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[riverliver]

Alot of what you're saying Junior rings true with me. Although my focus is not really waning, its a bit like 'well, what's next?' We've been through all these major banding milestones and approx. 3 months on here we are? Having lost the weight I have, very, very slowly now. I have doubts that the next installment of weight loss is actually possible for me. Like Shelle I feel as though my body has slipped into a comfort zone. I'm still eating carefully and generally very sensibly but under these circumstances the scale weight remains the same. I feel as though I don't really know what the next step is to change it up. I'm not complaining I'm just a bit perplexed I have an app. coming up on15th probably for a fill, i really don't have any restriction yet so I depend on my willpower, i think its wearing a little thin!
Jill.

[Tamara]

So i got the promotion. Apparently i blew them away with my great new attitude and professinal look ( funny considerin i still wear the same style of clothes, just smaller sizes, so must be hot new body LOL).

So my new problem, life is too good to be true down in weight, looking and feeling good, promoted to manager at 26yrs of age, completing diploma and its easy, planning a wedding for august....... So really have nothing to complain about....wait..... im in sabatage mode. Life seems too good to be true. For the first time in years i seem to have everything i have always wanted and yet have not worked that hard for it as in previous years. I keep thinking something bad is going to happen cause its just too good.

So due to myself causing myself emotional distress i have used it as a excuse to ruin my hard work. I have eaten everything and i mean everythink even stuff i dnt like but i know is bad like drinking coke. I hate coke i love pepsi max but i have found myself drinking it and finishing it be4 going WTF!!!!

I have not used my treadmill for a week and my body feels it i feel lazy and tired... But i cant seem to get out of this sabataing thinking pattern. Its like im punishing myself for being too happy, i know makes no sense prob certified crazy... My partner does not get it his trying to motivate me which makes me upset cause should be happy with what i have acheieved. And my nan she just looks at me like she wants to kill me if i stuff this up so had to get on here and vent......

I need to make a promise to myself to stay health continue my WL journey. I will get back on that treadmill on MOnday perhaps even tomorro and i wont let the little devil on my shoulder win this battle !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone else is going well and staying stron.. ignore the devil on ur shoulder listen to the inner voice saying no to bad eating and yes to exercising.

[eviljoy]

Everything Tamara just said (minus the promotion and the wedding).

I've had a cheat weekend, at least that is what I choose to call it. In reality it is fling off the waggon, big time.

But as they say, tomorrow is another day. I can do this. First priority though, is to call and make another psychologist appointment. Second priority is to get off my lazy butt and do some running on the treadmill.

[Tamara]

Wow she'll running I have not even built myself up to be able to run i can still only walk but I do take advantage of the incline mode to make it harder.... Ur fitness clealy has improved so be grateful for that

It's not a easy journey battling with ones own demons...... As they say nothing easy is ever worthwhile so Hesse moments of struggle are what make us who we are and show us our true strengths and what we can over come.....

The biggest struggle for me is realizing I was the reason I got so big and I'm the reason behind weather I stay big or reach my goal!

[Tamara]

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Before 102Kg appox
size18- 20

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My progress so far
78.2kg
Size 14

NSV feeling awesome

[justin]

congratulations tamara on the promotion! excellent news. and look at the pics! you look so much younger!

my week was interesting - after 3.5 years ive jumped back into the 'single' pool... which i think will stay single for a while... but wow hav i gorged. the night after it all happened i ate a WHOLE BLOCK OF CHOCOLATE... what was i thinking!?!? and last night my friends took me out... im never drinking again, i reckon i had about a weeks calorie limit in one night...

im seeing the surgeon on wed... but scared whats going to happen now... i wanted to be in the 94's... i very highly doubt that will happen now... but i dont want to weigh myself at home... its like a stupid game im playing with myself that i am only allowed 3 weighs per month.. ive already used one, and cus i hav a weigh in wont waste another. haha - stupid huh

anyway. ill let you know how i go on wednesday...

[Tamara]

wow sorry to hear bout ur break up Justin... hope it was more a mutual thing rather then a complete shock and out of no where thing!!!

Stay strong, you have all the time in the world now to think about urself only rather than someone else
Good luck, show her what she will be missing by continuing ur sucessful WL journey

[deb5291]

slowly does it they tell - BUT im impatient i want it gone now

sorry just had to get that out

[Junior]

Funny, I'm the opposite. Probably because I KNOW that if you lose the weight slowly, then you are more likely to keep it off

Things are going ok for me. The weight is coming off....at the rate of about 1kg per week. I'm more than happy with that. But... why is there always a but? ... I still have this issue with what feels like a narrowing of my esophagus around the collarbone area. I don't get food stuck in the band but i get it stuck there. I don't to throw up to get rid of it but I do have to drink extra water to move it downwards and it hurts . It's been like that since my last fill but I can manage so I haven't rushed back. I see my surgeon next Wednesday, anyhow, so will ask him about it then. I don't really want any taken out because I feel like the restriction is just right but it might be worth having say .2 taken out to see if it is more comfortable. Dunno... I'll see what he says.

Apart from that... everything is hunky dory
Junior


PS - Justin, sorry to hear of your relationship break up but look at this way - it was a cheap Valentine's Day this year

PPS - Tamara, congrats on both your promotion and your weight loss. Keep it going!

[justin]

haha - thanks tamara and junior!

welll. had the big weigh in today... was hoping to be in the "94s"... but was very scared... and BANG 93.3kgs!!! can you believe it!?!?!?!

thats a total of 27.7kgs!!! so the goal is to get into the 89's by the next weigh in in 4 weeks...

i got another mil in the band today... so 7ml in a 15ml band... he did warm me that it will be slower to come off now... and i should be aiming for 0.5kgs a week instead of the 1kg i have been working at... but pft... im going to stick with my 1kg targets and see what happens hey?? the next goal for me is saturday the 25th to be in the 91's.... wish me luck!!!

charge on!

[riverliver]

Hi everyone,
I went for my second fill today, 2 more mls making it 6mls in my 9ml band. Had to stab me 3 times before being able to inject the fluid, a bit disconcerting but not very painful! He basically manipulated through my skin and found the right spot. He said it had flipped over a bit but it was not a worry I of course feel a bit worried as I like things to be 'textbook'. Anyway I feel alright. For a couple of hours I felt as though I had swallowed a pill and had it stuck in my throat, couldn't clear it. I have had a shake and some mushies since and green tea & rice cake. No problems hopefully a bit more restriction as I have only lost 2 1/2 kgs in the last 8 weeks! I have been really good with my eating, probably my only vice is a champagne after a busy work night and too many rice crackers( my comfort food!). So now I see where the next * weeks takes me. My surgeon is very much in control of when and how much fill goes in my band, he said he likes to have 8 week intervals between fills to see how your system reacts--- so we will see I guess. I do feel as though I'm in control still so if it takes time so be it as long as I'm losing.
Jill

[eviljoy]

Hi guys,

I've been kinda avoiding coming in and posting for a while. nothing much was happening weight wise, just staying pretty stable (just under the dreaded 80kg) but not losing any. To be fair, I hadn't done any exercise in a while so I should't be expecting miracles. I did go and do some indoor rock climbing on Sunday and just did a run/walk on the treadmill this afternoon so perhaps there will be some joy on the scales this week.

On the good news front I have managed to go several days at a time without weighing myself, which is certainly better for my mental health. I seem to be in the green zone now, so I postponed my Surgeons appointment. I pushed it back from early March to mid April as I really feel like I can do this without too much more intervention. I have gone ahead and made myself another Psychologists appointment for next week just to talk things through some more. Although I have to say that the endorphin high from todays run is making me feel on top of the world without a problem or worry to call my own.

My boy has agreed to go to indoor rock climbing with me again on the weekend, a girl from work has invited me to a zumba class at some unspecified time in the future and I have a play date at a friends place on Saturday to jump on her trampoline (and eat pizza). So I seem to be scheduling in a variety of exercise with different people to keep me motivated and accountable.

I hope everyone else is doing okay.

Take care..

Shelle

[eviljoy]

Oh, I don't think I commented on Tamara's photos when she posted them as I was on my phone and I couldn't see them. Holy smacks you can see the difference, congratulations. I bet you are get a lot of comments and congratulations from the people around you now, the change is so visible.

Justin,
How are you doing a week or so post break up. I hope things have settled down a little for you, although getting yourself into a new routine will take time. I hope you have the support of friends and family who can keep your mind and body occupied and your spirits up as you get used to your new situation. I also hope that your weight has remained stable throughout this, although I can understand if there is a little hiccup. Keep going strong.

shell

[justin]

hi shell. ive been doing ok. its been a bit of a roller coaster - trying to work out how to buy him out of our house and split everything up, it all happened so quickly... and i wasnt expecting it.... but such is life. im only 25... so my new motto is "the things you do to be hot hey" haha... so im going to plough towards my goal weight - and have made the decision that im completly single until im there... (secrently im ready for a break)

the weight is going ok. im sitting at around the 93.5kg mark... my goal is to be 91kgs by the 3rd of march (mardi gras)... lets see how i go???

all of my friends and family are being great... they are all talking about how life starts again... things happen for a reason, and while its 'weird' and lonely at the moment, life does get better and life will go on.

[eviljoy]

Ohhhh. Mardi Gras. You'll be in those gold spandex hot pants before you know it. I've only been to one (watching, not marching) and I had a blast. I think if I lived in Sydneg I would be there every year.

I am glad to hear that you have a ton of support. It will be hard, but you will get through it. I don't envy the job of untangling your finances, but I do envy the continued weight loss. Well done.

Shelle.

[deb5291]

omg i have yet another overfill - off to see the dr on friday & get some taken out, this roller coaster of getting some in some out some out some out, some in some in some out, is frustrating me

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHH

Sorry needed a release

[Junior]

Sorry to hear that Deb. I hope you can find a balance soon.

As for me, it will be 3 months tomorrow since I was banded and all up, including opticrap, I've lost 17kg. My weight loss has been steady and I've been really happy so far. Except, it took me until about a week ago to realise that I was on the brink of being in the red zone. Idiot! That was why food was getting stuck around the upper chest area. Had a brainwave one day and looked in my lap band solution book.... Dunno why I didn't think of it sooner. I just thought that if the band was too tight the food would be getting stuck THERE. Oh well... you live and learn. Had .2ml taken out on Wed and feel better already. It's amazing how so little fluid can make such a big difference. Ahhh well, you live and learn.

Now for the next 3 months

Junior

[justin]

i did it! well the goal was to be in the "91's" by the 3rd of march... christmas came early with a weigh in of 91.9kgs (hehe scraped in)... so the goal for next week is to be in the 90's.... eeek so close to being in the 80's!

happy boy this morning

[deb5291]

well couldnt get to the dr on friday due to very sick hubby & dog.... my turn monday ....lucky they can fit me in get some taken out & get back on track

tried some clothes on i bought for our holiday & shit it annoys me how clothes sizes are all over the place ... 2 skirts size 16 - 1 fits beautiful - litttle big if anything, the other i cant get it on , more like a bloody 12 shit shit shit (bought both on line from the same person, you would think people be honest enough to say it is a very small fit) oh well it fit me later

sorry for yet another whinge, im getting frustrated = cant eat & have holiday coming up & throw in a sick hubby & dog to the pot ARGH

[Junior]

That's what we are here for. Whinge away