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  1. FreshStart2
    Hi All,
     I haven't actually logged onto this site for god knows how long. Years.
    Once upon a time...I was 112kg at my heaviest. Size 18..almost 20 if I'm 100% honest. It was 12months after my first child was born, and I was heavier than when I was pregnant with him! I underwent the gastric banding in Nov 2012. I stuck to the rules, ate the right foods, in the right portions, and did the right exercise. I managed to shed 37kg over the next 18months, to my lowest ever weight of 75kg (size 12), and I couldn't have been happier. I couldn't seem to get under that to reach my goal weight of 65kg but I was happy anyway.
    Unfortunately when I went back to fulltime work, an admin role, the weight started to creep back up. Juggling working fulltime as a FIFO mum was exhausting and I was become much less active. Sitting at a desk all day, indulging in the staff birthday cakes or treat lunches. I became complacent and put on about 10kg the first year I was there. Fast forward to Oct 2016 - I gave birth to my second child, and began a year-long battle with severe post-natal depression. Unfortuntely this resulted in the breakdown of my marriage as well, another reason for me to comfort-eat and not wanting to get out of bed. Between my depressive symptoms, having fill taken out (and not put back in) for my pregnancy, and various medications I was on, I piled the weight back on and I've found myself more or less back where I started.
    It's been a really rough 12 months. My youngest is now 18months old. Unfortunately I am separated (although not giving up hope), and I'm learning how to put myself first for a change.
    I joined a gym close to work late last year, and I go (amlmost) every lunchbreak for an hour during the week.
    I joined ParkRun - a 5km run (or walk) every Saturday morning, and I want to start learning how to run! My goal is to just beat my time every week, even if it's only by a minute.
    I applied and enrolled into university, something I never got to do after highschool, and come July, I will be starting a bachelor degree in Psychology. I'm so excited about this and see it as an investment in my future.
    I also am considering moving back to my home-state (WA) to be with my family again, after 7 years of living in Adelaide with my husband. I am hoping we will work things out and he'll come with me, but I'm preparing to go on my own (with the kids) if he won't.
    All of the above sounds like a lot to handle at once but I'm determined to make it happen. It's going to be the year of ME, and I'm trying to find myself again. I'm following my heart, feeding my mind and trying my hardest to regain my fitness. I'm starting over today on Optifast, 3x a day for 12 weeks for that kickstart I so desperately need. I'm also planning to make an appointment and reconnect with my banding doctor, have a bit more fill put in and work with him to lose the weight again.
    Most importantly, I've rejoined this community to find the support and encouragement I've been missing he last few years as I struggled to control my weight on my own.
    This is Day 1....107kg, size 18
  2. FreshStart2
    Hi All,
    Just keeping up appearances (for myself more than anyone else).
    Yesterday I finally went back to my band GP for a fill. Whilst  have (generally) been doing well on Optifast again, after a bad week last week, I realise that when I am "bad", I am eating way too much for somebody with a band, as well as getting those hunger pangs between meals. So I bit the bullet and decided I need to be utilising my resources like I did in the beginning of my journey, and start seeing my band doctor regularly again for accountability.
    He put in about 0.75ml - to make an even 6ml. I didnt look at my weight as I only weigh once a month now and it's not weigh day! But I WILL be going back in a month's time to show him the progress I have made, and perhaps get another half a mil put in.
    Gym-wise -
    I took a naked selfie (from the back) after the gym the other day and realised I should be focussing more on my weight training than cardio - particularly on toning those areas that bother me.
    My stomach bothers me and I know I need to build my core strength with planks etc to help reduce that, but for now my focus is on my back! I genuinely HATE those rolls under the bra strap. In my limited 45minute gym time each day, I'm now focussing on the leg press (squats for my bum and lower back muscles), kettlebell deadlifts (lower back muscles), and lat pulldowns/support row machine (for my upper/side back muscles). If I focus for now on those areas that both me the most and see results in a few weeks (months), I can then move on to other problem areas such as my stomach and inner thighs.
    Has anybody  ever used a waist trainer and had any joy with it? I'm tempted to try it to train in but feel like it might just bee another money-making weight loss gimmick that you dont actually need. Might provide some back support though if I am to focus on those exercises.....
  3. FreshStart2
    So it's been a while since I've done an entry, and I'm in need of a vent so here I am.

    It's been 18months or so since I had my lapband put in. Around January/Feb this year, I was down to 74.5kg. My lowest weight since...I cant even remember being that weight. Down from 108kg. I had 70kg within my sights, I was doing quite well, getting prepared to walk down the aisle.

    My wedding was early April and since then I think I have put on about 5kg, maybe 6.5? I have been so slack and I really just can't find the motivation to get back on the wagon. I've been avoiding the scales, haven't been to see my doctor, and I'm not exercising. When I see myself say these things, I KNOW where the problem is. I need to go see my doctor, maybe get a fill, I need to start recording my weight again, and I need to get off my butt. I know that. But I just can't get my head around it at the moment. Winter isn't helping, I just want carbs and heat, and I don't know how to go back to the beginning at the moment. It seems so much harder right now.

    I can see myself gaining weight. the jeans that were too loose before, fit again, and I'm not happy about it. My suit that I bought for job interviews is getting just a little bit snug. Not happy. I can see those creases and rolls developing on my back and middle again. And I'm REALLY not happy about it. This should be motivation enough but I just don't know how to do it again.

    The worst part is that I don't think I actually need a fill. If I try to binge or scoff something too quickly, I can feel the restriction, or feel something get stuck, which tells me that I have enough fill, I'm just eating the wrong foods, and snacking when I shouldn't be. I'm starting to think that maybe I need to see somebody about my mindset with food and with my own self-image. Now that I'm not planning my wedding, and can't get work, I'm feeling a bit down about who I am and what I'm doing with my life. I know I'm a great mum but I feel like I've lost ME a bit. I'm tired of being at home all day, i miss my husband who works away, and I miss my friends and family who don't live here.
  4. FreshStart2
    So ive been AWOL for a while. Extremely busy over the holidays, and planning my wedding. Ive been going through a huge mental stall with my weightloss. My wedding dress is already a tiny bit big so ive been using that as an excuse to eat whatever I want. im so torn between wanting to lose more weight and needing to maintain my current dress size so my dress wont need to be alterred too much. Theres only so much you can alter a $1500 dress until it becomes unwearable.

    Anyway, my lowest weight so far (around christmas) has been 73.9kg. Im currently sitting back at around 76kg. I decided to go and get a fill because I was getting hungry between meals and physically able to eat too much. Im not even sure how much fill I have now, it must be up around 9ml now!! Eek! But I do think its helping, my interest in eating has dropped significantly in the last 2 days, although trying to keep hydrated enough in this heatwave is proving a challenge. To drink a minimum of 2L, I have that horrible "full" feeling all day. Its also reminded me a couple of times to slow down, which I havent really experienced until now. Fingers crossed this will be my sweet spot.

    Im really excited and looking forward to my wedding day but I'll be glad when its over and I can get on with reaching my goal weight. Id really love to get to my goal before we have another baby. And I REALLY want another one, very soon!
  5. FreshStart2

    I've been a bit inactive lately, been busy, but not doing the right things. I havent been following a diet of any kind, or exercising at all, and I'm starting to feel and see it.

    After another fill a few weeks ago, my hubby was on holidays, which is when my diet and exercise routine tends to fail a little. We went to a friend's wedding, where I got sick (gastro?) halfway through the night, could barely eat anything and had to come home early. I lost about 2kg being sick that weekend, and although I'm avoiding the scales like the plague, I'm 99% sure ive put that back on. We're moving into our new house this week (just bought our first home), and we've changed our wedding reception venue with 6 months until the big day. Amongst this we've also thrown our son a birthday party and been to a baby shower. He's gone back to work but I havent regained my motivation. Yet..

    Needless to say, I've had a lot on my mind the last couple of weeks and really been neglecting my weight loss journey. I'm starting to feel fat and gross again, and not liking what I see in the mirror, even though I have probably only gained a kilo or two, IF THAT. I think its in my head more than anything. I know that when I'm not exercising, I really lose the motivation to eat healthy and drink water, and I'm hoping that the warming weather will assist me.

    My baby, my son, he turns 2 tomorrow and I know how far I've come since this time last year. 1st October will be the anniversary is the day that I became really serious about improving my health. November 15th is the anniversary of when i received my lap band.

    If I can motivate myself enough to get in the right mind-set, I would really love to lose another 5kg before my 1 year anniversary. I have gone from 108kg, to about 76kg (assuming i have put on a kilo or so). If I could just done to 70kg, or even 69kg (my surgeon's goal), I know I could feel like my banding surgery has been a success. I know it has, dont get me wrong, but I would be ecstatic.

    Just have to get through another week of stress (moving) and then I need to climb back on the horse!

    P.S. Have attached one of the family photos we had taken a few weeks ago.
  6. FreshStart2
    We've finally reached where we've been trying to get for over 2 years. We've got a deposit and been pre-approved for a loan. The hard part is now actually finding the house!

    We put an offer on a house yesterday and after a long day of head games and trying to outbid another buyer, we finally drew our line and lost. We've emailed through an offer for another house we liked now, and will hopefully hear back about that today. Unfortunately we aren't as confident about getting this one as he wants a bit more for it. If the game is going to be played like yesterday, we just dont have very far to move this time.

    Trying not to get my hopes up but cross your fingers for us!
  7. FreshStart2

    I've lost 30kg, and that is fantastic, but I still have 10-18kg that I want to loose to get to a healthy weight.
    Whilst I have been doing exercise and changed my eating habits dramatically to lose this weight, I don't think that I have probably put 100% in, and still managed to lose.

    I think I've now reached the point where I will have to really work my butt off exercising to shift the rest of the weight, and the notion of that is pretty daunting. As a stay at home mum, I can do workouts when my son goes for his nap, but it can be hard for me to remain "active" throughout the whole day. There's only so much washing and cleaning and playing you can do before you just sit down and watch Peppa Pig on TV. And if you do managed to get in one whole "active" day....you have nothing to do for the rest of the week. Especially with the weather being quite cold and often wet.

    I've been doing LCHF for weeks and weeks now and only lost 2kg in the first week.

    I think I have to start counting calories....yuck.
  8. FreshStart2
    And when I say deflated....I mean I look like a deflated balloon.

    I'm really having issues with the loose skin drooping from my arms, thighs and belly. oh and of course..the boobs! I'm so happy to be losing weight but when I look in the mirror or have bare arms/legs, I cant help getting a little sad about the way my body looks. And I can't help thinking how much less I would weigh if the loose skin was gone.And how many dress sizes would I go down if it was removed. I can stand topless in front of the mirror, and pull the skin up and away from myself and see a nicely shaped little body underneath all that horrible skin (and some fat still).

    I really thought that losing all the weight would make me feel fantastic about myself but I guess there are still hurdles to jump through. I haven't lost as much as some other people on here, just 30kg, and I still have 18kg to go, so it will be interesting to see how I look at the end.

    I admit, I havent done as much toning as I could be, but I honestly don't believe that it would fix the problem anyway (maybe a slight improvement). And I cant afford to have the skin removed. With a wedding next year, trying to save for a house deposit and wanting to have another baby in the next year or two, I just cant see cosmetic surgery as a viable option in the near future.

    Having a lot of trouble this week with motivation. Ive been slacking on exercise cuz I just can't find it.

    Not really looking for any solutions here, just need to put my feelings in print and get it all out off my chest.
  9. FreshStart2
    Start Weight: 108kg
    Start BMI: 44.5
    Start Category: Morbidly Obese
    Start Size: 18 bottom / 20 top

    Current Weight: 77.9kg
    Current BMI: 32
    Current Category: Obese
    Current Size: 14 bottom (loose) / 16 top

    I hate hearing the word diet now. It gets throw around too much. The dictionary definitions for "DIET":

    1. food and drink considered in terms of its qualities, composition, and its effects on health.

    2. a particular selection of food, especially as designed or prescribed to improve a person's physical condition or to prevent or treat a disease.

    When I use the term diet, I am just referring to the 1st description. A conscious long-term change to my eating habits, not a temporary 3 week obsession with calorie counting and starvation.

    I have just started the LCHF/Ketogenic diet. It is based around the principle of cutting out carbs and sugar, and replacing them with healthy fats. Avocado, nuts, animal-derived fats, olive oil, etc.

    At first I was really hesitant about giving this "diet" a go, as it goes against everything that we have been told about saturated fat. But what I've learned from doing research on this way of eating, is that previous studies about saturated fats and its affect on the body were based on people who were eating on a high/er carb diet. (I could be wrong, but I am still new to this and still researching and experimenting, this is just my understanding so far).

    My understanding is that I can either eat carbs, OR fats, but not both. I choose fats. Its tastier, and more importantly, it's working...for me. It won't work for everyone. I am going to be monitoring my bloodwork/cholesterol etc to make sure I'm doing the right thing and not harming my body. But so far I have lost 2kg in the first week, I have plenty of energy, no headaches, and I am enjoying YUMMY food. Its much easier to follow when you don't feel deprived.

    I dont expect other people to understand it. I still have trouble with the concept myself sometimes. Some people say that they got a band so that they could eat normally and not have to constantly worry about their "diet". For me this will never happen. I am not naturally skinny. I will never be able to eat whatever I want and not worry about gaining weigh. I don't understand how this could ever be possible after having been almost 50kg overweight. Its just a ludicrous idea, in my opinion. For the rest of my life, I will be watching the scales and watching what I eat to make sure I never get back to that weight. I just can't do it.

    Anyway, I have lost 30kg. I have 18kg left to go to get to my goal weight. Perhaps I could even lose another 5 after that if I choose to. But then I will be able to start slowly re-introducing carbs into my diet and experiment with how much I can eat to maintain a healthy weight.

    My goal to was to be a comfortable size 14 or smaller for my wedding. I think it's definitely achievable
  10. FreshStart2

    I thought it was time for another entry.
    Its the 1st of April, I have 18 weeks until my appointment to give my measurements for my wedding dress. I'm setting myself a goal to lose 12kg by then. That's about 0.6-0.7kg A WEEK. I think its a reasonable and achievable goal. I would be happy with ten though, so I'm not going to be too hard on myself if I don't make 12.

    I have just bought myself a portion perfection bowl and plate, cuz ive been worried about my portions increasing. I have to have all my fill removed soon the have my wisdom teeth out under a general anesthetic. So in the meantime, I'm re-focussing on what im putting on my plate.

    Its been just over 4 month since my surgery.

    My start weight: 108 kg
    Surgery Weight:100.5 kg
    Current Weight: 81.7 kg
    Goal Weight: 60 kg

    My Start BMI: 44.5
    Current BMI: 33

    Overall I am so happy with my results so far. I feel much healthier, more confident in myself, and more attractive. So I've included some pictures of myself taken recently, just because I'm proud.
  11. FreshStart2
    Well im just writing this on my phone in bed so i'll make it short and sweet.

    - im past the 50% mark
    - my wedding plans are well underway, even have my dress picked and ordered.
    - ive lost 10kg since the doc saw me last so he was very pleased at my appointment.
    - after about a month hovering near 85kg, im down to 82kg.
    - i'm attributing that so being very unwell with infected wisdom teeth mixed with tonsilitis. When you live of liquids, antibiotics and painkilkers, i guess you're bound to lose weight.
    - i met my goal of losing the 6kg i wanted gone before Easter
    - if I can get those 2kg off I will be on the home stretch with 20kg to go (i wanted to lose 48kg in total).
    - 4 more and I'll have lost 30kg!!
  12. FreshStart2

    I love all of the responses to my blog posts, I feel great knowing that there are people out there who think of me as a role model or something to aspire to. But I want to make sure people know that by no means am I the poster girl for lap banding. I'm not perfect either, and I'm not always disciplined. At the moment I have plateaued again and I lost the last 2 kilo by doing Optifast for a week.

    The other day I took my son to the play cafe and I had a huge piece of caramel cheesecake.
    Earlier this week I was up at 3am getting him a bottle, and while I waited for his bottle to warm up, I ate half a chicken sausage in the fridge. I wasnt even hungry, it was just there.
    Yesterday I ate two pieces of banana bread with passionfruit cream cheese.
    When my hubby gets home I usually lose the motivation to do exercise for about 4-5 days.

    I don't want people to feel discouraged by my posts or like they are doing something wrong.
    We all slip up from time to time The important part is to just put those slip ups behind you and keep going.

    You can do it!
  13. FreshStart2
    3 months post op
    Highest Weight: 108kg
    Current Weight: 86kg
    Total Loss: 22kg
    Highest BMI: 44.5
    Current BMI: 35
    Clothing Size: 14-16 (but still wearing old 18 clothes, weightloss isnt cheap!)

    I'm nearly halfway there! Just 2 more kg and I will be at 50% lost. This is my first blog entry as a "Yummy Mummy" instead of the not so yummy mummy I was before. I feel like I am well on my way to feeling like a new, attractive and fitter woman, and I feel like I'm earning that title, whether other people think I'm yummy or not. My hubby does so thats the main thing.

    I've just done 7.5km on the exercise bike after a few days of slacking off. I've got Zumba tonight so I'm nice and energised for that now. I dont have a lot to say other than I am very happy with my progress so far and even though I often lose motivation when my hubby is home or I plateau, I get right back on the horse and get on with it. Everyday is a new day to try and do better than I did the day before.

    My mum is flying over to visit for 3 weeks next month and I'm excited to go and try on wedding dresses. I would have loved to get down to 80kg before doing that, but I think thats a bit out of reach. I wanted to lose 6kg before Easter, I've dropped 2 of those, so just 4 more kg to go

    Bring it on!!
  14. FreshStart2
    So I'm just sitting here with a hot cuppa. I've just taken my toddler to swimming lessons and he is now conked out in bed.
    Last night I went to Zumba, and the last 3 mornings I have been working out with some weights and doing my best on the exercise bike I had been neglecting. My muscles are sore. My hair is wet. But I feel amazing.

    I'm sitting here thinking about the changes I have made in my life over the last 3/4 months. I finally got serious about my weightloss and lifestyle changes at the beginning of October when I got back from a family holiday in Brisbane. It was fun going to White Water World at 108kg, but let's face it, it would have been MUCH more fun for me if I was 60kg...or even the 88kg I am currently. Since I returned, I knew that my surgery was approaching and I had to make some changes. So here are the ways in which I have changed, that I can think of..............

    - obviously my portions are much smaller than i used to eat. and i don't snack between meals anymore.
    - I dont eat carbs (usually) after 1pm. Pasta and rice, once staples of my diet, are now rare treats.
    - I cut any fat off meat before eating it. I no longer eat the skin off a roast chicken.
    - I stick to fish, chicken tenderloins, turkey and kangaroo. Occasional steak (half the portion obviously). I have completely gone off sausages, pork chops and other meats that look and taste fatty.
    - We don't have takeaway. Like ever. The only "takeaway" that I still crave on occasion is pizza, and I make it myself with fresh vegies, we never buy it.
    - I actually ENJOY coming up with new salad combinations and experimenting with vegetable recipes.
    - I use Natvia/stevia in my tea/coffee only. Skim milk only.
    - Always try to buy the "lite" or 99% fat free version. Or try to swap, e.g. evaporated milk instead of cream.
    - I don't drink juice (very often) or soft drink anymore.
    - We don't have dessert after dinner (unless we have friends over for tea. We dont buy icecream, pudding, anything. Dessert for me now is a cuppa and a sugarfree biccie. Or a Zuper Dooper on a really hot night.
    - I can say NO. I can say no when offered soft drink at my inlaws. No to cream on my dessert when we were entertaining last week. NO to free tastings at the shops. NO to tasting a cake pop my SIL made (her first try).
    - I've stopped baking. I love making cakes, slices, desserts...but they were just too much temptation and I had nobody to give them to, so it was just easier to stop.

    - I no longer circle the carpark looking for one closest to the door. I am happy to walk a bit further.
    - I was walking once, sometimes twice daily (I'm currently giving my exercise bike some love every day instead).
    - I began doing Zumba once a week and i LOVE it. Would really like to do it twice a week if I can find a babysitter for Monday nights.
    - I just bought a dumbbell set and every morning/midday I am doing exercises to help tone my arms and build muscle.
    - I weigh myself. I have avoided the scales for SO long because I was afraid of the number. Now I am excited to see how much I weigh, or how much I have lost anyway. I see now how important it is to weigh yourself, look in the mirror, take pictures of yourself to monitor your weight. when you avoid these things, you never realise how big you have actually become and it gets out of control!
    - I've put my toddler back in swimming lessons (weather was warmer for him) its good exercise for me too!
    - My sex life has improved. Not that it wasnt great before (I am still 22 after all) but I am feeling much more confident and healthy? I guess. Not sure how else to describe that.
    - My fiance has started eating healthier and going to the gym at work. He is slimming down a bit too and trying to (keep up) I am so proud of him, not for keeping up but for realising that he too could use the exercise to stay healthy.
    - I'm looking forward to buying new clothes. In particular, DRESSES. I am getting really excited to go and try on wedding dresses. I dont think my legs are THAT bad anymore and I would like to start wearing shorts and dresses.
    - I actually want to take more care of my appearance, in ways I havent tried before. They include having a professional body massage, get a bikini wax, have my eyebrows shaped, and getting a spray tan. 3 out of 4 require some clothing removal.
    - I'm no longer so shy in the changeroom at the pool. I cant be bothered hiding beneath my towel, struggling to get changed so nobody can see. Today I just walked in, whipped off my clothes, quickly dried and dressed, turned around so I couldnt see if anybody was looking. And it only took me 10mins instead of my usual 30!

    I'm sure there are other things that I cant think of right now.
  15. FreshStart2
    Hello people.

    I'm stuck on 90kg. Plateaued. BUT, I'm pretty sure I know why.
    - havent been on my daily walks
    - have been skipping meals or not eating the right thing. And by that I mean for dinner last night instead of my usual salad and chicken tenderloin I had two small sausages.

    Today I have only had a coffee and two sushi handrolls. And not two in one sitting, I had one for lunch and having one now lol. So when my hubby gets home Wednesday, I'm going back to walking in the morning, (i know i always say that), and going back to more salad. Im not eating junk, just have stopped eating the salads/vegies i was before.

    BUT, even thought the scales arent moving I had to do something to lift my spirits, so I went to BIG W and had a look through their pathetically small clothing range. I grabbed a pair of the $9 Emerson jeans i always wear, in a size 14....yes, not the 16 that I'm currently wearing. I then went to the bras and found a pretty one in a 16C (not the 18/20C I was the last time I bought a bra).


    I didnt buy them, I had no money lol, but I just wanted to see for next time. So I've gone from the size 18 Emerson jeans to the 14 (even if my fat does look worse spilled over the side), and gone down in bra size as well. I'm thankful for that. Next time I buy bras I will be happy to look for the 16. Its great to see a loss on the scale but nothing compares to being able to go to the shops and find something that fits (that you WANT to wear) in a smaller size.

    I still can't wait for the day when I can buy a size 12 top. My top has always been bigger than my bottom so my goal is to be wearing size 12 tops. Until then, I can smile a bit more today.
  16. FreshStart2
    8 weeks banded
    Highest Weight: 108kg
    Current Weight: 90.5kg
    Current Fill: 6ml in 10ml band
    Total Loss: 18.3kg
    Highest BMI: 44.5
    Current BMI: 36
    Clothing Size: 16-18 and getting loose!


    So I had my second fill today. Dr Sabine was very happy with my progress, having lost 10kg since my surgery day (in 7.5 weeks) and 18kg altogether. Since I have done well and didnt really feel like i needed one, he only put in 1ml. I've only sipped on water and up'n'go so far, but so far, so good. I'm really hoping that this will be my "sweet spot" since I felt great and not hungry before, but felt I was able to eat a little too quickly. I don't WANT a stuck or PB moment, but I feel like if it happens, it might help make me remember to slow down, and also to not let my portions size increase any, i think they have slowly been creeping up, even if it is just salad.

    I couldn't be happier with my progress at the moment and I finally feel like I have found a tool to help me lose and KEEP OFF the weight. I think I've found what "works" for me, at least for now. I spoke to Dr Sabine about the rules and whether or not I should always have breakfast or only eat when I'm hungry, and he basically said he could tell me about lots of things that work for other people but at the end of the day, I have to find out what works for ME. And what's working for me is not having carbs (bread, pasta, rice, usually potato) after lunchtime. I also have the odd treat here and there, mostly leftover Christmas chocolate, and I'm still losing, so I'm happy. I know at some point I will plateau, but right now I have high hopes of reaching my goal weight before the end of the year. Or certainly before my wedding next year.

    I just really REALLY need to get a job so I can help pay for our wedding, and hopefully be able to put some away to have the arm skin removed later this year. But we'll see I guess. One step at a time!

    For now I'll just be happy to get to 88kg by the end of the month. That will get me to my mini goal of 20KG LOST! I'm going to reward myself by getting my hair done.
  17. FreshStart2
    6-7 weeks post op
    Highest Weight: 108kg
    Current Weight: 92kg
    Total Loss: 16kg
    Highest BMI: 44.5
    Current BMI: 37
    Clothing Size: 16-18 and getting loose!

    Happy New Year everybody!! Well I just had the best New Year I've ever had. (Except the one when I met my fiance and lost my virginity...sssh!).

    We spent two nights down in Victor Harbour with friends who were visiting from Darwin and Perth. They have a pool, hot tub, sauna and tennis court at their place, so lets just say a fun time was had by all. There was cheese platters BBQs and LOTS of alcohol.

    Since I was fairly "good" over Christmas, I decided to let myself go for NYE, being good during the day (I had a pumpkin and feta salad for lunch), I indulged in the cheese and crackers, creamy pina coladas and a couple of handfuls of jelly shots! We left our son with his grandparents for the night so we could relax and have our first real night off as parents.

    We all dressed up in a "Bad Taste" theme, scouring the op shops for some terrible outfits. Had a lot of fun taking the piss and snapping funny photos. At some point during the evening we all ended up in the pool, I was so proud to wear my bathers this year, I'm a long way from a bikini body, but I didnt feel too self-conscious (may have been the alchohol) and my board shorts are way too big, they almost came off in the pool. We managed to squeeze 7 of us (two girls and 5 guys) into the small hot tub....and there were lots of roaming hands, which made for a laugh (nothing dirty). At some point during the evening, people were taking photos of the tower of jelly shots i had balanced between my boobs.

    So anyway, I really enjoyed myself. Probably a little too much.

    I'm avoiding the scales for a week, but I was 92kg yesterday morning, so I'm sticking with that for now. I had another pumpkin and feta salad for dinner last night, and baked beans this morning. Back on the bandwagon immediately and hopefully I can get off whatever I put on NYE in the next week before I weigh again. My next two mini goals:

    Crack the 80's in 3 weeks.
    Lose 4kg by the end of Jan so I can tick off 20kg lost.

    I am getting a fill to help me achieve this next Tuesday (as I realised exactly how much i CAN eat if I choose to). I think another ml or 2 could help. I'm going to get back to my morning walks, and try my hardest to be active during the day. I'd like to buy the dumbbells ive been wanting for weeks and start toning exercises for my arms. And Zumba start up again next week, which I'm really looking forward to.

    I also have to make appointments with employment agencies and hope that they can help me get a job ASAP. We have a wedding to plan this year and want to get our deposit together and start building our house.
    Busy year ahead. Goodluck everybody! xx

    Photo: Me and my fiance dressed up in our bad taste outfits.
  18. FreshStart2
    I have finally reached the 15kg (30%) lost mark and I'm keen to lose the next 5.

    I'm going to set myself the goal of losing that 5kg by the end of January. That is 6 weeks, so I think it is a healthy and achievable goal. If i reach the goal, I'm going to reward myself by booking myself in for either a full body massage, or my first bikini wax! lol. I'll also take some progress photos and post. If I don't reach it, I'll get it done anyway.

    I'm going to try to ensure i get my 30mins of exercise a day, which I often put off due to weather, I don't like taking my son out in the pram if it's too hot or raining obviously. I want to try and use our exercise bike more often, though I find it easier to go for a walk. The bike gets the burning in my legs going long before i can build up my heart rate, and im forced to stop much quicker than I would like. I can managed 5mins at a time before needing a break, where I can walk for 45mins on flat, uphill and downhill terrain. I'm thinking about investing in Zumba DVDS, that i can do at home whilst the baby is asleep. I love Zumba and would love to do it more than once a week.

    Wondering if anybody else has reached a milestone and would like to share their next mini goal?
  19. FreshStart2
    1 month post op
    Highest Weight: 108kg
    Current Weight: 95kg
    Total Loss: 13kg
    Highest BMI: 44.5
    Current BMI: 39

    Still stuck. Haven't lost anything in the last week or so. Very disappointed. If anything, I have put only 500g or so. Can only eat right and exercise (when it's not 38 degrees outside!) and hope that it will shift eventually. If I can't move at LEAST another kilo by Christmas I'll be really upset. Just 2 more kilos, I just want to move 2 kg by the end of the year, and I will be happy. At the moment I'm panicking a little on the inside, thinking that I'm going to fail at this. Maybe I'll just be one of those slow losers, or one that has to do 3 hours a day of excercise (god i hope not).
  20. FreshStart2
    3.5 weeks post op.


    So I've been having a couple of issues lately, so I'm going to write them down...again.

    After my 5ml fill on Thursday, I was supposed to go back to liquids for two days, mushies on the 3rd day, and solid food on The 4th day. I got a bit impatient and sick of liquids (i was only into my 1st week of mushies when he gave me the fill), so I skipped to mushies a day early.

    I have been eating normal food combined with mushies, and my weight has stalled. Still stuck on 95kg.
    I know that I am eating too few calories. I know it should be over 800 a day, and the last few days I have been lucky to make 500 a day. At the moment, I already feel like I am in this elusive "green zone". I'm satisfied with small portions and not hungry between meals.

    The doctor's "rules" state to eat three meals a day and not snack between. They also say to stop eating when satisfied. These rules are stuck in my head, and whilst it is great that I'm remembering and living them....I find it impossible to achieve the required calorie intake when I follow these rules. On top of this, I have resumed my exercise routine, which is no doubt burning the precious calories i am consuming.

    Somebody pointed out that I have not been chewing much (owing to the mushies and liquids i have bee non since surgery). So I am going to make a point to make sure I avoid the sliders that have been my friends for the past month.

    My Goals:
    - Eat protein with every meal.
    - Make sure meals require lots of chewing...eg meat, firm vegetables, salad.
    - Avoid liquid calories.

    I know that its normal for weight to stall once you get off the liquids and onto mushies, but its just frustrating when you feel like you're doing the wrong thing, even though its what you have been told by the doctor and dietician, and also what your body is telling you to do. At the end of the day my body is telling me that I dont want/need any more food than I am eating. it is everybody else telling me I need those 800 calories a day. Not sure what to do. Will have to try and get in to see my dietician in early Jan, to see if she can help me work it out and maybe come up with a meal plan for me to follow.
  21. FreshStart2
    3 weeks post op
    Highest Weight: 108kg
    Current Weight: 94.5kg
    Total Loss: 13.5kg
    Highest BMI: 44.5
    Current BMI: 39


    Just a bit of an update. I'm down to just under 95kg which I am SO happy about. I would really like to lose that 4.5kg in the next few weeks and begin the New Year at 90kg. I may have to start my exercise again. I have been lacking in energy lately, so adding my exercise back in, should help perk me up. I'm taking the Band Buddy Nutrichews morning and night, although I did have to set reminders on my phone, because I kept forgetting. My incisions have healed nicely but still have some sticky bandages on. Will leave them off next time they fall off. My port gets a bit tender still if i lay the wrong way or do too much lifting during the day...but I have a 1 year old so that unavoidable sometimes. And it still (hurts?) feels funny when I hiccough. But other than that, I have no pain at all. My tops and jacket are much loser and more comfortable, I'm down to a size 16 in Emerson (BIG W) jeans, and even they are starting to become lose, will have to get my belt out again.

    People are commenting on my weight loss, although they are aware of how much I've lost, because I announce it on facebook every couple of kilos lol. I'm just saying I'm continuing with Optifast, nobody knows about the band. I don't like talking about how I'm doing it because I feel a little dishonest saying I'm just dieting. I think my sister, who is also trying to lose weight, and doing a great job, is a little bit puzzled as to how I've lost more weight than her in a shorter time-frame. She is in the low 70s, so she doesn't have to worry about me catching up for a while, but I know when I do, she is going to get really nervous lol. I can't wait.

    I am due to get my first fill tomorrow, although he didn't say how much he was going to put in. My hunger during the day is almost nothing, and I'm still only eating just over half a cup at mealtimes, so I don't actually feel like I need a fill? I don't want him to put it in just for the sake of it. Having said that, sometimes I feel like I COULD eat more, but I'm listening to my body and stopping when I feel satisfied, like I never have done before. I'm learning it's okay and also sometimes NECESSARY to leave food on your plate. And now I have my dog back, I don't feel so bad about wastage, cuz he eats the leftovers.

    The only time I really struggle with head hunger is around 8-9pm when my little one is in bed, my hubby is away at work, and I'm just bored watching TV. Last night I struggled knowing that I had my famous homemade shortbread in the house. I ate two pieces yesterday. I'm not craving them this morning but I know tonight I will want one. Ive put them out of my immediate sight. Tonight if I feel like one, I'm going to make myself a cup of tea, maybe a low fat chai latte for that sweetness, and then see if I still want one. If I still want one, I'll turn off the TV and go and read my book. This usually works because I get so involved in the story that I forget about everything else, including sleep! lol. I refuse to throw them out or give them away because I want to train myself to resist temptation. There is also a bar of chocolate in the fridge that I admit, I haven't been that interested in, so I think its just the novelty of having these biscuits in the house, that I only make once a year. They are special and represent Christmas to me.

    I think another reason why we become addicted to some foods, is that they hold a special place in our hearts because they hold memories. Whether its the memory of Christmas as a child, or helping your mum in the kitchen, I think we all have special family recipes or foods that are hard to let go of. We just have to let go of the quantity and frequency, which is equally as hard.

    Alright well I'm going to go and get dressed, put the baby in the pram and go for a walk!! Get outside people!


    So I got 5mls put in, which seemed like a lot to me. But so, far I'm not having any problems. it was back to liquids for a day and a bit, I'm supposed to be on purees, but after some apple puree went down fine yesterday, I've tried some cottage cheese and chilli tuna and it seems to be fine as well Definately can feel the restriction as I filled up quite quickly, but remember to stop when I thought I should, even though there were only 2-3 baby spoonfuls left. So far things are going quite smoothly, and I can only hope it continues when I make it onto normal solid food tomorrow. I'm looking forward to real food again. Healthy food mind you, but real food
  22. FreshStart2

    I'm sitting on 96kg 2 week after surgery. I was 100.7kg on surgery day so I have lost 4.5kg in the last 2 weeks on my liquid phase.

    I'm a little bit nervous about starting mushies as I know my weight loss with stall for a while, so I might start my walking tomorrow (didnt make it yesterday or today). Hopefully that will keep things moving a bit. Trouble is it's been so HOT the last week or so and I hate being outside in the sun, I burn so easily. I'm going to have to get up super early and go whilst it'll still a bit cool.

    For my first mushy meal i took the stick blender to some left over Spag Bol, and it is HEAVENLY! I have been waiting for this for 4 weeks! haha. I remembered to have a drink before hand, and I am eating out of a toddler bowl, with a teaspoon and putting it down between (small) mouthfuls. I measured out just over half a cup which I have a feeling will be more than plenty as I am filling up quickly with each spoonful.

    Tonight as my hubby is coming home I'm making pan-fried fish, with soft pumpkin and cauliflower/broccoli cheese. All soft enough for me to eat as well
  23. FreshStart2
    12 days post op
    Highest Weight: 108kg
    Current Weight: 96.5kg
    Highest BMI: 44.5
    Current BMI: 39

    Hello, Just checking in

    So its only a few more days til I reach the 2 week mark. My weight fluctuates slightly every time I check, but I'm approaching 96kg! Probably 96.5, really need to get digital scales so I can see the grams and stop guessing.

    My BMI is now under 40, yay! and I am now OBESE and not MORBIDLY OBESE. Double yay! Never thought I would be so happy to be called obese lol. The size 16 jeans I bought just last week are even becoming a little loose around the legs, although I have been wearing them for a few days now so maybe they are just stretched and need a wash to shrink them back I love my 3/4 jeans. I'm going to go back to Big W and get some more.

    I'm surviving just fine on the liquid phase, a normal menu for me at the moment would be:
    - Breakfast: cup of tea, then Optifast or Up'N'Go about an hour later
    - Lunch: Optifast, or Up'N'Go (alternating what I had for breakfast)
    - Dinner: 1/2 cup soup (this satisfies me just fine. I'm not needing more at this stage.
    - Snack: "Go Ghurt". Home-made icy pole from diet cordial or V8 juice.
    - Drinks: sipping water frequently. sometimes a diet cordial or cup of tea with skim milk and no sugar.

    It's a little bit weird to only be eating half cups at a time, but i'm using my toddler's bowls, so it looks like a normal serve
    I'm am looking forward to starting mushies in a couple of days, I'm going to make some Tuna Mornay for Wednesday night.

    I know what head hunger is now. Whenever I feel myself thinking about a sandwich or pasta for dinner, I make myself listen really hard to my body to see if the craving is coming from my tummy or my head. If I am genuinely feeling hungry between meals at the moment, a cup of tea or a little bit of yoghurt is satisfying enough, and all cravings disappear. I can also usually ignore them buy keeping busy, doing chores, reading a book etc.

    I was going to begin my walking again this morning, although as my son is in daycare, I've decided to take advantage of the quiet and clean house, and just relax with my book today. It feel really good. I think I'll go to Zumba this week, but just take it easy, maybe skip a few of the more taxing moves. Just to get back into things. I don't want to overdo it but I feel the sooner I get back into a bit of exercise the better

    I still have my period, one that has lasted since I began the pre-op Optifast diet. Nearing its fourth week. Its really annoying, wish it would just disappear. I'm attributing it to the body shock and sudden weightloss. Hopefully it will sort itself out soon, otherwise I may take a trip to the GP to discuss it. I forgot to mention it at my 1 week checkup, but he's a man...just don't feel comfortable.
  24. FreshStart2
    I learnt my first lesson today about how important it is to sip water constantly throughout the day, particularly during the recovery immediately after surgery.

    The last two days i hadnt been feeling great, not really hungry or interested in having drinks, not even a cup of tea or diet cordial. My energy level today has just been so low, i had to go back to bed when my son went down for a nap. This afternoon i just started feeling dizzy, i picked up my son which i shouldnt have any, and i had to put him down immediately. I felt queasy, my face started to tingle and i knew that the blood was draining from my face. I was going to pass out, my stepmum told me id gone pale and she got me a cold flannel for my face and made me lay down on the couch. I spent the next hour eating hydrolyte icy poles and sipping water.

    The nurse who discharged me at the hospital warned me I'd be back if I didnt drink enough water and I finally believe her. Please, please, please, carry a water bottle with you always, and DRINK!
  25. FreshStart2
    1 week post op
    Highest Weight: 108kg
    Current Weight: 98kg
    Highest BMI: 44.5
    Current BMI: 40


    So it's one week since my gastric banding surgery. I saw the clinic GP this afternoon and weighed in at 98kg. So I have lost 10kg since 1st October, 8kg since the beginning of Optifast (in the last 3 weeks). Happy with that!

    Today was the first morning that didnt hurt to get out of bed or bend down for something, so I'm healing well. The GP took out the staples from the incisions, and they are a tiny bit itchy, but it didnt really hurt, it feels like plucking hair out. I didnt get to look at them or take a photo before he put the sticky dressings back on.

    I've still got a pretty impressive bruise from when I was knocked out and in theatre. Jealous?

    Not doing too bad on liquids, not drinking NEARLY as much water as I should be. Have been drinking an optifast for one meal a day, an up'n'go for one meal, and I usually have soup for dinner. In between I'll have V8 juice, some drinking yoghurt or a small milo custard. Soooo looking forward to mushies, but the first week of liquids goes very quickly, and to be honest the first couple days you're so uncomfortable, you aren't that interested in food anyway. Well I wasnt.

    I've had vegetable and lentil soup, my cajun vegetable soup, homemade pumpkin soup, and tomorrow I'm making the potato and leek soup from the "Knife, Fork & Band" book.