Life is back to it's normal cruising along self, with everything bad happening in Australia (& the rest of the world) lately, I'd like to take the time to reflect and realise how much I am blessed with! I'm such a blessed person, I have everything I need and want and the worst that has ever happened to me hasn't been that bad, in the scheme of things. I appreciate my life, what I have and the people I have in my life.
Today has been a big day of disclosure for me, I told our housemate, my middle sister and one of my good friend about my decision to get lap banding. They were all very positive about it. I am so scared of telling my big sister as I really don't think she will understand but my mum says I might be pleasantly surprised. I'm not so sure. Should I wait and tell her in person or over the phone? Decisions, decisions!
She's very protective of me (I'm the baybeh!) but I also know she will want me to be happy and not live my life half heartedly. Maybe I'll tell her this week sometime!
I had an extremely late night last night, I was up looking for and testing music for a rest time CD I'm making for my little 2 year old cherubs to go to sleep to. I'm so proud of it! It's got the best mix of music, the girls I work with are going to LOVE it! Eeeeekkkk!! I love making people happy And on tuesday I'll be able to snuggle in and put the kids to sleep listening to it too. Love, love, love! Ahhh the simple things in life eh!
Today I went to Dome to have coffee and cake with my good friend B. She's so great! The poor girl had to listen to me gush all afternoon about a certain beautiful man! Poor girl, I kept saying to her, seriously if I'm getting to be too much, tell me!!! I feel like a bad friend and she said no no, keep going, this time is such a novelty and you should enjoy it so I'm not going to be bitchy and tell you to stop! Aww bless her lovely soul!! I ended up having the most MASSIVE piece of apple pie *froth* and it was literally to die for. Oh my goodness! The pastry! Kill me now! Haha It was sooooooo good. Ice cream and cream, doubly devilish I was today! Naughty naughty!! Today has been a day for just eating crap though, don't ya hate that! Socialising is sooo food involved! When I went to counselling the only helpful thing my lady said was that food is a drug like heroin, only it's everywhere and a fundamental thing to our survival so it's not something we can just live without. Huge battle!!
I've been obsessed with music for the last few days. I haven't listened to it properly in a while and it shows. I've been on my lap top for days with my earphones just nodding my head and getting my 'fix'. Yum. It's so good! I found new music that sounds like MGMT but a Kiwi band called The Naked And Famous. *froth* best songs! They are probably so old but I only just found them when I topped up my itunes. Me and music, yeah we're best mates that haven't seen each other for a while!
Anyways, currently my food weakness is two things. Nutella on white bread and frozen coke/raspberry fanta floats from Maccas. I don't eat much take away but my friend F does and he always swings by for a sesh on our front porch and brings my Meemah a latte and me a 'floke or flanta' as we call them hehehe muchness badness. I'm going to be so much bigger by the time I get my lap band, but I'm in such a free place it's so nice for once not to be worried about what's going in and I know that's bad but I just needed this time so much. It's so good to not be constantly obsessing over how much I weigh or how much weight I haven't lost even though I've been dieting like a demon!
So that's where I'm at. Content. We must always appreciate times like this for life can change in an instant. Today I am happy, tomorrow I could be devestated. We never know!
Love, Peace & Apple Pies with Epic Yummyness and to die for qualities!