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  1. FreshStart2

    Starting Over

    Hi All, I haven't actually logged onto this site for god knows how long. Years. Once upon a time...I was 112kg at my heaviest. Size 18..almost 20 if I'm 100% honest. It was 12months after my first child was born, and I was heavier than when I was pregnant with him! I underwent the gastric banding in Nov 2012. I stuck to the rules, ate the right foods, in the right portions, and did the right exercise. I managed to shed 37kg over the next 18months, to my lowest ever weight of 75kg (size 12), and I couldn't have been happier. I couldn't seem to get under that to reach my goal weight of 65kg but I was happy anyway. Unfortunately when I went back to fulltime work, an admin role, the weight started to creep back up. Juggling working fulltime as a FIFO mum was exhausting and I was become much less active. Sitting at a desk all day, indulging in the staff birthday cakes or treat lunches. I became complacent and put on about 10kg the first year I was there. Fast forward to Oct 2016 - I gave birth to my second child, and began a year-long battle with severe post-natal depression. Unfortuntely this resulted in the breakdown of my marriage as well, another reason for me to comfort-eat and not wanting to get out of bed. Between my depressive symptoms, having fill taken out (and not put back in) for my pregnancy, and various medications I was on, I piled the weight back on and I've found myself more or less back where I started. It's been a really rough 12 months. My youngest is now 18months old. Unfortunately I am separated (although not giving up hope), and I'm learning how to put myself first for a change. I joined a gym close to work late last year, and I go (amlmost) every lunchbreak for an hour during the week. I joined ParkRun - a 5km run (or walk) every Saturday morning, and I want to start learning how to run! My goal is to just beat my time every week, even if it's only by a minute. I applied and enrolled into university, something I never got to do after highschool, and come July, I will be starting a bachelor degree in Psychology. I'm so excited about this and see it as an investment in my future. I also am considering moving back to my home-state (WA) to be with my family again, after 7 years of living in Adelaide with my husband. I am hoping we will work things out and he'll come with me, but I'm preparing to go on my own (with the kids) if he won't. All of the above sounds like a lot to handle at once but I'm determined to make it happen. It's going to be the year of ME, and I'm trying to find myself again. I'm following my heart, feeding my mind and trying my hardest to regain my fitness. I'm starting over today on Optifast, 3x a day for 12 weeks for that kickstart I so desperately need. I'm also planning to make an appointment and reconnect with my banding doctor, have a bit more fill put in and work with him to lose the weight again. Most importantly, I've rejoined this community to find the support and encouragement I've been missing he last few years as I struggled to control my weight on my own. This is Day 1....107kg, size 18
  2. Hi All, Just keeping up appearances (for myself more than anyone else). Yesterday I finally went back to my band GP for a fill. Whilst have (generally) been doing well on Optifast again, after a bad week last week, I realise that when I am "bad", I am eating way too much for somebody with a band, as well as getting those hunger pangs between meals. So I bit the bullet and decided I need to be utilising my resources like I did in the beginning of my journey, and start seeing my band doctor regularly again for accountability. He put in about 0.75ml - to make an even 6ml. I didnt look at my weight as I only weigh once a month now and it's not weigh day! But I WILL be going back in a month's time to show him the progress I have made, and perhaps get another half a mil put in. Gym-wise - I took a naked selfie (from the back) after the gym the other day and realised I should be focussing more on my weight training than cardio - particularly on toning those areas that bother me. My stomach bothers me and I know I need to build my core strength with planks etc to help reduce that, but for now my focus is on my back! I genuinely HATE those rolls under the bra strap. In my limited 45minute gym time each day, I'm now focussing on the leg press (squats for my bum and lower back muscles), kettlebell deadlifts (lower back muscles), and lat pulldowns/support row machine (for my upper/side back muscles). If I focus for now on those areas that both me the most and see results in a few weeks (months), I can then move on to other problem areas such as my stomach and inner thighs. Has anybody ever used a waist trainer and had any joy with it? I'm tempted to try it to train in but feel like it might just bee another money-making weight loss gimmick that you dont actually need. Might provide some back support though if I am to focus on those exercises.....
  3. FreshStart2

    Starting Over

    Hi Girls! :) I remember you both as well! I also went back to my doctor with my tail between my legs and had some more fluid put in. I'm determined to keep seeing him regularly again for accountability and to use my band as a tool again to get where I want to be. I'd just about forgotten I even had a band! So having that little hand-brake back with some more fill will hopefulyl remind me to watch what im eating. Optfast is going well, the worst time for me is at night after the kids go to bed. Cravvviiings!
  4. FreshStart2

    Wedding Chatter

    Hello, I'm beginning to plan our wedding, so I thought it might be nice to have a little space here for fellow bandit brides (and grooms) to chat about their weddings, get ideas and give advice. The process is exciting but already a little scary from a financial aspect. The venue we LOVE look like it has a minimum spend of $10k at the time of year we want (feb) so i dont think that will be an option for us. We'll still go and get a tour and I might see if they will let us use a different (like CHEAPER) caterer instead of the one i got pricing from. I hope they do because the venue will make for some amazing photos. Nobody wants to give me $20k so i can have my dream wedding do they?
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    Non Scale Victories (NSVs)

    Got told i look skinny/good yesterday. Even though I know i have actually gained recently instead of losing it still made me feel a bit good
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    Tasty Dessert

    Just a head's up. Was feeling a little peckish after dinner....(not really hungry, but i wanted a treat....hehe ssssh!) So i've had some chopped up strawberries, about half a cup, with a little drizzle of sugar-free maple syrup for sweetness. Delicious!!! and still healthy
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    Fibre Gummies

    Whenever my son is blocked up i feed him pears. Pears work eeeeevery time, wether its a puree, whole or just juice. They are magic
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    ADD and over-eating.

    That is very interesting, although i generally am quite organised, i do seem to have a short attention span and my brother was diagnosed with ADHD as a child (although recently we believe he may have mild Asperger's).
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    Advertising on BandingTogether - Your Thoughts?

    I agree, you do a great job and if it will help ease your financial stress then i dont mind at all
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    Wedding Chatter

    You look beautiful summer lovin There is nothing more motivating than fitting into your wedding gown. Rest assured that hopefully you can have the dress alterred a little if it doesnt fit properly. I actually lost too much weight after ordering my dress and it had to be taken in which is never cheap lol
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    Wedding Chatter

    I cant possibly share all the photos, there were over 1100 and so many to choose from. but here are a few of my favourites.
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    Wedding Chatter

    Just remember I never got around to posting some photos. Here are a couple until I can reduce the file size of the professional shots.
  13. Has anybody experienced clusters of VERY painful bumps/ulcers on their tongue? I have them at the moment and it's making it very painful to eat, talk, kiss, and just leaving me miserable and irritable in general. I have just been reading up on them online to try and find a remedy to help soothe my tongue, and i noticed that it can be part of a nutrition deficiency, like from lack of vitamin B12 and folic acid. I'm wondering if anybody has had them and has seen a doctor about them? Has anybody got a remedy for it? It's driving me bonkers.
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    A good women's multivitamin?

    Im going to start buying the Vitagummies multi from Woolies. Ive been giving the kids ones to my toddler and he loves them. They look and taste like lollies lol so they are a pleasure to take
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    Vitamin/Nutrichew question

    I personally stopped using them a month after I started. they made me feel really lightheaded and yuck after taking them. I'm a fan of the Vitagummy chewable multivitamins they look and taste like lollies.
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    Tongue Ulcers?? B12 Deficiency?

    hahahaha ohhhh well done. that escaped my dirty mind. very interesting..
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    Tongue Ulcers?? B12 Deficiency?

    Pineapple has enzymes that actually eat your flesh lol. Thats why your tongue gets that prickly sensation when you eat it.....fun fact
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    Lunches for work

    After 2 years of writing letters and submitting resumes, I've FINALLY been successful in getting a job. Im very excited and I'm hoping it will be just the boost I need to get back to my healthy eating and focus on myself. Im after some ideas for healthy low-carb lunches to take to work. I want to try and do my shopping on Saturdays and prepare the week's lunches on Sunday, ready to go. I dont want to have salad every day, especially in winter. Anybody got something creative but fairly easy and cheap?
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    Lunches for work

    Havent started the job yet, starting monday Today i made some healthy slices to put in my sons lunch boxes. Its got oats, carrot, dates, applesauce and wholemeal flour instead of the usual butter, sugar and white flour. Im pretty happy with it. its not really "sweet" but the fruit gives just enough sweetness for it to be yummy. I think im going to make a zucchini slice to freeze and take to work to start with.
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    Family and WLS.

    Sounds like typical sibling rivalry to me. Deep down you love each other and want each other to be happy, but a bit closer to the surface, you secretly want to do better than them. My advice is to accept the help with the intention (and action) of paying your parents back, and do what you need for your health. Shes your sister, she'll be pissed off for a while and then get over it when her turn comes. She is just jealous and probably suffering low self esteem at this time as well so try not to take the hurtful things she says to heart. Instead be sympathetic to her situation, take the moral high ground and offer her your support.
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    Funniest reaction yet

    Rofl. I love it. Poor woman.
  22. FreshStart2

    Lunches for work

    I've been looking for my Knife, Fork and band book that Kazbo sold me 2 years ago and I finally saw it the other week, so I need to go hunt down where I saw it and look for some recipes in there I think.
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    Lunches for work

    Haha yes we were and that's been put on hold for now. I felt stupid buying condoms today to use until i can get a pill prescription. Ive only ever used them twice and hated them. Hubby isnt impressed haha. Im going to try and wait at LEAST 6-8 months until we start trying again. I think i owe my new employer that much, especially since i said i was looking for a long-term position. I dont really want to wait but i dont want to miss out on a job either. *sigh* cant have it all, can i. As for the lunches i actually have no idea what's in the kitchen, i havent started yet so it will probably be cold chicken and salad til i work that out. I do a garden salad and add chicken, feta and pineapple. The pineapple and feta actually go so nicely together. Salty and sweet yumm. Or feta and roast pumpkin is hood too. Im looking for ones that are very low carb, so just proteins and veggies. Im going to go without bread and wraps etc again because i find that works best for my weightloss. Im keen on a recipe for like a lentil and vegetable-type casserole? I might have to look in my slow cooker book.
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    Struggling :(

    So it's been a while since I've done an entry, and I'm in need of a vent so here I am. It's been 18months or so since I had my lapband put in. Around January/Feb this year, I was down to 74.5kg. My lowest weight since...I cant even remember being that weight. Down from 108kg. I had 70kg within my sights, I was doing quite well, getting prepared to walk down the aisle. My wedding was early April and since then I think I have put on about 5kg, maybe 6.5? I have been so slack and I really just can't find the motivation to get back on the wagon. I've been avoiding the scales, haven't been to see my doctor, and I'm not exercising. When I see myself say these things, I KNOW where the problem is. I need to go see my doctor, maybe get a fill, I need to start recording my weight again, and I need to get off my butt. I know that. But I just can't get my head around it at the moment. Winter isn't helping, I just want carbs and heat, and I don't know how to go back to the beginning at the moment. It seems so much harder right now. I can see myself gaining weight. the jeans that were too loose before, fit again, and I'm not happy about it. My suit that I bought for job interviews is getting just a little bit snug. Not happy. I can see those creases and rolls developing on my back and middle again. And I'm REALLY not happy about it. This should be motivation enough but I just don't know how to do it again. The worst part is that I don't think I actually need a fill. If I try to binge or scoff something too quickly, I can feel the restriction, or feel something get stuck, which tells me that I have enough fill, I'm just eating the wrong foods, and snacking when I shouldn't be. I'm starting to think that maybe I need to see somebody about my mindset with food and with my own self-image. Now that I'm not planning my wedding, and can't get work, I'm feeling a bit down about who I am and what I'm doing with my life. I know I'm a great mum but I feel like I've lost ME a bit. I'm tired of being at home all day, i miss my husband who works away, and I miss my friends and family who don't live here.
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    Struggling :(

    Thanks Ladies. I have actually made some progress on my road yo self-discovery. Ive been offered a job today. im very excited about doing this for myself and im keen to do all my food prep on Sundays ready to take healthy meals to work. Im sure that fulltime work will consume my attention instead of thinking about food all day. im hopeful that I will start to see the scales go down again.
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