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    Sunshine Coast, QLD
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    12+ Months Post-Op
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  1. Satellites

    Weigh In Wednesday

    Ok back again. I'm terrible with sticking to this weight loss wednesday thing. I have not lost any weight since I last posted a couple of months ago (sad) but I haven't gained so... at least that's something. 67.7 today. Back on the bandwagon. It's hard because it's so easy to sit at this weight.. I have a normal BMI, I'm not terribly chubby looking or anything and my clothes still fit. But I also know how great I feel at 63kg and how in the grand scheme of things, 5kg is nothing (??? so why is it so hard UGH), and I feel better about myself, it's just enough to make me look overall a bit slimmer and my clothes fit.. but better. So I'm trying to just remind myself of that when I just want to eat good food. I'm also on holiday at the moment before I start my internship in early Jan.. when I'm running around hospital all day it's easy to eat less. When I'm at home and a bit bored it's easy to eat way more! Anyway. I'll try to stick with this weight loss wednesday stuff from now on. I graduate next week and it would be nice to maybe have the scales show a little less just for that confidence boost you know, haha Congrats boganlicious and denzel by the way! I've just read your progress here and you've both done amazingly well in the last couple of months!
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    Weigh In Wednesday

    Weigh in today: 67.1 kg (500g loss this week) ------------------------------------------ Thanks denzel! I'm trying to look on the bright side... I only need to lose 5kg, not 50 anymore (like back when I started). Still.. those stubborn last kilos feel like the hardest! I think my problem is snacking. I've been tracking my calories and most of my calories come from snacking. So I'm really trying to not snack and if I do, just eat fruit or an egg or something. With so much downtime and study at the moment, it's so easy to snack. Still.. I can't fit into some of my favourite clothes so I need to use that as fuel to get back to the low 60s. I did it once, I can do it again. (also typo in my last weigh in entry! 67.6kg not 87.6! I have not managed to lose 20kg in the last 4 days haha)
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    Weigh In Wednesday

    Forgot to weigh in last weekend as my boyfriend was visiting, ate too much good stuff last weekend too. Weight this morning 87.6kg. 500g loss in ~2weeks. Not sure 500g actually counts as a loss but anyway. Had a bit of a cry yesterday morning.. just desperately want to get back to 63/64kg where I felt good about myself. I find this all incredibly distressing as it seems so difficult to drop the weight now. My body seems to like 68kg. I do not. Anyway. Powering on. Massive exam finals in 2 weeks and have banned myself from buying chocolate, but the stress and poor sleep probably doesn't help with weight loss.
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    Weigh In Wednesday

    Hello all. I am a veteran member I suppose.. 4 years since my sleeve. I've decided to try and post here to keep myself in check because I keep gaining and losing the same ~5kg. Last year I gained up to about 71kg, lost about 3kg, then went to a very poor country in Africa for a month and lost a lot of weight in that month (4.5kg), so I know I can still lose weight. Unfortunately I've gained 4kg of that back and am very unhappy. It's not much, but it's the difference between my jeans fitting nicely and feeling too tight, and I much prefer when they fit nicely haha. It gives me a sense of confidence and feeling "okay" about myself, although I've always hated my body (feels like I hate it even more now than I did at 110kg! Anyway. I'm starting today and aiming for a 4.5kg weight loss by graduation from medicine (FINALLY!) by december 5. I have bought a beautiful jumpsuit to wear and it is just slightly on the snug side so no choice but to lose it! Starting weight Sat 18/8 - 68.1kg
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    Weigh In Wednesday

    Congrats guys! Christmas is the season for putting on weight so if you haven't yet, that's a good omen for the rest of the year I reckon! Bit off topic (sorry!) but soul sister, I've basically maintained for a year now. When I saw Dr Baxter in mid-december, he was really pleased with my weight (he doesn't want me to lose anymore, I'm 10kg below what his "goal weight" was for me). He asked me what I ate and I basically eat whatever I want, I don't cut anything out, eat carbs daily and don't deny myself the good stuff like wine or chocolate. I did tell him that I think I have a personal "stop" sign.. when I overeat by even a little bit, I get very light headed and dizzy/need to lie down, and most of the time I'll get cramps about 20mins later and end up on the toilet for a while with diarrhoea (sorry of TMI!). Even though that sucks, it means that when I start feeling like I'm getting toward full, I just stop. It's not worth overeating for how crap it makes me feel. I really think its a very big reason why I've been able to maintain while still enjoying the foods I love.
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    Weigh In Wednesday

    63.2kg today.. not too bad considering it's been a while since I weighed in and I've been surrounded by the best that christmas has to offer! Feel like I can touch that 60kg mark though so that's my goal before June (I'm taking it easy )
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    Non Scale Victories (NSVs)

    Woo hoo! Made it through christmas and didn't overeat! Christmas is the worst for all the delicious things I love to eat and heaps of baking as well.. and I made it! Saw my surgeon just before christmas. He is very pleased with my weight loss and maintenance, I've basically maintained for most of the year. I told him I was upset not to have lost more last year, but he asked me how I eat and I said I basically eat what I want, stop when I feel its enough and don't restrict anything (ie I eat carbs, some junk food occasionally) and he said that's perfect. I really feel like I've learnt how to "listen" to my body.. I don't eat when I don't need to, only eat when I feel hungry (mostly.. stress/exam times are harder for this), don't overeat (helped by the fact that I get terrible vasovagal syndrome and 20 mins later will end up with crampy diarrhoea if I do.. good deterrent). Anyway he measured my body fat as well which was much lower than I expected (some days I feel like I'm 50% fat) and on the lower end of normal. This year I'm going to get some help with my own self esteem and view of my body. Most days I feel like I look in the mirror and all I see is large thighs, big arms, wobbly belly.. I feel like I'm a giant. It's really hard to leave the house on days like that and I know it's not right.
  8. Satellites

    Weigh In Wednesday

    Dr Baxter is so lovely isn't he! Congrats on being sooooo close to your goal! x
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    Weigh In Wednesday

    Thanks for the replies guys! I've been watching what I eat this week (made easier since my bf is trying to lose a bit of weight) and I'm down to 63.6kg this week, so a loss of 600g. I have my 12month follow up appointment with the surgeon in 2ish weeks so don't want to go there having gained weight haha! Hope you all have had a fantastic week
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    Weigh In Wednesday

    Haven't posted on this site in such a long time but I've put on a couple of kilos and just generally feeling crap about myself and my body so I thought I'd come back and post to keep myself in check. Exercise generally terrible and I cried when I put a bikini on.. my body kind of looks like a melting candle. I know I shouldn't say those things and I've been in trouble here before because I have such poor body image but that's what I feel like. So my other goals are: attempt to get more exercise in, hope it will make feel better about myself, work harder on not scrutinising every flabby bit of me in the mirror. Good luck to me haha Weight today is 64.2kg, ~2kg up since february. I have not yet made it to my goal of 60kg. Sorry for the whiny post! I just really needed to write it all down
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    Non Scale Victories (NSVs)

    Finished second year med school exams.. horrible, awful 4 weeks with 12 hours a day hunched over my desk BUT while I did eat SOME chocolate, I did NOT consume a bag of pods or maltesers a day. I am really proud of myself for that, I am a chocolate fiend and those exams are the hardest thing I have ever done so that is a proper victory haha
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    How many calories? + stalled :(

    Thanks! it is very hard to talk about things like that and I know I'm my own worst critic when it comes to how I look and I do have a lot of angst about that! But I'm trying not to have expectations that are unreachable and accept things like my stubby little legs are probably always going to look a little stubby and nothing like a gazelle
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    How many calories? + stalled :(

    Thanks kazbo! Will try to get my hands on it The "55kg" mark is an arbitrary milestone.. Sort of. It's a weight I've been previously and was very happy at, but it might not be what I get to this time. That's actually ok with me. I suppose what I should have said was that even though my BMI is 22 and I've hit the goals of the surgeon and the dietician etc, im still pretty unhappy with how I look. I still look soft, which I know is an exercise thing, but I also still look quite rounded and chubby. My frame is small and so extra weight really shows on me, even that 5 extra kilos. I'll be ok if I don't get to 55kg. But at the moment, I don't like the way that I look and I want to try to improve that. It might sound like a vain thing, but I want to like the body I'm in when I look in the mirror, when I wear a bikini or a short skirt; those things are important to me and I don't think there's anything wrong with that. Part of that is what I'm eating and part of that is exercise, to tone or workout what I already have. I'm working on both. Another part is my mind and how I see my body, I know that, and I don't try to tell myself I'm ever going to look like a supermodel, and I will probably always be a bit wobbly and that's ok with me too. It might be a struggle to maintain that goal if I get there and if that's the case, I'll have to decided what's more important to me later. Many people put a lot of work into maintaining how their body looks for their whole lives and I think that's ok. I guess what my rambling is trying to get across is that I want to be happy with how I look and I have not kept these goals (ie my weight or what I want to look like) hidden from my psychiatrist, dietician or surgeon and they do not seem to believe me to be trying to attain the unattainable. I hope I've managed to explain all that. I haven't been battling hunger these last couple of weeks, I think partly because eating lots of crackers etc makes me want more crackers, but eating cheese and meats etc keeps me satiated for much longer. I'm not on any kind of timeline for getting to my goal weight/body/me so I'm not depriving myself of good things totally.. just not indulging too often
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    How many calories? + stalled :(

    Also, the scales are showing just over 2kg loss since I posted this topic! Probably mostly water weight (turns out it was about that TOTM as well, ugh) but I don't doubt it's because I've changed up my habits as well, so thanks so much for the advice and encouragement, guys! Feeling much better and more positive about getting the last 5ish off!
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    How many calories? + stalled :(

    Once again, thanks for the responses guys! I've kept an eye on carbs over the last week or so and have made the effort to prepare for lunches/snacks etc which has made a huge difference. Unfortunately, the things that tend to be "on the go" seem pretty carb heavy so I've been making my own on the go food as was suggested. Froody, thanks for the list. I think it is useful to consider those things, but I don't really think many of those questions pertain to me (at the moment at least!) aside from protein. I do drink with meals, meaning I take small sips every now and then throughout a meal. I've done that throughout my journey, because I just can't manage to eat without drinking. I like to separate the tastes sometimes, and sometimes I just need a sip. My surgeon knows this and has had no issues with it. I am still seeing him and he is very pleased with my weight loss, and does not believe I need to lose any more weight. I don't believe I've fallen off the bandwagon and I don't think that I'm having that many issues, aside from slowed weight loss and a tendency to reach for "easy" food. I'm frustrated because I'd like to be about 55kg, but my BMI is 22 currently so I don't actually need to be that weight. I have surpassed my surgeon's goal weight for me by more than 10kg and lost over 40kg in a year. Weight loss is going to slow, for all of us, because it's not possible to continue losing weight until 0kg. It's been said to me over and over that the 1.5yr mark is about the end of the "rapid" weight loss phase and I believe that to be true regardless of whether I eat 50 carbs or 100 carbs in a day. I know I need to be more aware of a tendency to reach for ryvita and the like, and am trying to keep my eye on it now
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