I was hoping for. I just could not believe that she wrote me off so quickly! Now my mum is the best mum in the world and don't get me wrong what she said was pretty brutal but I think it was just shock.
So I told her that I'd been on this website and that it's worked for these thousands of people and yes for some of them it hasn't worked but I'm determined to be one of the ones who it does work for.
So she's digesting this information as we speak, it was kind of awkward she went all quite and I was like SAY SOMETHING!! And she said she was processing and then we chatted about it some more and I really think she understands that this is all I have left, this is it. This lap banding is the one chance I have left to become who I have always wanted to be. A healthy, happy and skinny person. I deserve it, I'm sick of being " the fat one".
So, that's my story. I'm interested to see what tomorrow brings on the matter! I have sworn her to secrecy and we'll see if she can stand it. I'm sure it's eating away at her now as I type this!! She reckons she can keep a secret. Hmph. We'll soon see.
Thanks for listening Chums.
Ciao For Now!